Trying to make long story short, but have to begin somewhere. ( English is not my first language, so try to bear with some possible mistakes )
I hope people will not comment on the doses I've taken or how frequently I've took them, yes I know I've been stupid and irresponsible person.
Background:
Male, 24 years old. Used drugs since teenager, but not "hard drugs" since things got a bit out of hand about year and half ago.
Always been a "party animal", but beers and booze did not cause this.
Now for the story...
I got supply of acid (LSD) about year ago ( Last June ) to be exact. I would drop acid in spawn of 3 months over 20x times. I used massive doses so I could binge for 2-3 days in row. I would start off with 150ug and the next day I would triple the dose trying to achieve the same effect. Every session was coupled with heavy weed smoking to "boost" the effect.
These were not some mild, peace & love trips, most of those "trips" felt more like epileptic seizures and I was sometimes just twitching on the floor seeing bright lights one step away from my mouth foaming. I did my last dose of LSD last november after a very traumatic experience on this drug ( Do not want to go too much into details, but friend of mine was beaten and held gun-point, all the while we were tripping hard on acid )
After this incident my drug use got bit out of hand and I generally had little no none respect for my body. I was boozing, using meth & amphetamines, chain-smoking and popping pills ( Mostly benzos for my hangover ).
From November on I got a supply of MDMA krystal and ecstasy tabs. I would drop these almost every weekend for the next 2-3 months.
I used doses that were undoubtedly neurotoxic, since my usual dose per evening was 0,6grams of pure MDMA, but me and my friend went few times over 1,0-1,2grams. ( Again, there is nothing glamorous about this, those doses mean that you are hot as a hare and you have to spend time in a cold shower, that is, if you do not end up in hospital before that ) I also used amphetamine/meth during my MDMA/Ecstasy sessions, almost always. Also coupled with heavy weed smoking.
I started to get a bit worried since I started having really bad hallucinations when coming off from MDMA. ( This was always coupled with weed smoking )
During the comedown, the hallucinations were so vivid and real, but they were delirious. I could even touch these hallucinations and even converse with some of them, but at the same time I was aware that there is no possibility that these things could be real ) Generally they made no sense. I was also heavily sleep and food deprived when experiencing most of them.
This was the turning point for me personally and quit doing MDMA, meth, amphetamine somewhere in february for the sake of my mental health.
This was around February, I believe.
After being sober for few weeks, I decided to smoke some weed. Oh boy that was a mistake:
I do not know how, or why, but cannabis triggered total "walls melting" syndrome for me. I know that THC is mild psychedelic, but everything was "living" and "melting" as If I just had dropped some moderate dose of acid. I could not even read book since the letters were melting into each other as if you are on LSD.
This had never happened before from weed smoking alone, and bear in mind that my last dose of acid had been in November.
I really didn't got that scared about this new effect and even actually continued smoking, but 3rd of March I quit all drugs. Literally all drugs.
I've been sober since 3rd of March, 2015. No coffee, no cigarettes, no alcohol, no weed, no stimulants. Nothing. Only food and water.
The thing I am a bit worried about: the walls are still melting. I'm not joking. During the first week of my "withdrawal" from all of these substances, things were really bad, I couldn't even look to the ground/grass without the ground literally melting and swimming before my eyes. Those who have done acid probably know what I am talking about.
Yesterday I was visiting my parents for example, they have tapestry with lot of imagery and symbols. The thing is: the tapestry is still alive for me. It's as if im on acid. It's "bubbling" and "melting" and making new patterns all the time. Even when I am not properly looking at things like these.
I'm not that bothered about these things, I know that I probably fried my brain with acid & mdma. But I would be interested what exactly does cause these things? Serotonin? Dopamin? etc. What is the chemistry behind these things? I've always thought that acid flashbacks are a myth but after being 7 weeks clear of any drugs and stimulants I still have this thing going on. Do I have brain damage and has anyone gone through anything similar?
I would really like to know what in the heck is going on with my vision
Mentally, I am more or less ok at this point and routinely working at my job as any other member of society, but these visual disturbances do bother me since they do not seem to go away. Has anyone experienced anything even remotely similar?