BourbonMac
Bluelighter
Down to exactly 2g and definitely having brain zap type feelings at times with a lot of fatigue. I figure I'll just (sadly) dial up the Valium a bit again, as well as the Gabapentin which I'd been dialing back down also again. I didn't think 2.5g to 2g would be this way, but I'm almost there.
Still, even with this being the case, I bet smoke shops will sell it. Once I have dough, I might run by one just to see, cause I got back from the Midwest today, probably some of the fatigue is from that, it's just abnormal compared to other years. Everywhere in the Midwest there were CBD and THCA flower "dispensaries" which are totally banned. It's not even decrim in Iowa, but you still see those.
I know all my cousins way back when it was just delta 8, THC-P or whatever the fuck would just ask about D9, or use some code word to get D9 carts, which was just shitty disty, but they probably thought that was pretty good shit considering they had no access to any good weed. I'm not putting any faith in this idea, I just have a feeling. I still do want to actually just get the hell off of this already.
Also, FWIW, no one is the same. I've heard of people who jumped ship doing 30g a day apparently with just Gabapentin megadosing. That seems a lot worse though... withdrawal wise it probably would be at least. I only say this because it took just 3ish months of daily use, not even that much, to have some of the worst withdrawals I've ever experienced. Not even benzo withdrawal was so hellish, cold and terrible for me. I'd been taking 4g, then 5g, then 6g, then 10g daily by the month before this had happened.
Some people just quit kratom and are pretty much fine, some of us go straight to hell as if we were using much higher amounts or taking extracts. That's how it was for me after just months of use. I was so desperate I was licking bags and shit, but I didn't have Gabapentin back then, so who knows how much easier it could've been for me, and it only lasted about 48 hours until I could finally get a proper sleep. Woke up about to puke, held it back, showered and felt better than ever.
To this day, I wish the kratom I'd ordered never arrived. This shit only had value in my life from like, June and August 2017. I would've died without it thanks to all the antidepressants being thrown at me (looking at you specifically, Effexor) and also not made specific types of growth that I don't know I could've made without it. It really is a tough call.
Either way, it's once I felt brain zaps today that I was like, shit, that's prooobably kratom wds. I'm not trying to speedrun this necessarily, I've been titrating like 0.1-0.2g down a day, but I sort of just rapidly decreased it to 2g flat. I have enough to last a couple months if I took it this way, so I'd like to believe the path to freedom off this will come. It could be responsible for a lot of health issues I have, and I wouldn't even know. I know for a fact it's why my scalp has been dry as fuck for years though.
Still, even with this being the case, I bet smoke shops will sell it. Once I have dough, I might run by one just to see, cause I got back from the Midwest today, probably some of the fatigue is from that, it's just abnormal compared to other years. Everywhere in the Midwest there were CBD and THCA flower "dispensaries" which are totally banned. It's not even decrim in Iowa, but you still see those.
I know all my cousins way back when it was just delta 8, THC-P or whatever the fuck would just ask about D9, or use some code word to get D9 carts, which was just shitty disty, but they probably thought that was pretty good shit considering they had no access to any good weed. I'm not putting any faith in this idea, I just have a feeling. I still do want to actually just get the hell off of this already.
Also, FWIW, no one is the same. I've heard of people who jumped ship doing 30g a day apparently with just Gabapentin megadosing. That seems a lot worse though... withdrawal wise it probably would be at least. I only say this because it took just 3ish months of daily use, not even that much, to have some of the worst withdrawals I've ever experienced. Not even benzo withdrawal was so hellish, cold and terrible for me. I'd been taking 4g, then 5g, then 6g, then 10g daily by the month before this had happened.
Some people just quit kratom and are pretty much fine, some of us go straight to hell as if we were using much higher amounts or taking extracts. That's how it was for me after just months of use. I was so desperate I was licking bags and shit, but I didn't have Gabapentin back then, so who knows how much easier it could've been for me, and it only lasted about 48 hours until I could finally get a proper sleep. Woke up about to puke, held it back, showered and felt better than ever.
To this day, I wish the kratom I'd ordered never arrived. This shit only had value in my life from like, June and August 2017. I would've died without it thanks to all the antidepressants being thrown at me (looking at you specifically, Effexor) and also not made specific types of growth that I don't know I could've made without it. It really is a tough call.
Either way, it's once I felt brain zaps today that I was like, shit, that's prooobably kratom wds. I'm not trying to speedrun this necessarily, I've been titrating like 0.1-0.2g down a day, but I sort of just rapidly decreased it to 2g flat. I have enough to last a couple months if I took it this way, so I'd like to believe the path to freedom off this will come. It could be responsible for a lot of health issues I have, and I wouldn't even know. I know for a fact it's why my scalp has been dry as fuck for years though.
