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Meth/Amphetamines: Serious Discussion Only

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anything with a bright orange colour reminds me of the cap of terumo syringes. though the cravingds have subsided in the recent past when i see them...thank fuck. and i can definitely relate to the $3 ice bags...
 
The worst for me was freezers in the kitchen at my old work place. Right back when I was using at my heaviest (which was still nothing compared to some of the other people here), the chunks of ice that would form on the boxes then shatter when we opened them would look like massive piles of crystal, always brought the drug to mind almost immediately.

6 weeks and I still haven't destroyed my pipe. It's sitting in my stash below one of my desk drawers, I'm too scared of it to open that drawer up, but somehow can't bring myself to go down there and grab it and just hurl it at the wall. Haven't deleted numbers from my phone either, I know I should, I don't pick up when those people call, but maybe it's better to at least know who is calling so I know not to pick up out of curiosity and find someone offering.
 
Crankinit said:
6 weeks and I still haven't destroyed my pipe. It's sitting in my stash below one of my desk drawers, I'm too scared of it to open that drawer up, but somehow can't bring myself to go down there and grab it and just hurl it at the wall.
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Smash it, Now! Or get someone else to come around and do it for you, it won't help anything. I know it'll be hard, I am gonna find it hard to do it when the time arises. BUT if you are serious about detox, please do it for your sanity!
It'll only empower you :)
And congrats for staying off the stuff, ain't easy!
 
I'll smash mine when you smash yours :p

But seriously, I know I should get rid of it. But I've got enough on my mind right now without putting that kind of emotional stress on me. Once I sort everything out on monday, no matter what comes, that entire stash is going. Pipes, bags, straws, lighters, drugs (there's still some weed and a few dregs of miscellaneous substances down there).
 
leftwing said:
throw the stash away with the pipe, thatll solve something:) no point in having a stash and no pipe. meth heads have a way of improvising.
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Oh god there's no meth down there. I can barely bring myself to open the drawer incase there's any residue on the pipe and I end up wanting to try smoke it, if there had been a bag down there, well, there wouldn't be for long.
 
Next week hopefully...its still in use atm, blah.
Although I haven't done any today which is prob my first day I haven't used in about three years..so I'm feeling quite CRAP!
How long for/much did you use?
 
claire22 said:
Next week hopefully...its still in use atm, blah.
Although I haven't done any today which is prob my first day I haven't used in about three years..so I'm feeling quite CRAP!
How long for/much did you use?
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Just over a year. Started out once a month or so, then twice a month, then every weekend, then every other day. Stopped after 4 or 5 months, held off for 2 before I started again and repeated the cycle. Stopped again in August when I was back at 2 - 3 times a week, used a few more times in early october, decided enough was enough (again) and haven't touched it since.

I'm just glad I realised how evil this shit is (relatively) early on. I've seen too many people who fell into it a lot harder, and I don't want to be that. A friend and I started using at the same time, he skipped almost straight into full on week long bender mode, and was still in complete denial that he even had a problem when I last spoke to him in October.
 
Ohh that is very good that you got it reasonably early, wish I had done that that's all I can say.
I do know some casual users that managed to keep it under control, once a week use and don't need it anymore than that. Don't know how they do it.
Yup lots of drug addicts will even deny to THEMSELVES that they have a problem, I sure used to !
I'd do it everyday and think 'I can stop anytime I want to, I just don't want to'
Ha what a load of bullshit...
 
Ohh that is very good that you got it reasonably early, wish I had done that that's all I can say.
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Yeah that's one of the huge things that keeps me away from it. I know if I don't, I'll wish I had.

I do know some casual users that managed to keep it under control, once a week use and don't need it anymore than that. Don't know how they do it.

I'd do it everyday and think 'I can stop anytime I want to, I just don't want to'
Ha what a load of bullshit...
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Yeah I was the same. On the one hand I'd use increasingly, always buy more than I need and always use every last crumb of what I buy, think about it nonstop, but I'd tell myself I was just having fun and could stop whenever I wanted, all the while planning my next chance to hit the pipe.



Yup lots of drug addicts will even deny to THEMSELVES that they have a problem, I sure used to !
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Yeah it was pretty fucked. 'I only use it because people offer so much to me/I only use it to keep awake at work/I only use it because it's cheap/I don't even enjoy it that much.' But I saw the way his eyes would light up every time someone mentioned the drug, I saw just how far he would go for a hit, I saw who it turned him into. Eventually enough is enough.



