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MDMA - First Time - "Safe Place"

AstridAsteroid

AstridAsteroid

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*Chemicals: I was told 90% MDMA, 10% Vitamin B
*Times: One pill at 10p
*How taken: Orally
*Dosage: One pill
*State of mind: Excited (mind), tired (body).
*Setting: A friend's apartment; three guys, two girls (beside myself). All fairly new friends.
*Effects: Relaxing, euphoric, scary.
Took the pill at 10p, it took 30 minutes, probably, to really start working. My eyes were going absolutely wack to the point where I couldn't control them.
Within the first ten minutes of my roll, I felt really naseous, so I went to the bathroom and just rested my head on the toilet. I dry heaved four times and I was sweating heavily despite the air being on full blast. For at least two minutes I could think nothing but "I want this out of me. Why did I do this? I need to go home." Thankfully my college roommate came in and stayed with me. She brought me water, too, but I was careful not to drink any for fear of drinking too much. One of the guys came in and stayed with me the rest of my time rolling. But whenever I left the toilet, I felt anxious and scared. I guess you could say I found my safe place.
People who have done X before have told me that it feels really, REALLY good when other people touch you, but that wasn't the case at all. Everytime someone touched me I felt sick.
Also, I was very careful not to grind my teeth. I actually didn't feel the need to chew on anything at all.
X really helped me relax and become apathetic, though. The guy I had been "scrumping" brought another girl to the apartment. If I hadn't been on X I would've done something drastic. However, being on it made me realise I didn't need him. It kept me calm.
The two guys that had taken it only lasted for 2 hours. I know of them had been drinking and I think the other one snorted something earlier in the night. We basically all chilled in the bathroom and talked about relationships and our lives.
I believe I came off of my eye wiggly's two-three hours after I had taken it (ie; it would have been 1a by then). After those had passed I got really giggly. Now I'm not sure if that was a direct effect of the X or not. But in any case, because I'm inexperienced with X and being able to tell when the roll is over, I'd say my peak lasted for two hours, and the entire thing probably lasted for four.
I was safe to drive home at 5a (7 hours after I took it). And as soon as I got home I told my Momma all about it then went straight to bed. As of 3:30p (EST) I'm feeling rather light headed and my mouth is really dry.
In conclusion, I would do it again. I can say it's a tad overrated, and it's over priced. However, if it's around in the future and I have extra cash, I could see myself doing it again (so long as it's in a house or apartment of some sort; I wouldn't feel safe in a club).
 
Hiya Astrid
It sounds as though your anxiety spoiled your roll. I've seen this happen to other people on their first time, even to the point of freaking out, and for many people (including me) you don't roll properly until the 2nd or 3rd time you use ecstasy.
Good luck, clop
 
Welcome to cracked out sunday man!! you fealin it? When I use to roll sometimes I would enjoy the day after more then the roll its self!! But im wierd like that!!
Like Astrid said, anxiety is what proly kept you on the toilet! When it comes to drinking water. Make shure you at least drink apx. 2 or more 12oz bottles of water! You have to drink a hella lot of fluid to get sick! I have noticed that grinding your teeth comes on more the more you roll! I never did grind my teeth untill I started doubling my dose!
A friend of mine would always go to partys and eat pills and never roll. One night I sat him down in a chair,put on some techno,blacklingts and plenty of shit to keep your mind busy other then thinking and fed him a pill, I said Just sit there and relax and forget about ever eating that pill! He rolled balls that night!
 
Thanks for posting and welcome to Bluelight! Good luck in the future and you might want to get a pill testing kit.
 
Ur*: did you have to find a "safe place" the first time you rolled? And the second, and third and fourth.. ? How'd you snap out of feeling sick? (I'm assuming you felt nauseous..)
 
hi Astrid... next time, eat a small amount of carbos beforehand, something with rice or something.. this will slow the roll a bit and it won't hit you quite as strong..
make sure you're with some GOOD friends who you trust..
when it really starts to kick in and you feel a bit queasy and dizzy have a bit of a dance.. it help get rid of the excess energy building up.. I know that its the last thing you'll feel like doing at the time, but trust me after a minute or two you'll just have the biggest smile on
 
ACK!
Wrong wrong wrong!
You total mangeged to "Think" yourself into not enjoying the roll. You were not in a "safe place" you were in a enviorment where a boyfreand brought over someone you did not want to see. That was a bad idea, you also were question if you should have done this... bad bad.
I'll give you some advice. Please, take it. MDMA effects your mind, your "mindset" if you will. If you "think" your not having fun, you wont. If you "think" things are not going well, they wont.
Since you've done MDMA once. You know the physical effects, they should not scare you. The comeing up feeling, the pukeing, the jitters.. all of this is normal. The next time you roll, you should expect this and not be afarid of it.
You also, want to roll in a COMPLETLY differnt setting. A house party, 3-5 people, music, lights..etc..etc. You need stuff to enjoy, not just sit in a bathroom all night and talk. MDMA does have it's uses for a conversation, but frankly, your not ready for that yet.
I would suggest.. 1st, wait about 2 months.. YES 2 MONTHS!! You need to give yourself time to recover, 5 months is really best. However, 2 months will do if you can't wait that long. Now, get a pill tester. Test the pill, be sure it's clean {this also helps get you in the "mindset" that this time it will be okay}
Now, visit a good nightclub or even a Rave. Take the pill there. Enjoy the night, listen to the music.. the lights.. Above all else, DO NOT WORRY. Drop the pill, and FORGET ABOUT IT!. Get your mind off of it!!! Soon enough you'll be feeling it, but this time, since your not worrying about "when" it will hit, you'll be plesnatly suprized!
Jay
 
