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Main reason you use?

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JustADudeYep

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Not sure if mine is weird or not, but main reason is because I usually just want to feel SOMETHING. Like something different than the same ole same ole. Just make me feel different somehow...if that makes sense.

A close second is boredom. But I also love the brain stimulation. Sober = Blah and lazy. Some dilaudid or Ritalin = I almost always grab a notebook right away and write, or I jump online and research stuff etc. It irks me that the govt can take that away and make it illegal for me to have those feelings, all while these certain crazy ass meds get past the FDA as legal when they are soooo harmful. Money and lobbyists talks though.
 
My main reason? Or reasons I should say since there's 2. Well for 1 I have legit anxiety issues.(normally avoid social interaction such as going to stores, phone calls, things of that nature.) My anxiety flares up when running into people on the streets even people I known for years it's a sad life. Reason #2 I'm also a drug addict I love getting high like taking opiates and relaxing at home or getting some benzos and doing some Crystal and finally hanging out with people I been ignoring and having to come up with lies. It's a repetitive lifestyle I hope I can change one day. Anyways there's my input. Haha
 
Began using weed to have a good time

Began using psychedelics because there are so many untruths about them I had to see for myself

Began using painkillers because erowids user experiences vault made my curiosity go haywire

Began to drink to fit in sadly, continue to drink because its cheap legal and erases all my anxiety

Beer has been the main constant in my life for at least a year now, I have no trouble not smoking weed if I have beer.
 
Interesting stuff. Doesn't have to be the MAIN reason, although curious about that. I mean opiates make me feel good. I like the feeling. But I also have legit pain, so I get what youre saying, ovo.

If I had the funds, access and not possible prison time then I would be on heroin...or I assume. Ive never touched it because of the fear I will enjoy it greatly. But it would relax me and stimulate my brain etc. Ugh! Why is that a bad / illegal thing?!
 
I still use because of a few reasons...(subox, crystal occasionally, gaba, ativan but as RX'd)

1. I perform my job better.. Which is heavy lifting, stamina.. Hard work.. Shit my boss pays me more than most managers because of mu quality of work.. But if just on my subs I get tired quicker.. Ache more.m blahhhh

2. Pain.. I've broken my back and hip from sports.. And since I wont touch anything higher than a 5mg perc anymore.. The IV'D crystal makes it go away for a while

3. I feel like super dad when I'm on gaba and subs.. Or day 1 of crystal.. I don't get frustrated with my young child and can play and run all day with her.

4. Chronic insomnia from one of my many mental illnesses sucks... So I take ativan to help me sleep
 
Switched many of addictions, BZD's are what I need for my day, or I'll be panicking like non-other. D-Amp to help with what I'm trying to accomplish / was for school. Triazolam for insomnia. Psychs to expand my mind. Ketamayne is something I do every now and then, as per not to getingt hooked again. Kratom, no reason, I just do et at times.
 
Aside from obvious reasons (who doesn't like euphoria?), one of my main motivations is that I like having secrets, aspects of my life that most people don't know about. The day-to-day world pushes so hard on conformity, "responsibility," blah blah blah. It's nice to push against that, even a little.
 
I have tried every drug I can for the experience the euphoria and energy confidence was a bonus

you only live once and like the explorers of history we are the new frontline explorieres but into the totally unknown not just another country that has water air and soill like all other places they would find
 
bigstank said:
I still use because of a few reasons...(subox, crystal occasionally, gaba, ativan but as RX'd)

1. I perform my job better.. Which is heavy lifting, stamina.. Hard work.. Shit my boss pays me more than most managers because of mu quality of work.. But if just on my subs I get tired quicker.. Ache more.m blahhhh

2. Pain.. I've broken my back and hip from sports.. And since I wont touch anything higher than a 5mg perc anymore.. The IV'D crystal makes it go away for a while

3. I feel like super dad when I'm on gaba and subs.. Or day 1 of crystal.. I don't get frustrated with my young child and can play and run all day with her.

4. Chronic insomnia from one of my many mental illnesses sucks... So I take ativan to help me sleep
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So wont touch over 5mg of percs but IV crystal, eh? Lol. I'm not judging! I swear. It just made me laugh. Interesting. To each their own!
 
JustADudeYep said:
So wont touch over 5mg of percs but IV crystal, eh? Lol. I'm not judging! I swear. It just made me laugh. Interesting. To each their own!
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It's just cause of the opiate part of it.. Just within the last month I started doing meth.. Idk I can stop the meth for days and days.. But with opiates I can't.
 
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Because popping a pill is infinitely easier than earning the feeling through hard work and determination. God, I cringed when I typed that.
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It makes me cringe but having that knowledge keeps my oxy dose low and forces me to push forward to really work on myself (eating healthy, getting out of the house, trying to exercise, etc..)

Personally, real physical pain and chronic nausea. Also a desire for oblivion--it's suicidal but as long as I have a life I can relax in. Lastly, some kind of overstimulation--maybe it's just something I've gotten used to at this point but I'm a really high anxiety person, and I'd be in my head way too much, and too angry, too stressed, too everything if I wasn't sedated.
 
1. I feel like the drugs I use make me a better person more caring passionate more human I know it sounds bad but I was really quiet emotionless and robot like before drugs
2. I like them the different feelings the variety but also the consistency
3. the different uses and the pharmacology of them I study the pharmacology and effects before I use every time its part of the high if you ask me
4. for the desire to be sated I'm never satisfied always looking for more something to do then I get high or pop something and I can actually sit there for more then 3 minuets and yes I've always been like this
5. I feel super human on them like I can care for every person in the world at once rather when sober I don't give a damn about anyone
 
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Mostly because I'm bored. I also suffer from (non-drug related) health problems though and drugs take my mind off them.
 
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