Not sure how it'll go for you when you stop, but I found the hardest part wasn't immediately after I stopped for the last time, but a little while later. Once the crash depression has worn off and the seedy feeling is gone and the cravings have time to kick into full force and suddenly a hit doesn't seem like 'that' bad an idea after all.
 
A whole thread dedicated to Speed, I never thought the day would come when I'd see a speed thread.

It's my absolute favorite drug no doubt about that. I tried it once a little over 2 years ago and I fell in love with it ever since. Hasn't fucked me up or anything though so I guess I should be thankful. I stopped doing street speed a week and a half ago and don't really wanna do more. I think I've reached a point where I've abused the fuck out of it and don't really feel the need to continue anymore.

Thinking back these 2 speedy years sorta scared me out of doing it a bit. All I can remember is me being awake and not sleeping at all. In 3 month of this summer I slept for a total of 22 or 23 days throughout 3 months and the rest was all super awake and super motivated. I'd be riding my bike at 3am and just always SO active.

Since I stopped I already regained a normal sleep schedule and go to bed and wake up at a normal time.

I still take my Adderall every morning and that does what I want it to do.

I'm thinking of the future though when I don't have Adderall no more and being without any Amphetamines/Methamphetamines it's gonna be upsetting to have to return to being like everybody else working at a slower pace and just doing less then I would be doing on Speed.
 
I has played in many metal bands over the years as a vocalist and meth was always associted with heavy metal for me! that makes it the hardest, thank god for the dexedrine, although the dex is VERY addictive to! It keeps me clean, and functional.
day 21!
I feel great man, but I look so much younger. I look like a teenager now since I came off speed and it's horrible, I feel younger to, but it's better then being a demon-possessed speed freak!
I'm doing great, any of my brothers and sisters here strugglin with addiction to speed, you guys CAN do it, thats cliche as fuck, but it's so true. I thought it was cliche and bullshit to, till I put it in practise!
whenever I feel like using meth I listen to Deathamphetamine by thrash metal band EXODUS.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DNyHShylv3w
 
unfortunately i cant get any amphets prescribed. grrrrrrrrrrr
dex is a lot better for you..cleaner etc, no bullshit cutter
glad to hear you're doing well :)
stay strong!
 
claire22 said:
in all honesty im terrified to let it go..its been there for me everyday the past six yrs..eek!
:( i hope i can do it
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You can do it all right, you have to! I was very-near death at the end of my addiction, but i'm healthy now, I gained 26 (well needed) pounds, even though I feel younger now and look younger, It's so much better. Meth will kill you or cripple you permanently if you keep using for a certain period of time, because theres a 99 percent chance you (meaning anybody) won't use meth 'occasionally'. Get either benzos (SHORT TERM-2 WEEKS ONLY), and/or antipsychotics, marijuana helped me, but it can be addicting to some, it helped me though and it was well worth it. And eat and excercize well. Play some sports, release the bodys natural endorphins and adrenaline. And think of all the horrific times you had on meth, is it worth it? are you worth getting killed over bloody tweak? no fucking way! you are better then meth, you need to be in control of it, it's very, VERY fucking hard to do, and you won't be happy for a week or two, you'll be absolutely fucking miserable, no real getting away around that. But the light at the end of the tunnel is there, and sober life isn't that bad, I'm not even completely sober, but I avoid the 'hard' drugs now.
I guess what i'm saying is that a chemical shouldn't control a person, you ARE better then meth, don't let it enslave you, you are so much better then that.
I think you can do it! I know you can, I sure did and boy was it worth it.
 
claire22 said:
unfortunately i cant get any amphets prescribed. grrrrrrrrrrr
dex is a lot better for you..cleaner etc, no bullshit cutter
glad to hear you're doing well :)
stay strong!
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hey thanks, Unfortunately the dexedrine is probably the #2 in the amph family in terms of abuse potential, and i take antacids to make it stronger. But I NEVER go over my perscribed does of 60 mg/day (doctors won't usually perscribe this amount, especially not initially, I just got a good one). But either Dex, Adderal (to a lesser degree), Methylphenidate (to an even lesser degree) and wellbutrin can help loads, if one doctor gives you shit or a bad time, don't give up, there are all sorts of docs.
 
i'm trying to quit or at least use only rarely. Only problem is I have a girlfriend who always wants to do it and I simply loose my willpower when i'm around her. She is constantly begging me to do it with her, cries when i don't and I feel weak because i let it get the better of me every time. I'm constantly breaking promises with myself about not using, and I can generally keep these promises when I'm not around her.
 
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