My spirit was like talking to me like I was it's son and it had these other beings with it talking about me
Does this not only emphasize my point? Visual disturbances and paranoia is one thing, but hearing voices from "spirits" or "entities" suggests a rather severe degree of toxic psychosis. Not all people suffering from organic psychosis have paranoia, and some find their "voices" amicable or friendly. Yes, MDPV made me "feel" as though I was saying unique and profound things.....but at the center I knew I was not. When one looses this distinction they the lines of reality can become so blurred that they are nearly invisible. I knew that my feeling of "everyone is looking at you" was a result of toxic psychosis, and that people were not looking at me, however, the sensation did not go away.
Again if you are saying "my spirit was like talking to me like I was it's son and it had these other beings with it talking about me", and think that the toxic psychosis, as you put it, "was definitely felt in a very minor sense", then I would re-evaluate your use of this drug.
I have the ENTIRE gambit of psychedelics, of all classes etc, and only THREE times have I actually had auditory hallucinations vivid enough where "voices" spoke clearly to me in long conversations (sure, I have had auditory hallucinations from many psychedelics, but generally a sound, or a word). The first time it occurred with a single large dose of potent psilocybin mushrooms (had tried 6 grams of the same batch with strong effects, assumed that 14 grams would be proportionally stronger.....I was wrong, it was exponentially stronger, true horror). The second time was with a large vaporized dose of N,N-DMT, which was much less "negative", but more unearthly (the room I was sitting in suddenly had tropical vines growing up the walls and an "alien" appeared playing some other-worldy music on a strange instrument). The final time was with datura seeds......I'll leave it at that, I don't like to think about it (I remember bits and pieces). Sure I have taken drugs that have made me "talk to myself" so to speak, but only 3 times have I heard voices other than my own, telling or instructing me to do things. IM ketamine or sub-anesthetic nitrous will make me "talk to myself" in a weird head-space, but only in my own voice and only to myself. And yes I have done it all (virtually), 5-meo-dmt was so overpowering that I had no auditory shit, purely visual and even loss of consciousness. Large doses of LSD, though highly visual, never made me hear voices. Even 5-meo-dipt or DPT only "altered" my hearing, but again, no voices.
The bottom line is, aside from long-term possible neurotoxicity, any sustained MDPV use possesses a HIGH risk for acute TOXIC PSYCHOSIS. Again, I have used many, many stimulants, and never had I experienced as rapid or acute toxic psychosis. It was bordering on the edge of me believing it....which is a very dangerous place to be. I was honestly surprised. Why is this the case, when MPH does not induce this? It must be 5-HT mediated, I am almost certain of it......
Take caution with this substance. It will be banned in the coming future, partially because of the profiteering, and partially due to toxic psychosis requiring hospitalization. If you can't handle your RC's, do not squeal at the hospital because that information IS reported. You are unlikely to run into a physician like me who will not report it. But i'm no longer in rotation so I don't encounter these individuals frequently......
I myself OD'ed on a legal qualone, and kept my mouth fucking shut.....Obviously if its medically relevant than yes, but in my case, I had already been intubated and most fluids had been removed from my lungs when I eventually woke-up in the ICU. The tox did not pick it up. This is the only drug upon which I have overdosed, and it was near fatal. While I weigh all things and test for purity, I did not respond to lower doses, and when I bumped it up, that narrow therapeutic closed down on me.
