Diggin' this read guys!!
I first dropped in june last year. Was a very pure MDMA pill (red maple leaf), I didn't know what to expect. I had done as much research as one could do, and ask as many experienced ppl as I could. Nothing compares to real experience though. I remember thinking "this isn't doing much too me at all". Then I
really thought about how I felt, I thought "fuck I'm in an unbelievably good mood". I have before this moment only really ever drunk alchol on a night out, so feeling this good after not drinking a drop was unusual. After realising what the drug was doing to me It seemed to just get better and better. At the peak I was thinking that nothing could possibly break this mood. I was doing the usual hugging and kissing of everyone :D I had no huge eye wobbling or blackouts or full-on rushing, just an amazingly good feeling.
Since, I've had some varied experiences, and I really want that pure MDMA feeling only.
Some of my buddies really disapoint me. We go out and they dont seem happy unless they are completely out of their heads. Some just stand there looking sweaty, pastey white skin, trembling with their hands flexed about as far as they can be. This doesn't look like fun to me. They don't dance, they dont talk, they cant make descisions.
I feel sorry for them that they cant just enjoy 1 good MDMA pill the way I and many of my other friends can. One night at a big rave this dude we know couldn't even step over a pile of empty water bottles after about 6 cookies, he got to it - looked confused - looked back at us - turned around and went back in an attempt to find a different route.
They're constantly on a night out saying "How many you had man?" I say "who cares as long as we're all having fun right". If you tell them you had one or two it's like "What? Aren't you enjoying it? do you wanna go or something?".
When we ask these dudes if they had a good night they usually complain about something - "the music was too slow/fast/loud/soft", "shitty bikkies", "crowd were up themselves", etc etc. The dudes in question are otherwise really great ppl to be around or have a few drinks with.
I don't mind feeling fucked up you know and I'll usually enjoy myself none the less, but give me a clear headed MDMA trip anytime.