adam west
Bluelighter
if youre ever in the uk you are welcome to stay at mine or as long as you like. i will respect your pv and treat it with dignity
Don't get me wrong shammy I used to enjoy watching ANAL, but then I was tripping and porn was on once and I could see some pain in the eyes of the girl whos ass was being pounded, it wasn't pleasure and she wasn't having fun. Not saying they all have tons of fun getting fucked tons of times a day in the vagina but it's gonna be better than anal. From that day, I have turned away from ANAL porn and wont watch or download any film or scene that has ANAL in, and if it sneaks it it is onto the next track immedietely
From that day, Mugz has always capitalised the word ANAL so the world can see his disgust for the act.
I will make the ultimate drop with 4-fa, bk-mdma and mdpv now. Or should i rather put in som dex amph? naah...
What a wasteful day, didn't see anyone. Got a free pack of omega 3.
bk-MDMA and peev go quite well together. Never had 4-FA so dunno how that would work out. Take it steady though maybe, Anatrica - thassa lotta stims to be piling up. Enjoy![]()
Am now wondering if such speculations are how the conversation started that ended up with Linda Lovelace shagging a dog at gunpoint![]()
well then ive been reeking of sperm for a long damn time then. pretty much figured as much. I feel like such a damn fool regardless. I'm left thinking those who are closest to me don't care for me as much as I thought.... but instead have probably been making fun of me and wondering what the hell I do with myself when nobody is watching.
This hole I've dug for myself just keeps getting deeper and deeper. Oh well ill just keep digging cause I've already come this far. Might as well enjoy myself along the way atleast!
Foil? Check. Lighter? Check. Pen tube? Check. Porn? Check. Self dignity? .... uncheck. Blast off!
fuck em man. you do what you want to do its your life, noone elses.'So much pv consumed lately on a continual basis without periods of abstinence to detoxify the body/mind. I'm positive my body is saturated with metabolites with who knows what effects, damages and long term effects. I'm almost positive my body reeks of god knows what despite frequent showers, regular water consumption, excersize, healthy eating, etc. My body simple cannot handle the amount of pv taken in considering the rate at which it is broken down and excreted.
There is this slimy like film on my skin that slowly develops after a good shower. Its annoying, disqusting, embarrasing and worrisome. Its gotten to the point where I simply cannot use my mobile touch screen device anymore without thoroughly washing my hands before hand. Even then, its only a matter of minutes before my hands are too slick from whatever my skin is excreting to use the device again without washing my hands again.
There are times I'm absolutely positive people around me are offended by whatever strange odors I emit. At times I'm positive I reek of sperm, especially on my breath, and I can't even imagine what people around me are thinking (or joking about when I'm not around). Fuck them. If I really do stink then its their fault for not telling me. I have asked repeatedly if I smell bad or if I should freshen my breathe and everyone I've asked always says i got nothing to worry about. fuck those who are the closest to me the most. I realize its a strange and embarrasing subject to broach but if the people closest to me can't say something for my benefit then how close and trustworthy are they really?
I'm willing to consider I am just overly paranoid about my smell. Definetly at times I would agree that is the case. But I've been doing this on and off long enough to know better. A toothbrush used to brush ones teeth during a binge reeks heavily of sperm for days. I may be constantly struggling with background paranoia 24/7 but I know when I see peoples reactions to the smell of my breath or to the behaviour of those around me during times of extra stinkage. Again.... maybe I am just paranoid but I've overheard some comments from close friends who weren't aware I was listening and unless the whole conversation was a hallucination I'm positive I smell bad based on their comments and jokes (ouch). My spouse has once or twice mentioned that the laundry often reeks of seamen. Once she ever started to say my hair smelled like jizz but she stopped mid sentence and pretended like she was saying something else.
So why the fuck wont those friends and loved ones closest to me say anything? Honestly I struggle with this thought more than anything as of late. Why? Because either I am really loosing touch with reality (willing to accept this is possible as I am always walking a fine line between reality and psychosis) or My supposed best friends (several of them including my spouse) arent being honest with me. I understand its a weird thing to tell someone but if I can't rely on them to tell me then who can I?
So fuck them. If they won't be honest with me (I feel I deserve that from them concidering the dynamics of our relationships) then they must suffer when around me if I do infact reek. I'm gonna start randomly using their toothbrush and ill make sure to exhale heavily anytime I'm near them (joking here this type of revenge like behaviour is not in my character).
OK I'm just being silly tonight. Move along...
also i have no experience with it and otheres say its nowhere near as good, but does a-pvp emit the same odour, or even on a lesser scale?
After using apvp for a while the freebase starts to get this really crazy rush after a while. It's like this full body "Holy shit" feeling and it's just crazy, it's on a different wavelength than mdpv but I totally dig it.
The a-pvt was the most physical rush I've ever felt in my life. It was very similar to a-pvp but it made me extremely lightheaded I thought for a second I was gonna maybe pass out. But then I felt great and the intense lightheadedness quickly faded.
I think I finally figured out to freebase these guys. It's a much different than the hcl, the hcl always seems to have lots of smoke. The freebase barely has any and it takes very little heat to get this thick crazy ass vapor.
Lots of side effects, I am literally excreting nasty shit everywhere out of my body. It has a nasty odor and it makes my hair feel weird, it's all over my socks and clothes. It makes them all wrinkly and damp feeling, but it's not sweat. I was severely dehydrated and now that I started eating, drinking and coming down I got brown and red shit coming out of my nose, my mouth and teeth feel weird. My back and kidneys sort of hurt. I'm getting so tired I should probably just crash and go to sleep. But I sure am toying with the idea of doing it once more. It's crazy.