Firstly.. What i have is more than a simply fractured back, it has a domino affect on my body. I forgot to mention i also have arthritis, severe arthritis, I've had it since i was a gymnast 20 years ago. I also suffered a gymnastic accident that left me in pain the rest of my life- My knee's and all area's near growth plates, i had to quit gymnastics at 14 because the pain was to severe for me.. Some days i can barely walk. So since you want to get technical here, ok... you know what else i have? When i hurt myself in another gymnastic accident- during an event, i did something to the nerve in my neck and i have constant pain in the lower part of my head. I didn't want to get into detail about all my injuries because it seemed pointless because no matter what i say you won't change your opinion about me. And Thank GOD OPINIONS aren't FACTS! 15 years of gymnastics has left my body a mess. And yes, i know not all gymnast have this problem but i was one of the unfortunate one's. The pain i have in my lower head is like someone pricking my nerve all the time.
And some of my injuries CAN'T be fixed with surgery, so get off of that already damn it!
PTSS/PTSD, it was a frickin' typo, good god. And no it doesn't warrant me to take more pain meds and that isn't why i take more pain meds, i have a psychiatrist who helps me with this. I'm sorry you have it as well. For me, it was the worse thing any woman could ever go through. And how do you know your PTSD is worse than mine? Post Traumatic stress syndrome is bad for everyone, no version or one's experience of it is worse than any other.
And i to hate people who leach off of Social Security and i am NOT one of those people. I had to go through a lot to get SSI, i had to see doctors, have tests, be evaluated. Because i didn't have a lot of text book conditions they needed more and more proof. Finally when i went before a judge the judge said "you should not have had to go through all these denials and appeals, you clearly have a severe disabilities- emotional and physical and should have been granted social security right away. 6 weeks later i got an approval letter from this judge with a hefty retro check. So don't go off on me telling me i don't deserve social security or i am leaching off of the system. Oh and i don't get frickin food stamps. I barely get ANYTHING from social security. And why is that, because of all the people who leach the system. If it wasn't for them YOU and I and everyone else who truly deserves it could get it.
And how do you know that your illness/conditions are worse than mine? HOW do you come to that conclusion? At least i have never said that my condition is worse than yours. How do you know that i am not in as much pain as you. I have to live with pain every god damn day of my life. At one point i even thought of suicide the pain was so unbearable. That was a few years ago, before i found decent pain relief from a great doctor. Do you know how many times my poor Grandma has come into my room and seen me laying on the bed crying with tears rolling down my face because the pain was so bad. All she could do was sit there and rub my back and try to make me feel better, she said "I feel so helpless, i wish i could help you" And than she'd cry. And i hated seeing my Grandmother cry.
I'm sorry you and the wonderful men and woman who have served our country can't get social security, i really do. I appreciate what these men and woman have done for our country. And you do deserve some sort of benefit from or government. And i DO NOT HAVE SIMPLE DISABIITIES. I have some mild one's and some rather severe disabilities. You are not my doctor so you can't sit there and say my injuries/illnesses/conditions are simple and not deserving of the benefits i get. I wish my disabilities were simple, OH LORD do i wish that. I could go about my business and fallow my dream of being a zoologist and photographer, but NOPE that dream is shattered now. I'll never be a zoologist. My dreams have been ruined because of my post traumatic stress syndrome and because of my several injuries and conditions. I'd give anything to be able to get rid of this pain and fallow my dreams. Instead... when i was first told i couldn't work, i said to myself "OK, since i can't work or go to school, i will try and make myself a better person and learn what i can with the spare time i have and that's exactly what i did. I thought myself computer graphics while laying in bed. I studied astronomy, mythology and whatever else i was interested in. I never have wasted my time, I've never been one to sit around and do nothing. And i take care of my grandma as best as i can and within the boundaries of my illness and conditions. And i sue as hell don't sit around getting high all the time.
And yes i enjoy pain meds but i DON'T LOVE them. If i didn't have pain, i honestly believe i would taper down and get off of all this shit. I even tried a few times but i couldn't handle the pain. You're making me out to be a criminal just because I'll treat myself to my meds once in a while. And out there in the world there are child molesters, rapist, torturers and your sitting there typing trying to make me feel like i am the worst person in the world and i am a criminal. You should take that negative energy you have towards me and use it and turn it into something useful. And no, i am not on my computer every god damn minute. I sit here maybe 15 minutes at a time and than i usually go lay down for a while. I can only sit at the computer for a little bit because the pain becomes to much.
