Great Topic!
On being Fucked UP: Well here is a different spin on things, weekend before last I got too carried away and over the weekend took 7 pills and smoked copious amounts of weed. Considering this went against a great deal of my promises to myself (I don't smoke dope so that was pretty stupid), I am taking a 4-6 week break as I got pretty damn well fucked up.
Part of the problem for me, and this is on topic, was I spent much too much of my time on the Friday night (hello to Miss CandE, E^lEctric, Big Trancer, Eds-Hed, Disco Super Fly, Elliven, Scott'E', you all saw me on the road to one screwed up weekend!!!) looking after friends who had taken god knows what (none where BLers!) and were feeling shit or going through something they didn't understand. And where basically fucked up. - personal note to myself to stop giving away all my 5-HTP to new friends and strangers, but you are all welcome to my Mylanta tablets!
I like looking after people but this got kinda out of hand and I forgot to enjoy myself!
I am also reminded of my first pill and the feelings it gave me. I took it at Pleazure in March, a white Mitsi. I felt fantastic, loved-up, couldn't keep still had to hug everyone and I danced all night and even the next day when I was too sore, I still had to dance.
Now some of you might think.. ahh he had some speed. I actually think not, all the feelings and rushes and the way I behaved all point me to good MDMA.
I have had speedie pills, and speed as powder. It has quite a different effect on me and makes me somewhat ill the next day. I really don't like the effects and avoid it now completly.
Recently I had a pill that planted me on my Ass hard (newer Turbo Mitsi's with the smaller logo). It felt good but was definately one of the other MDxx (damn need to do my homework again), I felt pretty fucked, enjoyed the time but prefer the cleaner feel of MDMA.
Last things I have had that were good were MDMA caps. These were really nice, very clean, not rushy just feeling great and loving it. Only thing was that the dose was too low, otherwise this is more what I like.
My favourite sensation would have to be the Orange cKs that went around a few months back. I still get goose bumps thinking about how funky I felt on them and how many awesome people I met and talked to, as well as the dancing (although not as much as on others).
What is my point to this mindless wank that I seem to have plonked here in front of you... not sure, except to say that I think dancing on MDMA is a personal thing and varies with the feelings, people, environment and music. Also that I choose to only take MDMA or its bretheren and choose not to take speed, dope, or shit pills that I buy off my friends at clubs because it seems like a good idea at the time.
Oh and one last thing on the speed + MDMA thing. When I have had it before hand it messed up my time on the MDMA, afterwards was often good as it kept me going but in hindsight this may not have been all that positive for my body or my mind. So I just roll with the night and let myself come down when it is over.
On the view of less informed individuals, here are some of the things I have heard my friends and others say:
"don't worry man, it's a pill so it's going to be safe" - (yeah right you little shit, like that makes sense!).
"That pill was fucked up as it made me cry for no reason" - hmmm maybe you have reasons but have buried them a bit too well.
"my guy/girl can get the real deal, you probably have never had anything as pure or as good as this" - hmmm what a shame they always test Orange... what gets me is he still thinks that each time he sorts out a new deal that it is going to be the "best MDMA pills you have ever had"... so far he has never had a deal work out.
"my dealer told me that ... he knows what he is talking about" - no comment is really needed on that one.
"you cannot get pure MDMA, it is impossible" - same guy that thinks he is always going to get the best pills in the world of the next guy.
Basically just do your own research, inform yourself, don't just take the word of others... even people here, we all make mistakes and we all get clouded in our judgement from time to time... and few (if any) of us are experts in any of this.
One last thing BT... I don't agree with your view on the purity of MDMA pills. I would say that the makers would want to change the mix ever so slightly of MDMA and other psychoactive ingrediants to give a pill just that little bit of an extra rush or different feel or increased visuals, etc. Like comparing the Orange cKs I was talking about and the MDMA caps... very very different in some ways and very much the same in others.
And a tribute to Disco Super Fly who I have to say is the only person I have ever met in my life that never seems to run out of Serotonin... I bow down to thee!
And to my other friend D... who no matter what pill he munches on, regardless of whether everyone else who has the same pill is stuck on there ass (the last Wet Musik) he will be off dancing like a Mother Fucker! You truely do inspire and scare the crap out of me my friend!
Take care.