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Meth/Amphetamines: Serious Discussion Only

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when you're shovelling it in sometimes it flicks..never seen one come outa the pipe though?
unless you're scooping above your head...hahaha
 
I wish my fucking tracks would go away, but i'll wait.
Thanks Lydia! I'm doing fine :)
I rediscovered marijuana, and I enjoy it now, it's been so long. And I know I had a bad problem with benzos (in particular temazepam) but they seem to be nessesary in this case.
 
sorry i wasnt on long today gorgoroth but i did read somewhere ur 16 days meth-free and i think u deserve a round of applause! *hugs*
and yea ur right benzos r pretty necessary during meth withdrawal - just b careful eh
i spose theyll hav given u valiums not temazepam anyway
ive never had crystals flick into my hair
how do u load ur pipe snowite? i take it u scoop the shards carefully via a straw of the side of a juice-box (thats how i used to do it anyway)? cant for the life of me imagine how ud get it in ur hair.....
dont think of it as bad luck that u cant score coke and meths so fucking expensive that its somewat a put-off......count urself lucky.......those r 2 of the most destructive substances on this planet
btw im having a bit of trouble with meth cravings atm - not taking my dexies is really taking a toll on me not to mention i watched a horror movie today that was full of meth use.....and i just cudnt seem to turn it off!
ARRRRGH! fucking meth! even after all this time it can seem like it owns me at times and i fucking hate it for that!
 
yep after awhile the drug controls u drug wench
i hate it
i have no self control
if i try n cut down i end up doing it all anyway :(
then i cry and do more meth to make me feel better
destructive circle of life
 
I watched spun last night and the sad thing is, it's not even innacurate about the speed freaks lifestyle!
day 17 today muh niggaz, wish me luck :)
 
gorgoroth i assume that's day 17 off the shards?
that's fantastic :) I don't know you but that's really really great of you, good willpower!
i wish you a lot of luck, glad you have finally kicked the meth devil! how long did u use for?
im getting off this very soon, haven't set a date yet but got a doctor appointment next week getting a prescription for an alternative to meth, I hope I do ok!
Absolute best of luck!!!
 
ur getting a prescription for an alternative to meth? id b curious to know wat theyre giving u - is it dexamphetamine? or another dopamine inhibitor like wellbutrin? gd luck, claire - i know u can do it
and gorgoroth - i used to luv spun, now that movie just makes me sad cos it was my life
same, to a degree, with the TV series, breaking bad
17 days - YAY!!!
oh man, u keep going like this and ur going to b spending this yrs bdays clean - ull b able to enjoy the cake!!!
i always fiend for meth around xmas cos we hav some family issues (im estranged from my father due to my past drug use which hurts) but i try and remind myself of past xmases where i spent all day periodically sliding a needle into my vein, pushing the plunger and looking at the plump turkey like it was cat food
i can enjoy that turkey this yr
lets hope we all can - lets make it a goal to mention in this thread on xmas day wat we enjoyed eating
that wud b like a xmas present to ourselves
oh and im getting a new tattoo!
my tattoo artist was a meth addict too and we often share how weve bn getting on wen hes inking me up - he has a tattoo (somewhere private he says!!!) saying 'dont look back - you'll never return' and that inspired me so i kind of want to get something similar........reworded of course (not to b a copycat :p)
got to come up with something soon!
my cravings r still really bothering me - im not very well so i feel rundown and i know a hit of meth wud pick me up
but only for so long eh
wat goes up must come down :(
 
A buddy of mine thought I'd kick his teeth in because he had a debt for something and hadn't payed back money.

I hate how people's perception of me has changed since. We had a talk and it's cool. It made me think for a bit on how whack that was. Damn.
 
I may have to get checked out more carefully physically and mentally before they decide which ones to prescribe for me
but I shall keep you all posted :)
I've been doing less benders on the shards lately, past 4 days I've done one night of drugs then the next sleeping, I feel a bit better 'cos I used to do 2 nights in a row MINIMUM.

Yes I am glad I will possibly be able to eat because I enjoy it at Christmas this year, instead of shoving tasteless food down my throat for the sake of the relatives.
That tatt sounds like a good idea drug wench, I was also thinking of getting something after I've kicked this, a little thing on my wrist saying "recovery-returning to former prosperity or status" but I'd hav to be off it a few months before I got it, cos if I relapsed I'd just cry about it haha.

Hope your cravings go away! But you're strong you don't need it
 
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yep wen u go for treatment ull hav a thorough checking-over
its gd to hear ur sleeping a bit more - that lets ur brain heal a bit
yea i thought about the awful possibility of relapsing after getting the tatt - after all the scary thing about relapse is if ur careless and u give into the cravings, it doesnt matter how long uve bn clean, it can still happen
fact is ive bn on meth longer than ive bn (since) clean from it
lately ive bn smoking heaps of ciggies to combat the cravings a bit - damn not being able to see my horse......the adrenaline of jumping and galloping is normally wat keeps my cravings at bay
went to the doctors today and shes put me on some more powerful medicine so cross fingers im better by....soon enough to start riding again!
 
