This is my second time being busted, though still I haven't wound up in handcuffs. Since my CWOF ended, I figure they might go straight to probation if they decide to file a criminal complaint. I know it's my own doing, but I can't have probation for drugs on my record. I'll never be able to apply for a job that does CORI checks, and I'm trying to find a new job since my current one pays minimum wage with no benefits.
Plus, if my folks find out, I'm not going to be in a very good living situation. If this ends up being the thing that keeps me off of drugs for good, great…but not at the expense of my livelihood and mental state.
The guy who confiscated my stuff pretty much said "Well, maybe we'll file a complaint, maybe not…I dunno…now go home and don't come back or I'll arrest you for trespassing." And considering it can take months for these kinds of things to happen, I'm gonna be sweating this out for a very long time…while trying to stay clean.
This is the only place where I've talked about the incident, though I'll be talking to my drug counselor about it next week when I see her.
STUPID STUPID STUPID!!!!!!