flexmasta12
Bluelighter
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^not to troll, but didn't u have half a ducky yesterday, and the days prior for a while you had been hangin off the pipe?
^ fuck yeah. i feel the weight of the world very heavily on my shoulders when i'm tripping sometimes.
i have also been overwhelmed by the stupidity and destructiveness of mankind and turned into a blubbering mess.
it feels therapeutic though, don't you think? like, it doesn't make anything better, but it purges some of that darkness.
i've also had it happen when i'm tripping in front of friends who don't know i'm tripping - maybe the facade of normality makes you more vulnerable to breaking down emotionally? i had a similar experience sitting in a car, fucked up on shrooms, with a bunch of sober friends. very intense!
either way, psychedelic tears are so much more profound than crying normally. that sounds pretty cliche, doesn't it? once they're out it's like a new day has begun and the sun is shining and you are reborn.
i think it ties into that idea (that i thoroughly agree with) that difficult trips are among the most rewarding. you learn from rough trips, and for me they often serve to confirm the way i really feel about things.
^not to troll, but didn't u have half a ducky yesterday, and the days prior for a while you had been hangin off the pipe?
Dont get your hopes up about the sunflowers. They have all disappeared, the only ones you will find are the ones still floating around in small numbers.
If it's safe to candy flip, I assume there's little risk of SS when tripping on SSRI's?
Definitely. The other time I had this was when I had to come to terms with some very close friends of mine moving away for a long while while listening to Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd.
For me it's always music, but that has always been the way with me, music somehow reacts with my brain and if the song/mindset/setting is just right it just hooks me into my deepest emotions and they all come pouring out. Not just when tripping but it's so much more intense and yeah cleansing as you said. The recent one was really weird, I gotta stop tripping in my mates beach house. First time was American Psycho and way too much acid for such a movie, last time was God of War III peaking while fighting Hades. Yeah you want an experience, take acid and then rip out the heart of the god of death
But back to what we were talking about, I know that cleansing feeling after you purge your emotions like that while tripping. Fuck visuals, that's what I thought hallucinogens were all about when I started but man when you can be brought to your knees, just a mess with sorrow about something you don't even think about regularly, that's when you know you're learning something and that hallucinogens are more just mere drugs.
I'm going to The Wall on Wednesday, going to be MDMA for me though. :D