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Meth/Amphetamines: Serious Discussion Only - V.2: MERGED with amps quitting thread

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focalin and benzos together?

i'm new to posting so if i'm in the wrong area, please inform :)

i was prescribed focalin today 10mg bid #60 by my pdoc. i am also on ativan, lexapro and tranxene for severe anxiety and panic attacks. i'm curious as to whether these will work independently (focalin and the 2 benzos) or will they cancel each other out?

i don't abuse the benzos and don't plan on railing the focalin. opiates are my weak point there. to which i might as well list everything i'm on in addition to the above:
lortab10 4x daily and then some
zanaflex 4mg 3x daily
phenergan 25 as needed
ambien 10 at night
trazodone 50-100 at night (chronic insomniac here)
ultram 50mg tid as needed

+ testosterone and b12 injecitons which i don't think would affect any of the above.

so... my main question focalin and ativan/tranxene... will they work together or against each other. i've heard of them prescribed before in comorbid anx/adhd cases.

i realize i'm overmedicated esp for my age. 24... i just want to know if this focalin is gonna work or screw up my anxiety meds and send me into a tachycardic, sweaty, jittery spiral into panic before i take it.

thx
 
Im over the honeymoon "wow life is good without speed" phase.

Im happy to be feeling somewhat of my old self again. But really, I want to go back to using. A fucking-lot.

Im not finding as many reasons anymore to continue not using. My counsellor reccomended I write a list of reasons to use, and reasons to not, and how i feel during both. The reasons why I did, just look so utterly appealing to me right now.

This shit never ends.
 
I am a shell of myself without amphetamines. Even after the initial withdrawl period has ended, I still don't feel like I'm myself, or even a real person
 
I'm doing better. Bad days are to be expected I suppose.

Sept 4th was the last time I used. I visualize that day when I think back. That number really sticks out in my mind... Whenever I've stopped in the past the date I stop on isn't that significant, this time it's different. I'm hoping that's because this will be the beginning of turn around. <3
 
I have been searching through but I cannot find a meth thread that's just a regular meth thread. Do we only have a "recovery from meth" thread on Bluelight?

I just want to see what other meth users in situ were talking about.
 
like anything it was fun in the beginning i smoked for years, and after a while it was doing nothing, so i started shooting it. i went into a dual diagnosis day program in 2003. i completed the program after 5 mos. i stayed sober for a little over a yr. thats the longest time in my life ive been sober. its not like i wanted to have fun and do big shots, i didint feel normal that whole time being sober. i didint feel right. of course i battle it daily, and its fucked. its been over 20 yrs. and ive found that its like a job you can never get fired from. when you go on the week long sleeping binge, or go to a program and get clean, you get laid off, however when the sleepings done and the sobriety gets thrown out of the window, its time to get back to work. who wants to do that- nobody, but you have to. i dont ever use the word quit. i dont mean to offend anyone or sound negative, but ive found that 6% out of 100% actually make it. i started this little party when i was 14 yrs. old, i will be 39 in may. its still on. my advice to someone wanting to stop would be to recongnize it as a problem, and get help NOW, because if you dont before you know it years and years will go by, and it will happen so fast, you wont believe it. i still have clear memories of trips that seem like just yesterday, or last month, when in all actuality, its been years. it not only sucks shit being on this stuff, its a fucking day in and day out job. sad but true, its disquting thats its me, and lets hope its not you.
 
ive been dealing with no amphetamine for the past few days and It's so hard. any tips to help me get through the withdrawals faster? Thanks for the support guys
 
Rexeh said:
Thanks for the helpful replies... :\ :( :! :X 8)

Because you meth/speedheads seem to ignore 'a simple kiddie druggie' who tries to find a place to find help and only could find this thread... it might be an 'inferior drug and addiction' but I just recovered from my 2nd failed suicide attempt since noone took my binging etc, serious.

I might mix 300 mg MPH and 150 mg Oxy together and sniff my way to death... fuck life...

farewell... o/
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Don't be tripping off what posters here say! They are probably alts anywaz!!!
 
And mixing meth and oxy is such a bad idea. i got so sick trying to use opiates on the way down. that's my experience with it at least. I pm'd you.
 
