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Meth/Amphetamines: Serious Discussion Only - V.2: MERGED with amps quitting thread

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Alright brothers and sisters. Heres an issue.
Lets jus put it like this. A
male weighing 175and
is 21 yrs old first evrr tried meth when he was
18 and after that he wasnt a moderate user only
since then he would only snort under half a
gram a meth on ocassiond that would happen
every 4 months when he wanted to have good
sex..w.e. So recently this time on aug 10 he had
.5 of meth consumed... Then his inital intention
was to stop and heal... Then a buddy
treating for his bday so on aug 13 another half
gram was snorted by this individual and
smoked weed threw out this process everything
appeared normal untill days have passed .and
he was woundering wtf is going on because he
still felt very weak and some sort of brain fog
lingered after 13 days and still wakes up not
sharp and lack of energy. First time continueing
like that binge ithink its called. Just want my
sobriety back and to function normal and to
never touch this stuff again he has a daughter
he has to be there for and support single
Parent.Pls help will this go away or im i stuck
like this and am going to have to man up and
face the consequences fore life? Help apperciated
 
adrian310 said:
Alright brothers and sisters. Heres an issue.
Lets jus put it like this. A
male weighing 175and
is 21 yrs old first evrr tried meth when he was
18 and after that he wasnt a moderate user only
since then he would only snort under half a
gram a meth on ocassiond that would happen
every 4 months when he wanted to have good
sex..w.e. So recently this time on aug 10 he had
.5 of meth consumed... Then his inital intention
was to stop and heal... Then a buddy
treating for his bday so on aug 13 another half
gram was snorted by this individual and
smoked weed threw out this process everything
appeared normal untill days have passed .and
he was woundering wtf is going on because he
still felt very weak and some sort of brain fog
lingered after 13 days and still wakes up not
sharp and lack of energy. First time continueing
like that binge ithink its called. Just want my
sobriety back and to function normal and to
never touch this stuff again he has a daughter
he has to be there for and support single
Parent.Pls help will this go away or im i stuck
like this and am going to have to man up and
face the consequences fore life? Help apperciated
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It will go away.

You may crave doing it again once this initial fear goes away. That's the addiction working its evil spell. Don't give in.

You don't give in, you stay away, you get back to normal.

You give in, you strengthen the cycle of addiction and make it even harder the next time you resolve to quit. Quit now.

You are going to be fine. Also: you are awesome. Awesome for caring about the consequences, especially where your daughter is concerned. Good luck!
 
Thanks brother lll take the advice and stop! I just want to have an idea why you think itll go away .have you experienced this? Much respect
 
Oh yeah! I was an addict for several years in the beginning of the millenium, putting that particular chemical in my body every which way you can imagine. I distanced myself from other users, burnt my bridges, moved, and got back to having a real relationship, became a Dad, and here I am eleven years later. (I still used psychedelics like mushrooms, marijuana, and, of late, research chems--but am on a new road to cutting everything out again, after realizing I can't moderate).

Right on, bro!

Keep in touch as you like, bro!

Haven't TOUCHED or even seen methamphetamine since I quit, too.
 
It will go away, Adrian.
But you need to respect your body until things are better.
Meth can have harsh affects on some individuals.
And your experiences with this product can hugely vary each time you use.
I remember having about 100 good experiences and then one really nasty experience, which caused me physical pain for months on end.
I have not touched meth since then (about a year ago) and my life is fine now.
Just make sure you do the responsible thing and keep off the gear.
You are already getting warning signs from meth, your life is not worth the risk.
 
Hey all. I just want to check in-I don't come here or post very often. Anyway, on August 8 I celebrated 21 years clean- off of everything. That's what it took for me: weed, alcohol, and of course meth. I don't even take over the counter cold medication. Although I do drink a lot of coffee. I also owe a lot of getting clean to NA, but I was with a lot of good people back then who were there for me- I understand that it's not always the same.

It's really good to see people with 10+ years posting in here too.

