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Meth/Amphetamines: Serious Discussion Only - V.2: MERGED with amps quitting thread

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Dopamine_Cowboy said:
Dextroamphetamine (prescribed) keeps my cocaine cravings at bay and lets me concentrate on getting other areas of my life in order. And I don't need to dose daily...just knowing I have the d-amp when needed is a relief. Plus I'm not spending chunks of money on sub-par cocaine.
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That's what I'm hoping to get prescribed when I see a shrink in a few weeks. If I don't get the prescription, I dunno what will happen... I guess I'll continue using meth. :(
 
Hi
I wanted to check in with you all. I hope everyone is doing well. So far I am doing good staying away from meth but my other addictions are a different story:(
 
Hmmm I've become complacent and arrogant, and I can predict what's happening to me...


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Sadly, I really don't care.
 
dizzychainsaw said:
Hi
I wanted to check in with you all. I hope everyone is doing well. So far I am doing good staying away from meth but my other addictions are a different story:(
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Glad you're managing to keep away from it.

I wish I had your willpower... I'm still living from hit to hit, and self-medicating with other drugs when I can't score a hit. Life sucks.
 
Sweet P said:
Glad you're managing to keep away from it.

I wish I had your willpower... I'm still living from hit to hit, and self-medicating with other drugs when I can't score a hit. Life sucks.
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The people I was getting it from got busted so I probably couldn't get any even if I wanted to.:(

I still think about it a lot. I have that nagging voice in my head telling me that it would be ok to do just a lil. My past couple times where I ended up in the hospital really scared me. I still don't think the shit I was getting was made right because no meth has ever made me trip out like that before. I keep telling myself well if I could get some good shit I would be ok. My brain seems like it is trying to rationalize it. I'm still very early in my recovery. I have not even been clean for a month yet. I quit for that month then relapsed and now it has been about three weeks or so since I did any.,

Keep trying Sweet P. We can all beat this!<3
 
Mates, been 12 days since i last posted and i have not had a single hit :) wahooooo that means i'm on 2 weeks clean and the worst have passed( I Hope)....anyway i just pack up my bag and went away into the country to visit my mates and just get back to nature and my mates don't know i'm escaping the city coz of my problem with meth. this is something like 1500kms from the city so it's really laid back and my mates don't do drugs at all so it's all a nice change of routine and ppl i meet everyday which is mostly cows, rivers and waterfalls..nice.....now that i'm back in the city i can feel the battle raging in my heart again....pls pls lord don't let me be blinded again.

love to ya all and hope that somehow someway we'll all be freee of that hideous monkey on our back eventually.
 
Great!
I think leaving the area and the people you associate with meth is important.
I know that since I quit I don't hang out with anyone that I did meth with.
It's just important that you have a plan for when you go home.
Are you planning on trying to find new hobbies and new friends?
 
i normally make it 5 days before I 'break." this shit is sucking my love dry and my brain juices will wither if i go on. im too smart for it and too dumb to quit.

thats some really good advice PT. you surprised me with that sage wisdom from a brain as old as yours. i have a Realtor sending me apartments daily via email. i should be getting out of this users paradise soon.
 
The drug & alcohol service has been fucking me around. My drug counsellor told me at my last appointment that I probably won't be able to get a prescription for dexies after all. This really pisses me off, cos I've been getting my hopes up that I'd found a way to quit meth, and now I'm just told "no". My counsellor gave me the name of a private psychiatrist who would probably prescribe them to me, but I can't afford his fees and there's still no guarantee that he'd prescribe me dexies either. It fucking sucks how opiate addicts can get put on maintenance programs, but meth addicts get jack shit. Meth is a huge problem here in NZ, but the health system isn't doing anything to help struggling addicts.
 
Pillthrill said:
Great!
I think leaving the area and the people you associate with meth is important.
I know that since I quit I don't hang out with anyone that I did meth with.
It's just important that you have a plan for when you go home.
Are you planning on trying to find new hobbies and new friends?
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I'm planning on taking up a PADI diving lesson( something i always wanted to do but have never got around to it due to ....u know time spent chasing after some shitty monkey......and as for new friends i guess i still have all my old friends from work( not users and no ideal i use at all) and i'm surely gonna make new ones discovering the underwater world right?? more than half a mth clean now so pat on my own back hahaha

Mates, i have never felt better..really once you realise and feel for yourself how great it is not to worry about your next hit or next score or where to score then life is so much more productive in terms of having more time to do meaningful stuff and catch up with your lost old mates and it's just great mate.

once again may the lord help us all and give us strength to kick the fuckin monkey pls......