Rexeh said:
Thanks for the helpful replies... :\ :( :! :X 8)

Because you meth/speedheads seem to ignore 'a simple kiddie druggie' who tries to find a place to find help and only could find this thread... it might be an 'inferior drug and addiction' but I just recovered from my 2nd failed suicide attempt since noone took my binging etc, serious.

I might mix 300 mg MPH and 150 mg Oxy together and sniff my way to death... fuck life...

farewell... o/
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I can't even find your original post but I doubt you're being ignored, this thread gets pretty quiet sometimes. I have no experience with methylphenidate at all but addiction is addiction and I don't think it's a matter of anyone thinking their addiction is more legit than yours, and if they do who cares, they haven't walked in your shoes. BL can be helpful but don't put so much weight on it that it drives you to suicide if you don't get the replies you want, that's worrying, but I hope you're doing better.
 
Sorry for my drunken outburst, :o I feel bad about it and would like to offer my apologies to everyone here. I was not able to think clearly due to current issues which I have to solve IRL, not by posting stupid and angry stuff that does not solve anything. :\ I really regret doing so and want to say that it was not my intent to do so but Vodka & forums do not mix very well... ;)

I have already sought professional help now and I wish life will get better for both myself and all of you. I feel really ashamed now but this 'cry for help' was very, very wrong and due to a variety of substances, I was out of control and apologize once again for my outburst. :o

I have never made a post like this and will try to make sure it will never happen again. :( Hopefully I will be able to contribute to BL again when I sorted out my life, thanks for your replies and PM's BTW, they are appreciated and give me hope. :) Respect <3

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-- Peace o/
 
Soo fucking torn right now.

Outpatient has worked, and is going wonderfully for me... Yet the better I feel, the more of an uncontrollable urge I feel to go out and use again.

And not just any use. I'm picturing a full fucking blow out binge. Haha and I am actually rationalizing this; see; I feel better from outpatient, 3 months of hard work... So I assume I can handle this. I know i can't. I know I will ruin all my good work. Yet, in my head, it seems such a flawless plan. There are no consequences, no come downs, nothing...

Fuck.
 
sigh,reading some posts in this thread makes me think how much i FUCKED UP by taking that first hit.
all the stories you hear are true.but telling them to someone dont do no good.they gotta see it first hand,like im sure every meth addict has done.its the only way of really knowing meth isnt a joke.
 
^ You have to learn from your own mistakes. :\ Even if I had someone showing me video of what I would end up doing... I would laugh and completely brush it off.
 
I have never been in the deep end of the pool with Meth .... it was always a quick fling before access to those pretty crystals ceased.

IF I had constant access to Meth i'm sure it would be different ....

It changes peoples character when used long term ... it turns even the kindest souls into emotionless shells of who the once were ... speaking from experience.

But at the same time it did provide some pretty fucking memorable times! ... I cannot deny that.

... A quick fling with the stuff is magic ... but I feel and understand what it must be like to have 100% access to it ....
 
**hAyzzZZ** said:
Soo fucking torn right now.

Outpatient has worked, and is going wonderfully for me... Yet the better I feel, the more of an uncontrollable urge I feel to go out and use again.

And not just any use. I'm picturing a full fucking blow out binge. Haha and I am actually rationalizing this; see; I feel better from outpatient, 3 months of hard work... So I assume I can handle this. I know i can't. I know I will ruin all my good work. Yet, in my head, it seems such a flawless plan. There are no consequences, no come downs, nothing...

Fuck.
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How long have you been off of meth, has it been those entire 3 months? Even if not be proud that you're putting in so much effort to improve your life :)

What other ways have you learned to work through your emotions?
 
meth is destroying my life. i wish i never tried it, never took that first hit. out of all the drugs ive done, meth is by far the worst. im more of a downers person. but i started hanging out with this guy i met in AA. we met 10 months ago and ever since, all we do is get high together. hes a life long tweaker. now i am trapped, i am chained to this addiction to meth. there is nothing like it, nothing more powerful than this [in my opinion]. i do not know how to stop.
 
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