Anyway- when the going gets weird, the weird turn pro. Quitting meth ain't easy, and staying quit can be a bitch. but seriously- when you get to the other side, it's totally worth it. Hang in there, and you'll see!
 
Day 16 still not 100 percent myself. Im seeing a therapist right now dont know wether if i should tell him about my drug consumption. Im giving my daughter back to her mom untill i figure out whats going to happen to me.also because i feel im not doing a good job as a dad.
I have low energy, my thinking is cloudy and im worried sick reading for an answer.
Do you guys think the dealer could have altered the substance with something else to mess me up for good?
 
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I've had my shares of psychosis from the stuff... Sounds like you could be going through the tail end of one. Eat a big meal, get some serious rest. Read a book.

If you're talking with a therapist, and you like the person, let 'em know what you're worried about. Some of them are helpful. Some are shitbags. We're just users and ex-users here on bluelight.

And sure, your dealer could have put anything in with it. Happens all the time. Fuck, some of 'em let their cum dry on plastic wrap and mix it in with the crystal. Nasty fucking shit.

(That ought to help you stay away.) ;) No, seriously, though. Stop worrying about it and get back to life. Work, eat, sleep, get into a routine. Exercise. Watch a comedy. Have some fun. Pick up a hobby. Go fishing. It's nice this time of year in the northern hemisphere.
 
Thanks just a guy. Days are passing and reality is just not the same. Im not hearing voices or seeing stuff so i guess thats good . Does anyone know how the you brain works in stages after being fried ? From experience
 
Sounds like you are going through that "Numb" and "Indifferent" stage.

Sometimes after pingin' your brain really hard w/ dope you'll experience "negative feedback." Kind of like if someone's paddling your ass, it hurts at first but after a while it'll go numb. That's how your joie-de-vivre is taking it. On dope, it's like your "joy of life" is getting a high-voltage boost. But what goes up must come down.

Just sharing this because it's important to know that it's temporary. It really is.

And I'm trying to get you to feel that smallest piece of some hope, because when you do, you can already rest assured that you are recovering. Because hopelessness is part of the withdrawal symptoms. And when you get past full-on hopelessness, you're on a good track back to smiles and sunshine. (Speaking of which, you better get as much of that as you can. Hell get a tan. Sunlight's good for recovery!)

The worst thing you could ever do is use again, because, again, it's like smackin' that ass while it's already red, sore, and bruised.

Peace

I invite you to join our monthly thread in Sober Living; August is just about over, but here it is: http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/threads/685534-August-getting-staying-sober-v-you-can-do-it!

Chime in and unload.
 
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Thanks just a guy your a good man god bless you. I apperciate everything man i realley do. Itold my mom the other day what idid and whats wrong with me and she wasnt shocked or anything but she said shes geting tired of me just restingand being depressed snd now is trying to have me go to the mental hospital untill i get beter ... Irealley dont want to because i could imagine i might go crazier in there but do you think i should take it in consideration and go or leave and go to a motel and try to continue my recovery. Ijust feel bad for my daughter that she might nevrr have her dad back
 
Thanks, man. We all hope that when we suffer, we suffer so somebody else doesn't have to. Just paying it forward. You'll do the same one day.

As far as what I think about going to a mental hospital: I really don't know you well enough to give you a responsible answer. But, the brave thing to do is just take your mom's advice. Believe it or not, people who don't understand chems usually show no mercy or understanding. Nothing to get mad about. It's just the way it is. But, you'll join the ranks of many brave people who "grin and bear it" because it's worth it. Just part of what comes with it. And later on in life, you'll find that everyone will respect you for it, instead of the opposite.

Again, you're awesome for doing what's right for yourself, your kid, etc, even though it's the hard way. Always remember that. We're all victims of our own choices, but damn it, we're going to face this shit and end up on top.

And the weirdest part of it all... Ten years down the line (like me) you'll tell yourself how lucky you are to have made it, when you hear about other people going through it. And it'll even seem like it was easy. Seriously. You might even start calling it the "good old days." Nature of man. lol

Peace, brother.

So, on that note, I'd just take her advice and move on with it. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger? This is one case where that actually makes sense.

