For a degenerate like myself that is the lowest I ever had, and only 2 occasions because I couldn't blindly commit to more. For many there is no coming back after coming to the dark side with this one. This thread should be enough to detour anyone thinking of trying. If you arent a degenerate yet, this will quickly make you one. I am sure many of the long time lovers of the PV will admit the same.
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MDPV Megathread 9: The thrill of the chase
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QuasiStoned
Bluelighter
You guys are fucking nutso!! Sweet fuck 1 gram of mdpv had me gibbering like a lunatic to invisible people. Can't imagine how you people do it. My health detoriates so fast too, I'm sure I would've ended up dead or in a hospital after 25 grams.
Granted, I am not built for this shit. I'm 6'2 150 lbs and a typical ectomorph, I gotta work SOOOOOOOO hard to build muscle and fat it's ridiculous. Pv peels all my muscle and fat right off of me in a few days. I can hardly walk after a binge.
Granted, I am not built for this shit. I'm 6'2 150 lbs and a typical ectomorph, I gotta work SOOOOOOOO hard to build muscle and fat it's ridiculous. Pv peels all my muscle and fat right off of me in a few days. I can hardly walk after a binge.
QuasiStoned
Bluelighter
No sir, you just don't understand how mdpv works yet. The norepinephrine effect becomes completely negligible with tolerance to the point that you absolutely can use heroic amounts without a shred of that anxiogenic feeling you refer to. It's subtle at first, I was once EXACTLY like you and could've never dreamed of binging and taking more than a few mg but even just bumping the shit the anxiety went away and the euphoria kept on getting stronger.
Mdpv is kind of like a paradox, it's not really that enjoyable at first. It's a learned high and once you learn it you're fucked.
*COUGH*bullshit*COUGH*
25grams is just fucking insane.
how long have you been doing this? Don't expect the good times to last if you carry on like this. Your life *will* fall apart.
I don't think you understand how the human body works.
Of course you refuse to believe you are doing yourself any harm, or that your habit with this stuff is sustainable, due to the reinforcing effects of having massively increased levels of dopamine in your system. You are deluding yourself.
25grams is just fucking insane.
how long have you been doing this? Don't expect the good times to last if you carry on like this. Your life *will* fall apart.
I don't think you understand how the human body works.
Of course you refuse to believe you are doing yourself any harm, or that your habit with this stuff is sustainable, due to the reinforcing effects of having massively increased levels of dopamine in your system. You are deluding yourself.
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QuasiStoned
Bluelighter
Quoted for motherfucking truth. I've done awful senseless things with mdpv but I never would have dreamed of going so far as ordering 25 grams. I was in a constant battle with myself over 1 gram binges. You're just giving up on life when you start hitting mdpv that hard. I feel rather bad knowing someone would want to do that, but I guess that's what this shit does to some people.
QuasiStoned
Bluelighter
What's really awful is that people who love you have to see this downward spiral and it's fucking IMPOSSIBLE to hide the fact that you're going off the deep end on mdpv. I've hurt my family bad with this stuff and I have a lot of guilt to this day.
I hope the professor doesn't have any close family who cares about him because they are the true victims of this drug.
I hope the professor doesn't have any close family who cares about him because they are the true victims of this drug.
TheProfessor1
Bluelighter
Hey guys (and gals),
your warmhearted smacks to the face and apparent genuine concern for my wellbeing (despite a little looking-down-of-the-nose) is taken with a nod and honest appreciation. Yes, i agree its a good thing i wasnt able to get my package. I dunno what i was thinking, accept it was on sale for dirt cheap,and yes i do know what i was thinking. You do too. Anything i could think of to convince myself it was a good idea, thats what. Fuck, its pv.
Anywho, i ordered five grams (definately a mini run lol), had some sexy fun. Got ten coming, gonna do it a little bigger this time.
I dunno yall. It just doesnt stop being awesome, despite all the "bad".
Happiness,
The Professor
your warmhearted smacks to the face and apparent genuine concern for my wellbeing (despite a little looking-down-of-the-nose) is taken with a nod and honest appreciation. Yes, i agree its a good thing i wasnt able to get my package. I dunno what i was thinking, accept it was on sale for dirt cheap,and yes i do know what i was thinking. You do too. Anything i could think of to convince myself it was a good idea, thats what. Fuck, its pv.
Anywho, i ordered five grams (definately a mini run lol), had some sexy fun. Got ten coming, gonna do it a little bigger this time.
I dunno yall. It just doesnt stop being awesome, despite all the "bad".
Happiness,
The Professor
Ben So Furry
Bluelighter
Some folk find that Prof. Some folk get on with it just fine and can manage it. Have fun mate. I envy you.
How long have you been doing PV for theprofessor1, out of interest? It took 2 years of doing it pretty much every day for me to finally lose it and end up in mental hospital.
I don't mean to sound patronising, but I am genuinely speaking from experience of the deep end, and am intimately familiar with PV. It always worries me when I see people that remind me of myself, at various points in my own experience from day 1 to 2 years down the line when it turned very, very nasty.
I don't mean to sound patronising, but I am genuinely speaking from experience of the deep end, and am intimately familiar with PV. It always worries me when I see people that remind me of myself, at various points in my own experience from day 1 to 2 years down the line when it turned very, very nasty.
