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MDPV Megathread 9: The thrill of the chase

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I think shambles must break, but break in a comfortable way and have his own little psychotic adventures that actually are fun for him. With my living situations over the last 9 years MDPV is just not an option. If I lived in a studio flat or a bedsit I may, just may consider using it again.
 
Ok Mugz that's up to you I hope you enjoy it if you do it, because I'm not going to tell you to stop, up to you mate. But fuck that shit mate, I fucking had too. In the end it was just fucking shite all the time from start to finish. Absolutely 0 good times at all. I couldn't for the fucking life of me understand why the fuck I would do such a thing when fog started to fade and then *plop* that's the sound of a envolope hitting the doormatt btw. And I was right fucking bang at this shit straight a fucking gain. It was the most ridiculous thing I have ever done. The shit I did on this stuff was fucking unbelievable. Fucking hell mate MM claims he wants to buy some now, when he tried it he didn't fucking like it. He had 0 good times. What the fuck does that tell you?

Jesus my swearing is bad, apologies none of that was aimed at anyone at all btw.

To those who love this stuff I appreciate this going on like 'awww this is shit, I fucked my life up' stuff might be boring to read and yesterday I really considered never posting in here again because of the craving I had. But I'm sorry. For me this drug and specifically the way I reacted to it has had serious implications on my lifestyle. That I miss. So I'm going to keep banging on about this in case there are any folk like me out there (fucking hope not) that may stop before it's too late. Stranger things have happened.

Mugz you don't have to use ever again, you don't. I know you want too. I do too. But you don't have too. <3

If you choose to take a dip back in, then I wish you a safe time.<3
 
MM is a monkey ;)

I wont be buying any in the near future, the next 6 months I think I'm still gonna be at my dads in some kind of recovery toning down my use of everything, maybe not abstinence, maybe though.

Was just saying that set and setting play a huge part in the experience.
 
I mean place to live. No Mum and Dads/parents/my family noone I know would know would touch me. I think I would seriously be destroyed if I ever had to live completely alone. People do I know. But I never have and would be right in the shit mate. It would end me. For sure.

Then I'd probably stay clean in hope of getting them back and proving it too them. My parents. My Wife. My Daughter. Friends. Then after it took to long for my liking I'd undoubtedly use that as an excuse to use again. I'd never stop and find out what this shit does to you permanently. That thought after what I have done on this, I can never mention it mate. No-one would give me the time of day on here and I wouldn't blame them really gives me the creeps. It can never happen for me again. SOrry if I keep going over this but it does help me. To put it down so IT FUCKING STAYS UP THERE you know?
 
sounds super srs Ben. A lot lost and hard to recover. I think that I'd only be comfortable doing it on my own without anyone in the same building that knew me, after the experience I could always go and see family and friend after but just having them nowhere near during.
 
I'm not sure how serious it is in the grand scheme of things but in my microcosm. It is all. Not saying I had it worse than anybody else. I'm fucking grateful as all living shit to have what I have today. Whats left. Looking back I thought I had it all. Sounds stupid man. I'm not sure mate I'm really not. But it felt like I ruled the world at one point. That is gone now. Never coming back. It was all for a bag of white shit I put up nose or smoked of foil.

....and that was MDPV in my world.
 
Ben So Furry said:
To those who love this stuff I appreciate this going on like 'awww this is shit, I fucked my life up' stuff might be boring to read and yesterday I really considered never posting in here again because of the craving I had. But I'm sorry. For me this drug and specifically the way I reacted to it has had serious implications on my lifestyle. That I miss. So I'm going to keep banging on about this in case there are any folk like me out there (fucking hope not) that may stop before it's too late. Stranger things have happened.
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Don't stop posting in here mate, love your posts and the way you try help people (and me!)<3 .
 
Virtuel BIG HUG at you <3

I am home, have been drifting a little back to my old lifestyle (not good) as you can see at the page back, did some 4-MePPP, and yesterday ordered 500mg MDPV, my fuckin last man that's for sure, but there is something saying to me I have to try it again and see what it can do. So stupid I know after last time, but it have controlled my mind since I trashed my last PV and got to a mental clinic in 2 weeks.

Hope you are okay too, I know how strong the cravings can be.
 
I almost found myself ordering it again just reading about it, I guess bluelight can be triggering, but just having it in your mind makes your dopamine receptors get all excited and want the stimulation instantly. Cravings are hard. I didn't order any though.
 
Yes bluelight are getting me to want it even more, and other drugs too.

Good you didn't order some, keep it that way if you can Mugz.
 
