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Mental Health Mental Illness Support Thread V. How do you feel?

Oh yeah, mood tracking that's what it's called.

Record activity for each hour, wow. My logs would be so utterly boring, then out of know where, SLAMMED 7 GRAM ROCKS (@charliesheen).

Yeah IDK how you're going to remember all your feelings from the past week. Once i'm over a feeling it's real hard to relate back to what you were feeling. Feel me?

I sort of wish i had homework too. What types of other stuff do you have in the packet? I may just do it on my own in my free time.

Every therapy session she is pegging me. Pegging me with questions left and right like it's constant. We can't shoot the shit it's always like, "stop doing that" or "what were you thinking" or listing the poor outcomes that could potentially happen if i continue doing certain things. She trys to scare me, i call it. But i just end up laughing at her and do whatever i feel like anyway.

Uhg i'm probably such a pain in the ass to counsel. ;)
 
madness00 said:
Oh yeah, mood tracking that's what it's called.

Record activity for each hour, wow. My logs would be so utterly boring, then out of know where, SLAMMED 7 GRAM ROCKS (@charliesheen).

Yeah IDK how you're going to remember all your feelings from the past week. Once i'm over a feeling it's real hard to relate back to what you were feeling. Feel me?

I sort of wish i had homework too. What types of other stuff do you have in the packet? I may just do it on my own in my free time.

Every therapy session she is pegging me. Pegging me with questions left and right like it's constant. We can't shoot the shit it's always like, "stop doing that" or "what were you thinking" or listing the poor outcomes that could potentially happen if i continue doing certain things. She trys to scare me, i call it. But i just end up laughing at her and do whatever i feel like anyway.

Uhg i'm probably such a pain in the ass to counsel. ;)
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Haha! She sounds like a pain in the ass actually. She should be helping you with coping skills or something, not making you feel ashamed about your decisions.

I'll come back a bit later and tell you more about what's in the packet. Just got back from my psychiatrist appointment. I explained how the moving around because of the kitchen fire has been stressful. Good news is he agreed to give me klonopin so yay!

Yeah, it's gonna be tough trying to remember my moods and feelings for my homework, but I have to do it because my session is tomorrow.
 
I just went to CVS to get my klonopin. The pharmacist said I needed my ID, I never heard of that before. I didn't have my ID with me this time. She said because klonopin is a controlled substance I needed my ID. This lady behind me was like "She can use mine." I kept telling her "God bless you!" She was a miracle God put at the right place and the right time to help me out. Thank God for her. It would've cost me so much money I didn't have to go all the way home, get my ID and come back.
 
CoastTwoCoast said:
I just went to CVS to get my klonopin. The pharmacist said I needed my ID, I never heard of that before. I didn't have my ID with me this time. She said because klonopin is a controlled substance I needed my ID. This lady behind me was like "She can use mine." I kept telling her "God bless you!" She was a miracle God put at the right place and the right time to help me out. Thank God for her. It would've cost me so much money I didn't have to go all the way home, get my ID and come back.
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Yeah, get used to it.

That's what I have to do when I get my Klonopin.

You didn't have to do that when you picked up your Adderall in the past?

We have to do that here in NY too.
 
CoastTwoCoast said:
You sent a PM? I didn't get one from you. The last one I got was about the Quitting Adderall forum. I put the link in this thread, but it still didn't work for you unfortunately. If you sent a new one since then, send it again for me.
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I resent them.

Let me know if you got them this time.
 
Good fucking news - so I talked to my therapist about hypomania, urges to get high etc, and ADD, and she said maybe I can get a "non stimulant" med. So I'm seeing my psych in a week.

@CoastTwoCoast - did you say you were on concerta? What's it like?
 
madness00 said:
Good fucking news - so I talked to my therapist about hypomania, urges to get high etc, and ADD, and she said maybe I can get a "non stimulant" med. So I'm seeing my psych in a week.

@CoastTwoCoast - did you say you were on concerta? What's it like?
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Concerta is a stimulant, but at least it's not an amphetamine. I like Concerta a lot, but I can't take it on its own. On its own, it causes me to be irritable and on edge. Concerta is best when taken with Gabapentin, a benzo, phenibut or kratom. Any one of those can take the edge off. You'd have to try it and see how it feels to you before adding anything. It's great for a mood boost and to help with ADHD.

If you're not on a benzo or can't get one, ask for Gabapentin. It will help with Concerta.
 
Right on.