Ben So Furry
Bluelighter
I was at it for 3 and a half years before I finally snapped. The hospital bills and court fines were mounting up. Something had to give. Thank fuck I got out.
yeah I ended up hospital 4 times because of MDPV, before I finally realised the havoc I was causing to myself and people around me.Really it boiled to the fact I was basically deliberatly fucking myself up when I ordered PV, and each time convincing myself that it would be fine and I'd be in control. I was never in control though. I nearly died because of MDPV, was in intensive care with broken limbs beause of it, and that was the tipping point where I managed to realise enough was enough. I'll never touch the stuff again.
Ben So Furry
Bluelighter
Me neither Ceres. I can relate to everything in your post. I have done un reparable damage to the woman I married and almost lost my kid man. My family all think little of me and some friends would kill me on sight. If I ever touch the stuff again I'm done. It can fuck right off. Same goes for all stims actually. I can't take the fucking risk anymore. I have far to much to lose.
Glad you recovered and did the right thing Ceres. Shame it got to such extremes but hey, I can't judge mate believe me.
Glad you recovered and did the right thing Ceres. Shame it got to such extremes but hey, I can't judge mate believe me.
yeah my family all think im a complete nutcase now and are always scrutinising my behaviour, it's fucking horrible. but it's over 2 years now since I last went near PV, and am completely 100% sane. Convincing the people around me who saw me in the grip of PV psychosis is a damn impossible task though.
I completely avoid stims now aswell, I dabbled briefly with 4-fma / 4-fa and ethylphenidate / 3,4-CTMP, but absolutely not pleasurable and they just trigger anxiety and anorexia and sleepless nights in me, and I don't need that atall.
the doctors / psychiatrists who saw me in that state cannot believe atall that I've made a 100% recovery. Infact they were shocked that when I got admitted to mental hospital out of my mind, after a nights sleep, a benzo and some olanzapine I was right as rain the day after, although horribly traumatised and freaked out.
On the upside I feel like I've grown up a hell of a lot after going through all that shit and it's made me appreciate my sanity and my life so much more than I did before when I was naiive and gambling all that doing fuckloads of stims and RC's.
Shame it stole several years of what shoudl have been the best years of my life from me, but hey I'm going to make my time _now_ the best. And without drugs.
It is sends a chill down my spine though to read stories like in this thread and see other people potentially walking into that trap. It's only now years later that I can even look at this thread anymore.
Live n learn.
I completely avoid stims now aswell, I dabbled briefly with 4-fma / 4-fa and ethylphenidate / 3,4-CTMP, but absolutely not pleasurable and they just trigger anxiety and anorexia and sleepless nights in me, and I don't need that atall.
the doctors / psychiatrists who saw me in that state cannot believe atall that I've made a 100% recovery. Infact they were shocked that when I got admitted to mental hospital out of my mind, after a nights sleep, a benzo and some olanzapine I was right as rain the day after, although horribly traumatised and freaked out.
On the upside I feel like I've grown up a hell of a lot after going through all that shit and it's made me appreciate my sanity and my life so much more than I did before when I was naiive and gambling all that doing fuckloads of stims and RC's.
Shame it stole several years of what shoudl have been the best years of my life from me, but hey I'm going to make my time _now_ the best. And without drugs.
It is sends a chill down my spine though to read stories like in this thread and see other people potentially walking into that trap. It's only now years later that I can even look at this thread anymore.
Live n learn.
QuasiStoned
Bluelighter
Hey Nicklazz, I had some mxe a while back and I noticed you could smoke it. Holy shit does some vaped mxe have a wild kick, it felt like the walls were about to fall down around me and expose the bigger picture. Also EVERYTHING was buzzing and vibrating as I recall.
Unfortunately I never seemed to achieve any interesting states through any other roa's, just felt wierd robotic and out of it. Disappointing for me because I used to love DXM, the CEV's were fully engaging it was so cool. I floated like a spirit all over the place.
I've been really thinking of giving something psychedelic a go soon. I've not done anything eye opening in a while, and I can recall some wonderful times with lsd, mushrooms, and the like.
Sometime in the last year I had some 25i, just a 10mg sample. I snorted a tiny speck and omg it was beautiful. That's the direction I feel I should head if I really must use something.
Then again I've been off of formal probation now for a few months so maybe some ganja is in order. Anything would be good over apvp.
Unfortunately I never seemed to achieve any interesting states through any other roa's, just felt wierd robotic and out of it. Disappointing for me because I used to love DXM, the CEV's were fully engaging it was so cool. I floated like a spirit all over the place.
I've been really thinking of giving something psychedelic a go soon. I've not done anything eye opening in a while, and I can recall some wonderful times with lsd, mushrooms, and the like.
Sometime in the last year I had some 25i, just a 10mg sample. I snorted a tiny speck and omg it was beautiful. That's the direction I feel I should head if I really must use something.
Then again I've been off of formal probation now for a few months so maybe some ganja is in order. Anything would be good over apvp.
Acid4Blood
Bluelighter
My thoughts exactly. I value my sanity, sleep & nutrition a hell of alot more now since stopping using MDPV 2 years ago.
It also stole some of my most precious time.... my peevee addiction occured during the 2 years my son was alive. He's not here physically now to appreciate having a dad free from addiction but I have an obligation to live a good life for him & to stay connected with him at all times.
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+1
QuasiStoned
Bluelighter
Acid4Blood
Bluelighter
You lost your son?I'm so sorry to hear that man, that's tough no doubt.
Yeah, he got swine flu & died in January 2011. Thanks for your sympathy. While peevee robbed me of precious time with my son it was also the main reason for me going to rehab & getting clean for the latter part of his life so it kinda balanced out.
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