i enjoyed reading that. a pretty remarkable reaction to pot to say the least!! some elements reminded me of my OBE's.i have a question about weed...
the first time i smoked, and on several occasions afterwards (although not every time), but particularly the first time i smoked, i experienced ridiculous derealization/bizarre visuals/bizarre sensations. i dont think derealization is a word, but as far as i can tell it is the best way to describe what happened, as it was not an experience of depersonalization. [...]
btw i do consider cannabis quite habit forming, but you should take into account that it just has a lot less unwanted side effects than things like opiates or booze. if itd cause massive constipation, itching, nausea, loss of coordination or would systematically kill you off cell by cell, you probably wouldnt develope a habit so easily. neither would you if it werent so easily available. im just saying... theres not that many reasons to not smoke pot compared to not doing other drugs. nonetheless it surely is very addictive... been at it for 13 yrs myself, managed to kick every habit ive had, but not pot.
oh and while it wont fully describe your experience, dissociation would a be better fitting description than derealization.
werent you scared shitless when this first happened?? id imagine you didnt have a lot of experience with psychedelics or dissociatives when you first smoked...