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May getting and/or staying sober thread v. May flowers

Clean and sober for 3 months. At the point now that I'm really feeling good. Occasionally my mind reaches out to the idea of using but I can real it in. Amazing how much you think about it even after that amount of time. Doing well at work, taking some classes, working out. Failing at losing weight ;) my husband wants another baby. I'm not sure how long I want to be clean for before I'll consider it ...
 
40 days clean from my DOC, 9 days sober from everything

I slipped up and had two small drinks at the wedding, the cravings were too strong and I usually never crave alcohol. Seeing everyone getting drunk and having a good time while I was miserable got to me man. I'm one of the people that can have just a drink or two and stop with no problem, alcohol was never my drug of choice but I do know that could change so no more drink for me. What happens in the bahamas stays there :D

Anyway, i'm in a sober house right now doing really well. I'm feeling great, clear-headed, my intelligence and memory is slowly coming back. I'll have a decent job soon. I've made alot of friends already in recovery, I don't sit on TC/Bluelight all day anymore, and depression is mostly gone. Yeah I still have bad days and an occasional pot, opiate or benzo craving but who in recovery doesn't? I'm feeling hopeful that I can finally stay clean for a long time it's a pretty cool feeling.
 
I am five days sober of drugs and alcohol. Been hitting up meetings (daily, sometimes twice), trying to make some sober contacts. Its difficult because I recently moved and I do have quite a bit going on. Somehow, my life didn't totally fall apart but I was no longer managing it that is for sure. So for me, I just realize that at this current point I cannot use any substance responsibly without it causing interference in my life and hurting those I love. Most importantly, I am hurting myself.

All in all I feel pretty positive and I got off/am getting off extremely light when it comes to withdrawals. I haven't had much, especially physically. I have no idea why, feels like I should. Granted, I wasn't using as heavy recently but as I get older my body cannot recover as quickly as it used too.
 
Good for you phactor. Good luck.

I've been sober for hmmm I think 1.8 months but I just take it one day at a time and this is what works for me.
 
congrats, Captain!

I've got 433 days today. Celebrated with a stroll in the woods.

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(what if all the unsent, but typed, posts...some left on screen to outlive their relevancy, others hastily deleted, -- were ... posted. Oh. Here's one. )

Peace and love, and strength be with all of us
 
Entering day five of complete sobriety, though I started tapering and abstaining towards the end of April. I am not feeling too bad at this point but I won't consider this important until I pass up my refill due next week.

*Go May flowers*
 
Hiya Everyone,

Hope you're all doing good. I am back exercising now; doing something called T FOCUS25. The DVDs are done by a trainer called Shaun T, who did INSANITY so my kind of thing really. Still sober apart from s******* and I've only been taking 10 mg not 12mg. It may only be 2mg but unless it's a placebo affect, I do feel heaps better than when I was taking 12 mg; more energy, less 'out of sorts' not going hot n cold so much. Only difference also is that I can't get away with missing it the next morning like with 12mg because it messes with my homeostasis.

Have drank during my "holiday" but I plan on giving that up completely. It does nothing for me but makes me full of self-pity. I read a post that I put on the vent thread and cringed at what I wrote; full of woe-is-me. And it's much nicer to remember the next day things you've said and done than to be told that you've done something.

I know that as well as overcoming my addictions, I need to do a lot of work on me. I've a lot of faults that need working on. Jealousy, for one which changes me in a way I do not like. I ended up snapping and saying some nasty stuff to a friend because they had achieved something I had worked hard for, which was wrong and uncalled for. So I need to work on being jealous of others. I need to stop feeling sorry for myself over things and using it as an excuse to take my DoC and I need to stop making assumptions - because by doing so, it makes me miserable and act out of character.

I know this is the staying / getting clean thread but I hope no one minds me putting all of this here because I feel that to overcome our addictions it takes more than just stopping them, so much more and it's about working on what's beneath our skins, in our hearts and in our minds.

I hope you're all doing well, and I truly mean that. Here for anyone who needs to stop. Drop me a PM anytime I'm always here.

Evey xxxx
 
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