Thanks for letting me help. I needed to be of service.

And... damn, I didn't have a kid while going through this, so I don't have any experience to help give a good answer on whether or not this will affect your custody. It's a tough decision. Bring that fear up with your therapist. ASAP. That's important, and will probably focus your resolve to beat it. And talk out that fear with your mom. She may not give you an answer you like. In fact she might piss you off with her answer. It happens. Like I said, people who haven't been there can be pretty hasty and pretty insensitive. Keep your cool. Sometimes you feel like a beggar asking for change, and your hopeful-donor says "get a job." It's frustrating, because you're in a tough spot. Keep your back straight. NEVER lose your self-respect, and come out stronger than you did going in.

I'll pray for you, man. I'm a pretty religious guy, so that's not just a bunch of words. Good luck and God bless you.
 
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wow i fucked up again. . . chipping . but it CAN be somewhat fun at first. ALthough everyone thinks you're weird and talk to much etc.
 
Fuck ups happen, motiv.
Accept what has happened, put it behind you and built mental reinforcements to try prevent this from consuming you.
 
Day 38 in the books

Had a brief (couple seconds), strong urge to use (I was in a setting where I've used before, and have been struggling with mood/fatigue recently)

But it was never a serious consideration

If I stay consistent, life can only get better
 
Okay day 32 im.clean still and no urge to use what so ever. But my mental function of reality is still not the same.im alot less worried but still sometimes i get in that im doomed mode imretarted forever. speech is still altered and im just slower still. How long did it take for you guys to mentally be back/fixed? Im doing normal things again though like working and helping out family etc :)
 
adrian310 said:
my mental function of reality is still not the same.im alot less worried but still sometimes i get in that im doomed mode imretarted forever. speech is still altered and im just slower still. How long did it take for you guys to mentally be back/fixed? Im doing normal things again though like working and helping out family etc :)
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I can't speak for amphetamines alone, but there was a point when I had a few years clean of a nasty polydrug habit that had lasted literally half my life. It took me about 2 years clean to feel 99% again, but I had been abusing pretty much every class of drugs although the main culprit was usually obnoxious amounts of benzos.

Working out (both strength training and cardio), meditation, a healthy diet, and plenty of sleep are key to recovery.

I wish I had taken my own advice because I ended up slipping into old habits when I quit taking my recovery seriously and here I am trying to get clean all over again...
 
leftwing said:
it's been 10 weeks clear, now:)

the hardest were the first 2-3 weeks. initially getting over the cravings of every weekend use and filling that void; the psychological re-adjustment basically. finding things to fill that void can be difficult but if you have a support network of friends and family it definitely is a hell of a lot easier.
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thats Awesome.i cant get pass the friday sat thing where its like. Ahh the weekend <snip>
 
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i was on one for two years, then sober for two years, and just recently had a 6 day binge.
mainly it stemmed from acute loneliness and depression.
i have been reading this forum for the past several days, trying to stop myself from getting more.
obviously it's not a good thing but it's an "i want" sort of thing. i want more, just to forget how much pain i'm in.
how much no one around me cares. how completely alone i am, trying to do this all by my fucking self. how it doesn't matter if i went back to being an addict anyway, i'm sure everyone would just say they knew it would happen.
i've taken nyquil to sleep, i'm drinking now to take the extra edge off. it's been 3 days since i smoked the last of my shit.
 
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adrian310 said:
Okay day 32 im.clean still and no urge to use what so ever. But my mental function of reality is still not the same.im alot less worried but still sometimes i get in that im doomed mode imretarted forever. speech is still altered and im just slower still. How long did it take for you guys to mentally be back/fixed? Im doing normal things again though like working and helping out family etc :)
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It can take various amounts of time for your brain to function at its peak once again, everybody is different.
I would suggest trying to expand your social skills wherever possible. Have some good talks to your friends, family and co-workers..
Eventually you will get the hang of it :)
Day 32, that's really cool.
By the time you double that figure, i reckon you'll feel a lot greater =D
 
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