dexedrine helps me loads, especially in combo with calcium carbonate.
It helps alot more then adderal or ritalin, because it's more potent mg per mg, and in effects. It's also harder to get a script for due to stigma, so I wouldn't go in and straight up ask for it.
 
ive never personally done meth. the closest ive come is adderal, or ecstasy. ive never even touched cocaine. Because i know i would love it, and my personality is too addictive to stop once i started. its just something i know about myself.
but 3 of my very close family memebers are meth addicts. one has quit, even though i know she thinks about it constantly. (she told me herself, and i could tell anyway.) one tells me he's quit, and it seems to be true, but how would i know? i hardly see him since i moved, and it really is one of the few drugs you can use and still function around people without them really knowing whats going one. the third person.... wont listen to me, or to anyone else about what shes doing to herself. she's 5'5", and weighs maybe 90lbs. skin and bones. it makes me sick to look at her, to hug her, because i know im seeing/touching/talking to a drug. i try to talk to her about it, and she blows me off, ignores me, screams at me, does anythign she can to shut me out. im scared for her life. i know she was a heavy user about tenish years ago, but she got off for her kids. now therye grown and shes back on it, due to a loser boyfriend we all warned her about anyway. as far as i can tell, she's been using for about a year now... im afraid something terrible is going to happen. can anyone help me help her? is there anything i can do to get through to her? i feel like ive said all i can say, but there has to be something im missing. there has to be a way to help her. please, someone help me help her. im no angel myself, by any means, and i dont feel superior just bcause ive never done meth or coke. i have my own demons. but this is getting to be live or death, and im really, really scared. please help me if you can, it would be so appreciated. thanks.
 
meth ruins lives, starts off fine but most get sucked in
good thing you've never tried it
thats the reason i've never used heroin, 'cos i know i'll like it
there isn't much you can do to be honest, if she wants to use then she will continue to use no matter what others say
 
exactly
a drug addict will not listen until theyre ready to listen
esp a meth addict unfortunately
IME wen ur high on meth, ur right and evryone else is wrong
often u dont even think u hav a problem - its evryone elses problem not urs
all u can do is let her know ull b there for her if she ever decides to stop and needs the help
and well b there for u at the same time
i suggest u try going to an Al-Anon meeting if u want a bit of understanding and support from others living with addicts/alcoholics
much luck to u and im sorry to hear about ur sister
sadly my brothers going much the same way, and as an ex-meth addict myself, that is terrifying
yep gorgoroth, dexies help with meth cravings......only thing is theyre addictive in themself - not as addictive of course but theyre still often a problem if abused
however if ur talking about dosing for AD(H)D, theyre a godsend as far as im concerned
no other ADHD med worked for me - having to come off them while i taper off valium is soooo frustrating
partly cos ive got my meth cravings back and partly cos my ADHD is driving me up the fucking wall!
 
drug_wench said:
a drug addict will not listen until theyre ready to listen
esp a meth addict unfortunately
IME wen ur high on meth, ur right and evryone else is wrong
often u dont even think u hav a problem - its evryone elses problem not urs
all u can do is let her know ull b there for her if she ever decides to stop and needs the help
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precisely....
my family is always telling me to get off it, and i just didn't care, i thought "they just don't know what it's like, they have never even tried it!"
and its not as easy and someone saying "get off it or ill leave" it's a lot deeper and more complex than that. physically and mentally!

my boyfriend of 3 yrs left me 'cos i wouldn't get off the meth, I just didn't see how it was his problem
 
sad how we fuck up relationships like that with our meth use eh
i had one clean bf, adrian, out of a myriad of bfs - he didnt even smoke or drink
he wud hav looked after me and given me a better life than most of the others put together, but after awhile he cud no longer take the mood swings and the paranoid behaviour so he left me
i thought 'its his problem not mine'
i had a couple of friends who left me for the same reason - it just got too much for them
theyd come around and there id b fried off my nut or worse - prepping a shot or loading a pipe
i remember one friend saying to me 'i chose to b friends with Lydia not Methamphetamine'
of course i just thought she was a bad friend
luckily some clean friends did hang in there for me - and claire, i hope u hav some clean friends that hang in there for u too.....cos it makes it a hell of a lot easier wen u finally break free
 
Yep a few of my clean friends have left me, 'cos I also go a bit crazy after a few days.
One time I was with a mate I'd been awake 5 days, a cop car is driving down the same street as me, I go crazy and think somebody has ratted me in to the cops. I had a few G's on me, I almost cried and went on a crazy detour for about 2 hours trying to 'lose them' and the whole time my friend was going mad at me trying to convince me otherwise, but nothing could change my mind (even though I hadn't seen cops in 2 hrs, I was convinced they could somehow see me or had a tracker in my car, the birds were there spies etc) and I wouldn't say anything that could possibly incriminate me ( I was off my nut)
My friend never talked to me again after that, thought I was a complete nutcase, and at the time I thought she was a bitch, but now I realise I was a raging madwoman!
And yes I've also had a lot of boyfriends! Some for longer than others, mostly fellow users, but had raging libidos and usually slept with other people, but I didn't care 'cos I had my drugs! They were #2 to the drugs!
I have a fair few clean friends, and even some user friends I know wouldn't tempt me and wouldn't use in front of me once I quit, so it's all good :)
 
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