My therapist thinks it's a non-stimulant (lol) so hopefully the psychiatrist doesn't blow my cover. But like you said, at least it's not an amphetamine, so maybe he wouldn't get in trouble prescribing it to someone with a substance abuse disorder. I'll keep Gabapentin in mind, but I have a feeling i'll be okay because I was on a high dose of Wellbutrin before and it didn't make me anxious or anything. We'll see. Thank you.

How did your therapy go?

And who else wants to check in?
 
My neighbor pissed me off today. I'm only in this house temporarily while my actual house is being worked on. I was dropped off by the taxi after my therapy appointment. The driver pulled into the neighbor's driveway because it was close. So my neighbor came out, in front of me and the driver he said "This is my driveway. Yours is down there." He shouldn't have said anything, the guy was leaving. He's white. I can tell he's a racist piece of shit. He's been all up in our business since we got here. He better watch it. He don't want me to get up in dat ass.
 
CoastTwoCoast said:
I still didn't get anything. I was wondering if it's because I need to clean out my inbox, but I see no option to delete messages. It's so weird. I'll figure it out.
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I sent you another PM.

Other people are getting my PMs so it's got to be on your end.

Did you get the last reply to your PM?
 
madness00 said:
Right on.

My therapist thinks it's a non-stimulant (lol) so hopefully the psychiatrist doesn't blow my cover. But like you said, at least it's not an amphetamine, so maybe he wouldn't get in trouble prescribing it to someone with a substance abuse disorder. I'll keep Gabapentin in mind, but I have a feeling i'll be okay because I was on a high dose of Wellbutrin before and it didn't make me anxious or anything. We'll see. Thank you.

How did your therapy go?

And who else wants to check in?
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Yeah, getting Concerta shouldn't be a big deal at all. It's not like you're asking for Adderall. Take the Concerta on its own first. If it doesn't make you feel irritable and on edge, you're good. If it does, at least you have options to help that side effect.

Therapy went fantastic! He wants to keep building me up and making me stronger so that I don't have to rely on klonopin. I only take it as needed anyway. I told him I won't reach for it right away and I'll hold off on taking it as long as possible. It's a comfort just to know I have it.
 
I'm honestly so excited for thursday. Maybe I can live life with the mild stimulation I need to not seek stimulant drugs, meanwhile keeping me focused and my thoughts out of the gutter. I just want it to be Thursday already.

I can understand how just having it makes you feel better - it's like me when I used to carry a pocket knife :p. I'm so happy that you're getting closer to being at your best. It's tough to meet people when you're not, and if you do it tends to fail horribly, but when you're good and you.. find someone driving the same speed as you, maybe taking turns taking the lead to make sure all stays well and solid, that'll be awesome. I'm probably just projecting my own desire to have a healthy relationship, for once, ideally in the next 7 years by the time I'm 35, and ideally with a work college or some shit, but IIRC you are in the same boat? Even if you're not, being at your best obviously has more benefits than just that.

But yeah, your face does look like that. It's a cute smile, but something about it looks slightly like nervous excitement of doing something you know you're not supposed to, and finding it thrilling for that reason.

If you change it I'll sob.
 
madness00 said:
I'm honestly so excited for thursday. Maybe I can live life with the mild stimulation I need to not seek stimulant drugs, meanwhile keeping me focused and my thoughts out of the gutter. I just want it to be Thursday already.

I can understand how just having it makes you feel better - it's like me when I used to carry a pocket knife :p. I'm so happy that you're getting closer to being at your best. It's tough to meet people when you're not, and if you do it tends to fail horribly, but when you're good and you.. find someone driving the same speed as you, maybe taking turns taking the lead to make sure all stays well and solid, that'll be awesome. I'm probably just projecting my own desire to have a healthy relationship, for once, ideally in the next 7 years by the time I'm 35, and ideally with a work college or some shit, but IIRC you are in the same boat? Even if you're not, being at your best obviously has more benefits than just that.

But yeah, your face does look like that. It's a cute smile, but something about it looks slightly like nervous excitement of doing something you know you're not supposed to, and finding it thrilling for that reason.

If you change it I'll sob.
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I'm excited for you to try Concerta as well! I think it'll be good for you. It'll be a nice mood boost and help you focus.

Thank you! My therapist is also happy that I'm on my way to the best version of myself. With the klonopin, I'm ready to go out and do so many things I was afraid to do without it. It opens the door to more opportunities.

Let me know what happens with your psychiatrist appointment. I have a really good feeling about it.

So I look mischievous in my avatar? Haha I like that, never thought about it that way before. You don't have to cry, I won't change it. ?
 
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