SP, if u reckoned dexxies is your only hope and u can't get it would u like me to send u some? i'm not sure if it;s wrong to do this but i have been reading your posts for a long while now and it seems to me that u have all your hope pin on the dexxies( to be honest mate, it never work for me it just drives me up the wall coz it;'s like having a meth hit but only with 30% meth and the rest is shit) anyhow where i'm from i can just get it easily off a pharmacy like otc coz in the land of the smile all the pharmacy cares about is money and FDA regulations means shit when ppl need to make a living right?? i don't know but u can post what u reckoned and i'll get back to you if this is the way u wanna go.

stop for a moment and think are u sure this is the route you want to go?? pinning all your hopes on some shity dexxies
 
ahlongsan said:
SP, if u reckoned dexxies is your only hope and u can't get it would u like me to send u some? i'm not sure if it;s wrong to do this but i have been reading your posts for a long while now and it seems to me that u have all your hope pin on the dexxies( to be honest mate, it never work for me it just drives me up the wall coz it;'s like having a meth hit but only with 30% meth and the rest is shit) anyhow where i'm from i can just get it easily off a pharmacy like otc coz in the land of the smile all the pharmacy cares about is money and FDA regulations means shit when ppl need to make a living right?? i don't know but u can post what u reckoned and i'll get back to you if this is the way u wanna go.

stop for a moment and think are u sure this is the route you want to go?? pinning all your hopes on some shity dexxies
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Nah, sending drugs by mail is never a good idea. But thanks anyway. Maybe you're right... maybe the dexies aren't the magic solution I thought they would be. I just feel like I need some kind of substitute for meth.
 
I haven't touched meth since I posted my "goodbye methamphetamine" thread, but I'm craving it badly and I'm getting so depressed and irritable with everyone around me. Been using benzos and opiates as a form of self-medication, which isn't the ideal solution, but at least it's helping a bit.
 
^^ That's so awesome Sweet P, you're doing really well <3
I think you should just focus on staying clean from meth for now, and deal with the opes and benzos later.
 
Relapsed. Or maybe "lapsed" is a better word, cos I think this is just a one-off. I wasn't intending to use, but I went into the city streets tonight to sell some legal highs that I won in a promotion and ended up being given a small baggie of shards for some. Feeling a bit disappointed in myself, as I could have turned it down and just asked for cash instead, but I didn't. As soon as the dude said "I've got some crack if you want it?" (meth is often called crack in NZ) I couldn't say no. :(
 
Comrades, Much love to you all <3.
I can tell you personally to NEVER lose sight of that bright light at the end of it.. I am still recovering from amphetamines, I am not actually off of amphetamine, I am perscribed Dextroamphetamine which I take every day, I usually run out a few days early.
For me, the D amph works as an anxiolytic, it works for my ADHD (Which I think contributes to addiction), it destroys stimulant (or depressant) cravings. It's very therapeutic for me.
I am still clouded to this day, I have a very difficult time expressing myself at all but I recently have opened up again, I have been reading posts in TDS which was always my home on this forum and my heart goes out to each and every one of you.
Even though I do think I have caused permanent damage, It's a SMALL price to pay compared to what could (logically should?) have happened to me, I am greatful for what I have.
You'll be surprised how GREAT you feel as time works in way in healing everything, remember not to get discouraged, a lot of late withdrawal symptoms is your mind re-adjusting to the world while not strung out or spun..

"A lost battle is a battle one thinks one has lost." ~ Jean Paul Sartre

~ Alexander
 
Sweet P said:
Relapsed. Or maybe "lapsed" is a better word, cos I think this is just a one-off. I wasn't intending to use, but I went into the city streets tonight to sell some legal highs that I won in a promotion and ended up being given a small baggie of shards for some. Feeling a bit disappointed in myself, as I could have turned it down and just asked for cash instead, but I didn't. As soon as the dude said "I've got some crack if you want it?" (meth is often called crack in NZ) I couldn't say no. :(
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SP, i know what you mean mate, i'm the same, could never say no if i'm in the same room with someone's who's doing it that's why i stay away from everyone i know who is using( to get rid of the temptation, out of sight out of mind). Never give up Sp, u know we're all behind you here in TDS alright??

Hey what;s the deal about legal high and "u won it in a promo"????? hahahah right now i would love to have some legal high esp if i can win it in a promo hahahaha could u teach me how??? PLeaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee??? :)

Take care love and if there's anyway or anything i can do to help u( i'm recovering as well remember???) at all just let me know alright?? i can even get my hands on some desoyxn( the big guns in meth) just OTC but again maybe it's a bad ideal coz it'll have to go by post and it's pure meth so......maybe u can think of taking some time away from kiwi land??? away from it all???? i'm in the land of the smile so u know easy relax, diff culture bla bla bla all in all a diff place and mates for u so maybe u wanna think about that?? i mean we can go into details later if u like the ideal.

i'm not a stalker or anything just another bloke with a monkey on his back like u so don't u worry alright?? oh btw i live on on a famous island with beaches everywhere so maybe it'll work for u i don't know. let us know if u intrested and we'll go in to the details later alright?

Cheers and take care my love
 
yesterday i went to an NA meeting, first in a while, and i had to sit and listen to all these people talk about how they were thankful they were clean. Which led me to realize i'm not thankful. ive been mostly clean for 7 months. ive tweaked twice and take a few addys here and there. it made me realize how much i miss it and want to go back. i havnt gained anything from quitting, if anything its made my parents question what i'm doing with the money they give me in the back of their minds, my whole family knows i'm an addict and i just see no fucking point in life..let alone sober. whats the fucking point. i'm really thinking about just doing it again. what did i gain from quitting?!
 
Been clean (off all illicit drugs - not just meth!) for over a week now, since I got sectioned into the psych hospital. I've got court coming up in a few days which is an incentive for me to stay clean. When I appear before the judge, I want to look like I'm in recovery... not some strung-out tweaker!
 
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