Yes mate, I understand, sympathise and have my support. I have been exactly where you are right now. I won't share my whole experience with you because it would be an assay mate and maybe I've said enough. But before I finally quit back in November I was going for periods of time not using but on occasion getting some and going nuts for a while then cooling off for a while again for periods of time I had not been able to do before. Then it happened. So I had to stop.

Fella I won't go into major detail it is hard some of this stuff. <3 Man you can do this. I did so I FUCKING KNOW you can too. Ok? Important that.

One thing, when you do order again, it happens, relapse is a part of recovery (just thought of that myself;)<3) do not start using all thiinking your a peice of shit and in floods of tears and wanting to die as you knock bthis stuff out onto foil ok? Get calm. That is a sure fire way for it turn to shit as soon as the flame leaves your lighter.

Mate the only real support I can truthfully offer you is on here or via PM is so desired in text form ok? I know it may not feel very real or intimate (steady on tiger) but I will continue to drill this shit into you if it fucking gives me a finger strain or something. This is all I offer. So we are clear. I will of course send you lots of these <3 When you loose everyone mate, and please don't think this could not be a possibility, there are no people to do this <3 for you.

Oh fuck I'm rambling again man. I'll PM you shortly.

MDPV question: Has anyone been doing something all innocently like (MDPV) and all of a sudden having the shit shaken out you by some hard looking fucker in the centre of town screaming 'shut the fuck up, shut the fuck up' lying on the floor?
 
Ben So Furry said:
Yes mate, I understand, sympathise and have my support. I have been exactly where you are right now. I won't share my whole experience with you because it would be an assay mate and maybe I've said enough. But before I finally quit back in November I was going for periods of time not using but on occasion getting some and going nuts for a while then cooling off for a while again for periods of time I had not been able to do before. Then it happened. So I had to stop.

Fella I won't go into major detail it is hard some of this stuff. <3 Man you can do this. I did so I FUCKING KNOW you can too. Ok? Important that.

One thing, when you do order again, it happens, relapse is a part of recovery (just thought of that myself;)<3) do not start using all thiinking your a peice of shit and in floods of tears and wanting to die as you knock bthis stuff out onto foil ok? Get calm. That is a sure fire way for it turn to shit as soon as the flame leaves your lighter.

Mate the only real support I can truthfully offer you is on here or via PM is so desired in text form ok? I know it may not feel very real or intimate (steady on tiger) but I will continue to drill this shit into you if it fucking gives me a finger strain or something. This is all I offer. So we are clear. I will of course send you lots of these <3 When you loose everyone mate, and please don't think this could not be a possibility, there are no people to do this <3 for you.

Oh fuck I'm rambling again man. I'll PM you shortly.

MDPV question: Has anyone been doing something all innocently like (MDPV) and all of a sudden having the shit shaken out you by some hard looking fucker in the centre of town screaming 'shut the fuck up, shut the fuck up' lying on the floor?
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Thanks for this post, nothing more to say because we are takin it in pm. But really, thanks mate <3
 
I feel like I can relate to those who want to do PV, but simply fucking cannot touch the stuff anymore. Maybe if I lived alone.... Maybe lol.

Time always seems to soften my opinion of apvp and mdpv. I've been off the shit for over a month now but it's really shocking how it plays on my mind from time to time. I know I mentioned 'em before but fuck those drug dreams irk me sometimes. I'm always throwing apvp crystals on foil in my dreams. Then there's just times throughout the day where I'll see some foil laying around or something and it'll play on my mind some more.

I've been slowly learning that there's really nothing great about apvp. Physical rush followed by lots of side effects. Sometimes I think about trying to source some mdpv overseas and going at it. But I don't want to reintroduce mdpv to my life ever again I'm afraid.
 
Oh and btw whoever was asking about a-pvt it's subtle and weaker than apvp. I did have some pretty insane rushes from vaping large freebase doses of a-pvt but that was about all I could get out of it.

And Anatrica good luck freebasing, it's a fucking science lol. Honestly apvp is way more difficult to freebase. But man is that shit ungodly addictive and rushy.
 
Thanks for that QuasiStoned great posts. Those dreams really do my nut in. I think of PV daily. Not crazy all the omg omg omg all the time. But after a dream like that it's on my mind from the minute I wake up. I wake up believing I have it and must get on it right this second. Annoying as all fuck.

Nick please don't stop posting in this thread. It will be useful for others to see what you are experiencing and hopefully at some point when you are ready and when it happens (because it will, stay strong) you can post some excellent things in here for all folk to see.

<3 to all of you.
 
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