Shambles
Bluelight Crew
Absolutely agree with Squeegee. You have done incredibly well staying clear from peev for... can't even remember how long it's been now cos has been ages. I do understand that when someone's been on the stims - any stims really - there can be very strong temptation to try to keep it going. I don't have to tell you of all people why I don't think it would be such a great idea to do so and certainly not to do so with MDPV. All of us that have been there and done that know that once you order some it sets a chain of events in motion which is always the same - certainly in the broad themes anyway if not all the specifics - and once you've made that first order the second one comes much easier... and the third... I find it so much easier to not let it run away with me if I just don't make that first order after a period of abstinence. Once the ice is broken, as it were, that peevish thinking is very much in effect and it becomes easier to justify to yourself to order more.
Given it sounds like you've recently run out of meph after a bit of a binge I'd imagine you're probably still feeling the aftereffects from that - feeling down and feeling lethargic and just generally feeling crappy and exhausted. More stims can be very appealing at such times cos they really do make you feel better at first, but there's only so much you can wring out of those brainchems before the barrel is empty and that's when it gets really miserable and horrid. Give your body a chance to recover and give your mind a chance to restock those handy brainchems. You'll feel better just for doing that and I suspect you'll feel strong enough to choose not to order this time. Give yourself a few days to rest and recuperate before making any decisions in terms of ordering anything else would be my advice. You know you can do without peev cos you've been doing just that for ages now - you can choose to continue without peev and I think you will choose to continue without peev once you've gotten past the comedown and aftereffects from those few days on meph. Rest up, eat well, plenty of sleep and see how you feel in a few days - I really do think you'll think differently once you're feeling better
Given it sounds like you've recently run out of meph after a bit of a binge I'd imagine you're probably still feeling the aftereffects from that - feeling down and feeling lethargic and just generally feeling crappy and exhausted. More stims can be very appealing at such times cos they really do make you feel better at first, but there's only so much you can wring out of those brainchems before the barrel is empty and that's when it gets really miserable and horrid. Give your body a chance to recover and give your mind a chance to restock those handy brainchems. You'll feel better just for doing that and I suspect you'll feel strong enough to choose not to order this time. Give yourself a few days to rest and recuperate before making any decisions in terms of ordering anything else would be my advice. You know you can do without peev cos you've been doing just that for ages now - you can choose to continue without peev and I think you will choose to continue without peev once you've gotten past the comedown and aftereffects from those few days on meph. Rest up, eat well, plenty of sleep and see how you feel in a few days - I really do think you'll think differently once you're feeling better
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