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Mental Health Mental Illness Support Thread V. How do you feel?

Larimar said:
Feeling sad about the world lately . My oldest daughter is a senior, no prom no graduation , no graduation party . Just sucks she worked really hard thru high school . And my 18 month old, what’s life gonna be like for her, our world will never be the same after all this. People are so unfriendly and scared at the stores .. Grocery stores are still out of stock for things, prices have gone up and now we have to wear a mask in public or be fined .
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Everything's temporary, and they come in waves.

It is a tough time right now.
 
schizopath said:
Oh fuck forgot that I didnt take my antipsychotic yesterday. You think dmt gets you high? Try few days without antipsychotics.
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Mine take 14 days to clear out of my system. Missing a day or 2 doesn’t magically make dopamine drugs work properly. Takes the whole fortnite. But by then I’m insane again and don’t need stims.
 
I've never gotten meth psychosis on an AP luckily.

My ex would think the SWAT team was in the back yard after like 200mg and i'd be still good after day #4.

Wouldn't be surprised if she developed schizophrenia because 200mg ayn't shit and it's literally all she needed.
 
madness00 said:
Ah, i hated abilify. It made me dizzy and feel depersonalized.
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It really works for me for stopping mania and mood swings - but i pay a price in drugs for it. It’s so effective at cutting dopamine action drugs I’ve wondered why it’s not prescribed for addicts for that purpose. It’s a bitch to stop taking though with panic attacks and high level anxiety even when tapering.
 
nznity said:
that turns into depression and desperation over time bro. Careful getting kneedeep shit into opiates, it's taken me 2 years to get off em and not even completely.
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Im having adhd tests in some time so thats good. I know opiates are a rare treat and Im gonna keep that attitude. I hope I will never think I need them or anything as illogical as that.
 
These past few weeks have been rough. Maybe it's because of covid, maybe it's the new job, my depression saying "hey fuck you buddy", or a mixture of all of them. I keep spiraling and getting anxiety attacks. Gonna talk to my therapist and doctor next week.

Lately I've been thinking about my mom a lot. I miss her so much. Seeing her for the first time in years last year really hit me hard. She suffered from undiagnosed schizophrenia for most of her life, and while the clarity and happiness I heard from her voice over the phone (when her treatment began) made my heart soar... The more negative side effects from them became obvious when we saw each other. She was so slow. Physically, mentally. It tore me in half. I miss her. I miss her so much. She's gotten better but she'll keep forgetting days of the week, almost as if she's beginning to develop dementia.

I haven't lived in the same country as her for a long time - I very unwillingly left home too young, but everything was fucked back then. Now it feels like I'm running out of time to be with her. I'm sure she's fine and not developing dementia, but life has never been kind to her. It's so unfair.

I want to escape poverty and buy her clothes and a washing machine and furniture. If I get enough I'll buy her that beach side house and pay her bills so she'll never have to worry again. She's gone through so much and I love her with all my heart. I don't want to be too late.


She's probably gonna tell me to stop being such a worrywart! Hahah.
 
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