I've forgot to brag btw, about something that happen to me few days ago. I was in a car in the passenger seat and been reading an article. After I've finished I've realized that I performed enormous concentration, the surround sounds have disappeared, I've forgot I'm in a car, absorbing all the information.
shouldvestayedhome, your MDMA was tested?
Can you answer me few questions.
How much would you rate your anxiety pre-accident from 1 to 10?
How much you would worry for unlikely to happen stuff from 1 to 10? - Like having the worst conclusions.
What was your level of obsession from 1 to 10?
All before the drug you took.
I've had some revelation that was very obvious and actually changed me in a single moment. Was laying in the bed and thinking random things, of course for my issues and... then hey... I was always anxious, not so much, always forgetful and distracted. Just not AS MUCH. Been a worrying person. In this moment the question that popped in my head was, wasn't I lying myself and falling into the worst obsession in my life?
Yes my memory was horrible 1-2 weeks after MDMA, but my chemistry was off, isn't that normal? Now I have days that I feel pretty normal to my old self, one example is that I was in front of a friend's house and had this deja-vu feeling of my old self waiting on the same spot, but being what I felt the balanced me from 2 years ago.
I take this as me coming off this nightmare page of my life. Diet most likely is the biggest reason for that, it couldn't be coincidence that the only times I felt good was when I was eating well. I'm starting intensive workout, hope it will add.