yes yes, listen to lazer and clop, they got the right idea. your mindset is so imperative to how your roll will be. you have to remember that this drug directly affects the mind. ecstasy is a drug that will shed some light on life and people, and make you come to a lot of realizations. and it feels fucking good too!! =) Hitting up a club or rave is a great way to enjoy yourself while rolling, you will dance like you have never danced before, and you will make tons of new friends and talk to some of the most interesting people. if youre lucky you might even get a light show. oh..by the way..buy yourself a vicks inhaler...since your sense of smell is enhanced you will feel like heaven when you feel the minty fresh scent through your nose..heeeheee..take care and good luck!!!
 
Honestly, I don't think a rave or club is the optimal environment for MDMA, but to each his own. I think the intimate house party is the optimal setting for a good roll. Just sit back, relax, and let it flow.
---5HT-2
 
Yep... definitely... mindset will set the mood for your entire rolling experience! Just a few months ago I had a roll coming on very strong and I said to my friends 'Oh man.. this is going to be too much... I don't think I can take it' but they reminded me to keep cool, think of good things, have some fun and that drastically changed the entire outcome. I became happy, upbeat, ran downstairs and started throwin a few vinyls (playing them... dont take me literally!). Drugs have a tendency to turn on you when it doesn't exactly turn out the way you expected them to. Next time when you decide to roll, and I hope you do because it is a VERY enjoyable experience, to turn your lights off, get some music going and... well, read what everyone else has to say... we all know what's up. :)
 
Hello, The 1st time I did e was 6 months ago. I was at is MEGA rave in Montreal called Black and Blue. 20 000 people dancing. I was having a great time. We were about 10 people all co-workers. Î got there at 22:00 and I took halp a pill of speed and at midnight took another pill of speed. Was having an amazing time. At 04:00 we, my friends and I, decided to drop the E. Mine was MDMA white pouder in capsule. Suppose to be pure. Exactly 30 mins after, it hit.... started sweating, hart is pumping fast, I held my friend and I couldn`t move. In my mind was the same thing, I shouldn`t have done it and I shouldn`t have taken it and I need it out of me. 5 mins after, the friend that was holding me, since I couldn`t stant still, never tried E before and said, you are starting to make me worry. That is when I clicked that we are here to have fun... I stood up and everything was ok. I can`t say it was a bad experience, but can`t say it was a good one. I only wished someone could have given me a massage. Since then, tried it 3 more times at 2 months diffrence.... Didn`t feel much. Before droping them, always felt nervious and anxious.
I understand the fact when you say to let go, drop it and forget about it. but I am always scared. Always looking at the time to see when it will hit. Scared that I will loose balance etc. But in the same time scared to let go. I wonder if anyone has any idea on how to help taking my mind out of it before I drop so I can feel les anxious and less nervous.
Mike
 
Originally posted by Ebox69:
I wonder if anyone has any idea on how to help taking my mind out of it before I drop so I can feel les anxious and less nervous.
Mike
Hi Mike, I posted a reply to a similar question as this on some other page here a blulight. Basically I have the same problem, nervous and freaked a bit when getting ready to do or having just done a pill. I'm also well tired by midnight coz I work early Friday morning and always go out on a Friday night if I can. So I discovered the joys of 5mg valium on Friday afternoons. I get a few hours sleep and the after effect of the valium (diazepam) gives me a calm, mellowed out feeling that begins to wear off around midnight when I'm about to drop. I used to have a couple beers at clubs but don't bother now I'm chilled anyways and I get less nausia when I'm coming up.
Other more practical points are to take smaller doses, and as already pointed out, perhaps have a little rice, bread, or chips in your stomach to slow the come-up a little. There's no shame in dividing pills in halves or even quarters! Try to keep the halves/quarters whole though, as a powder is absorbed much faster and in one rush. Peeps looking for a bigger rush might wanna crush their pills, rather than banging two or mixing other drugs with E.
I've been carefully doing pills for 11 years and I like to think I'm still up for another 11 years of cautious ectsacy use. Hmmmm, 2CB sounds kinda fun too though.......
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WOW i wish ur mom was my mom
"hi mom, i did ecstasy tonight and felt sick but my friends were there and i really felt the love!"
my mom: "OMG satan has posessed you once again how can you let the devil get into your head like that??? Drugs are EVIL!!!! Its just like that dope u smoke! Its EVIL! you are the devil todd! bla bla bla"
anyways, yah E can really amplify anxiety. Thats why large crowds arent exactly the best place for a first time. This one girl rolled wit me for the first time (it was like my 124th time) and i was drivin around (i drive better on E than when im sober) and her pill kicked in and she FREAKED. I think it was the motion of the car. She crawled under her seat under the dashboard and was saying "omg omg im gonna die im gonna die...i dont like this"
then *poof* her face lit up, eyes widdned, and she felt the glory and gracy of mdma! extreme giggliness and laughter and jumpiness ensued.
 
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