Haven't been around for a while.
Left wing: Outstanding Job staying off meth! Like
Red leader mentioned, drug addiction and post acute anhedonia is very responsive to excercise. I am working on restablishing a good exercise program. I was in the habit at the beginning of summer (up in this hemisphere) of surfing almost every day. It helped immensely. As one that was strung out on full agonists as well, this has been very therapeutic. However, I injured my back July 10 which set me back so I'm trying to get back into a regular excercise routine. This especially helps with the opiate PAWS/ cravings.
I almost relapsed back on 7/24 meth specifically, and the people on this board provided a
huge amount of support- thanks everyone . The people in my 12 step world were a huge help too- found that alot of people care. What this did was motivate me to pick up my 4th step and work through it so I wasn't paralyzed by fear and tortured by resentments and regrets about the past. The obsession to use meth was lifted from me so by the middle of aug I wasn't constantly thinking about it. I also sought proffessional help for my depression and am undergoing treatment using an agent that might stir up controversy among some 12 stepers- but it is working well so far.
Footcrazy don't be hard on yourself for relapsing
Pretty shitty being on Day 1 rather than having 4 months off the shit
When they say we only have today takes on new meaning for me after I almost relapsed- we all only have today. You have been a hugely supportive to alot of people around here so don't lose hope- I related with you when you said that you had become complacent because thats what happened to me. Hope your doing well.
SweetP
I know you have been struggling for a while. You are another one thats been really supportive on this board. It might seem hopeless and pointless right now but you've got a good heart, good attitude, and taking steps in the right direction. You can definetly do this! Worry about getting clean. Everything else will end up falling into place. What helped me get clean was going to meetings loaded and asking for help. I know that meth abuse is a new phenomena, relatively speaking in New Zeeland. But San Diego has one of the oldest meth scenes in the world (going back to post WWII). I know people that were on the drug for decades and are clean now for decades- staying clean in a sea of honey so to speak with the drug all around. A huge chunk of those that have stayed clean have gone back and resumed educations and/or obtained better employment. I just got a job offer last week so life getts better. If I had used back in July there is a good chance I wouldn't have fraction of the blessings I have now. The most worthwhile gifts for me have been peace and hope. A little more sanity and stability in my life haven't been such a bad thing either.
My friend Alex
(Gorgoroth) how are things going with you if you're out there. Hope you are doing well! Keep you in my thoughts.
