I'll start by giving some background in case any of it is relevant.
I first used mdma about 6 years ago in pill form, eaten.
All my mates who ate 1 of the same ones had a mean time, it was my first time we had tested them and I don't know the dose but they contained mdma.
I didn't even seem to feel a thing which surprised everyone, I was not on any medication (ssris etc).
I didn't give a second thought to the stuff till maybe 9 months later when some new pills started going around that got everyone excited and my friend twisted my rubber arm.
This time I thought I would take 2 (I understand now that when you don't know the dose of what your taking much more care than this should be used) and on his advice plugged them.
This time was much different and quite satisfying and I think it might be relevant that my first proper experience was a large dose of what was apparently nice stuff.
Pills that good just sort of ceased to exist where I live after that and that was it for me until a couple years later when I started sourcing online.
By this point I had tried various amphetamines and opiates hating them all, only psychedelics and weed seemed to agree with my personal brain chemistry. Someone passed off some tabs as acid which I think were actually 25i nbome and I stupidly took too many of them (done this with acid occasionally with much nicer results).
The resulting severe panic attack (at one point during it I truly thought I was going to die) left me very cautious and unwilling to trust people.
Then a close friend and partner in crime convinced me to do mdma with him, the therapeutic benefits of that experience were incredible I made allmost a full recovery from my anxious hermit state in one night.
I will also note here I don't seem to get the same come down as other people even at very high doses, I get an afterglow which is actually quite pleasant...
Since I was used to having easy access to drugs I am quite strict with myself about how often I would take things, With mdma I wait at least 2 months.
However I still found myself gaining tolerance and after a while became uncomfortable with the size of the oral and plugged doses I was taking.
I switched to IV and dropped my dose way back down again but as time has gone by I'm now up to 250-300mg for a dose.
There was a gap of all most 6 months in between my last two doses and still my tolerance is like this.
My friends GF joined us for my most recent dose, she took 40mg and seemed to have the time of her life, this has left me quite nervous about what I might end up doing to myself should my current pattern of increasing dose continues unabated.
What I really want to know is how many people out there take these kinds of doses or higher? What effects have they experienced? Why do I seem to have such a naturally high tolerance?
Do I still get the same risks from a high dose as a person with a low tolerance? Is there any way I can get more out of my experiences without resorting to IV or high doses? I can't take potent psychedelics without getting anxious (thanks asshole who sold me those $&%$%^%ing tabs) and it would be a real shame to do without molly, it coaxed me out of a prison in my mind of my own making and I really like the social effects.
If you do reply to this thanks for taking the time to read but if you give me advice please try to back it up with actual facts/data if possible.
I see people telling people what to do or not to do based solely on their own ideas about whats right or wrong.
For example simply saying "don't IV it its wrong/bad" sounds to me just like someone saying "don't plug it things aren't supposed to go in there".
If that's your opinion cool but I'm not really interested in opinions, I would like to know some idea of what I can expect or should be trying to avoid.
If anyone has personal experience with high doses I would appreciate them dropping me a pm telling me a bit about it, maybe don't post replys here saying stuff like "500mg is sweet as" since for most people it most certainly isn't.
*disclaimer I do not advocate taking doses this high or using needles, all needles that I choose to use are brand new from the local needle exchange program and I use blue (0.22 micron) wheel filters*
I first used mdma about 6 years ago in pill form, eaten.
All my mates who ate 1 of the same ones had a mean time, it was my first time we had tested them and I don't know the dose but they contained mdma.
I didn't even seem to feel a thing which surprised everyone, I was not on any medication (ssris etc).
I didn't give a second thought to the stuff till maybe 9 months later when some new pills started going around that got everyone excited and my friend twisted my rubber arm.
This time I thought I would take 2 (I understand now that when you don't know the dose of what your taking much more care than this should be used) and on his advice plugged them.
This time was much different and quite satisfying and I think it might be relevant that my first proper experience was a large dose of what was apparently nice stuff.
Pills that good just sort of ceased to exist where I live after that and that was it for me until a couple years later when I started sourcing online.
By this point I had tried various amphetamines and opiates hating them all, only psychedelics and weed seemed to agree with my personal brain chemistry. Someone passed off some tabs as acid which I think were actually 25i nbome and I stupidly took too many of them (done this with acid occasionally with much nicer results).
The resulting severe panic attack (at one point during it I truly thought I was going to die) left me very cautious and unwilling to trust people.
Then a close friend and partner in crime convinced me to do mdma with him, the therapeutic benefits of that experience were incredible I made allmost a full recovery from my anxious hermit state in one night.
I will also note here I don't seem to get the same come down as other people even at very high doses, I get an afterglow which is actually quite pleasant...
Since I was used to having easy access to drugs I am quite strict with myself about how often I would take things, With mdma I wait at least 2 months.
However I still found myself gaining tolerance and after a while became uncomfortable with the size of the oral and plugged doses I was taking.
I switched to IV and dropped my dose way back down again but as time has gone by I'm now up to 250-300mg for a dose.
There was a gap of all most 6 months in between my last two doses and still my tolerance is like this.
My friends GF joined us for my most recent dose, she took 40mg and seemed to have the time of her life, this has left me quite nervous about what I might end up doing to myself should my current pattern of increasing dose continues unabated.
What I really want to know is how many people out there take these kinds of doses or higher? What effects have they experienced? Why do I seem to have such a naturally high tolerance?
Do I still get the same risks from a high dose as a person with a low tolerance? Is there any way I can get more out of my experiences without resorting to IV or high doses? I can't take potent psychedelics without getting anxious (thanks asshole who sold me those $&%$%^%ing tabs) and it would be a real shame to do without molly, it coaxed me out of a prison in my mind of my own making and I really like the social effects.
If you do reply to this thanks for taking the time to read but if you give me advice please try to back it up with actual facts/data if possible.
I see people telling people what to do or not to do based solely on their own ideas about whats right or wrong.
For example simply saying "don't IV it its wrong/bad" sounds to me just like someone saying "don't plug it things aren't supposed to go in there".
If that's your opinion cool but I'm not really interested in opinions, I would like to know some idea of what I can expect or should be trying to avoid.
If anyone has personal experience with high doses I would appreciate them dropping me a pm telling me a bit about it, maybe don't post replys here saying stuff like "500mg is sweet as" since for most people it most certainly isn't.
*disclaimer I do not advocate taking doses this high or using needles, all needles that I choose to use are brand new from the local needle exchange program and I use blue (0.22 micron) wheel filters*
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