And about NOT trying other things instead of pain meds. I HAVE DONE THAT and done it over and over: Non-Opiate pain meds, Epidurals, Therapy, aqua therapy, traction therapy, palates, Ultra sound therapy. I even went to a class that helps people deal with their pain and what exercises they can do t help my pain. So don't tell me i haven't done anything but take opiates to help my pain.
You seem to be very bitter and you're taking it out on me. Well, you want to know why i am bitter. My Grandma who is 84, worked 2 jobs for 30 years and raised 3 kids all on her own (her husband split when my mom was 3)... he went out for milk and never came back. Ok, so now she is retired... and she gets barely anything because of the illegal aliens who come over here and use every single benefit the government offers (I'm not saying all of them, there are some IA's who are wonderful people and work hard for their money) And my Grandma gets barely anything because people who fake injuries to get on social security. If it wasn't for those people my Grandma and myself and YOU would be getting a much better benefit/social security from out government but no, instead the government gives all these programs and benefits to fakers and illegal aliens who come over here. THAT'S WHY I AM BITTER. My Grandma deserves a lot more from Soc Sec than she is getting.
I can under stand why you are bitter, but it's not my fault. I am doing absolutely nothing wrong. My injuries are not fucking simple, lord knows i wish they were, i wish i could work... you think i like living off of god damn 500 bucks a month. DO YOU?
You are so fucking way off when it comes to me and you have no right to judge me like that. Like i said before... i have worked since i was 18 years old (37 now), i paid into the system, paid my taxes, i am a good citizen, i volunteer, i try to make my community better, i take care of my Grandma. And as a pre-teen i suffered a horrible injury during a gymnastics event, than i had to go through something horrible that left me with post traumatic stress syndrome... And also because of the gymnastic i developed horrible and painful arthritis and than lucky me, i was in a horrible accident and i did more than FRACTURE my back. I can barely move most of the time. In the morning, i can't even walk, some mornings i have to use a cane. I have to use a cane when I'm on the buss. I even had to use a wheel chair one day when my Grandma and i went out somewhere.
So will you get off my case already. My injuries are not a simple back problem. Take your negative energy and bitterness and put it into something positive and give people the benefit of the doubt and don't assume because someone occasionnally abuses their pain meds that they are fucking faking it and don't deserve social security and sit around getting high all day. How do you get off doing that.
I wish i could sit down with you and show you all my medical records and doctors notes and diagnoses. I wish my doctor could sit down and talk to you but i bet ya any money you still wouldn't believe me because instead of trying to grow as a person, instead of trying to become a good person you chose to make other people feel bad about themselves. I used to be very negative and i turned myself around. I became the good person i always wanted to be. There is so much more to life than what is going on right here in this thread. There is a world out there.... make your life more positive instead of making other people feel like shit or make assumptions about them and judgements. How would you feel if the shoe's were reversed here.
I am rising above this because that's all i know how to do. Your opinions of me have no affect on me what so ever. Later tonight, i will log off and not give you a second thought because i am a happy person and i surround myself with positivity instead of making other people feel crappy when it's not warranted. You must feel very small to make other people feel bad. That's text book psychological behavior on your part. You feel like shit, so make others feel like shit as well.
I am done with this. I will never respond to this thread again, nor will i reply to it. What you chose to believe about me is your opinion and maybe a few others opinions as well but thank god
OPINIONS aren't
FACT. What i say about myself is factual and you and no one else can ever take that away from me, not even with negative and cruel replies in some forum and from some person i don't even know.
Here is some advice for you. Instead of making people feel like shit, instead of accusing people of faking and leaching off the system do something positive with that energy like try to help people on this forum. Tell your story and maybe people will understand you better and maybe you'll actually help someone. Take that negative energy you have and do something good with it. We only have one life, we don't get much time here... so you have to make the best of it as you can, even if you have a disability like yourself, me and a lot of others here. Try to do something positive with that incredible bitter negative energy you have.
Be well and i wish you the best. Take care and good bye to this thread!
RPG
mvhawks1978 said:
If all you have is a fracture in your back, then it's either going to get better or you need to have it physically repaired. I see that you talk about PTSS. It's actually PTSD.... I know all about that, because I have it. I am sure you might have been through something horrible in your life and I feel for ya, but having PTSD does not warrant you to take more pain medications. I will not change my opinion on the whole social security thing. I think it's crazy that my physical condition is far worse then several people who get approved for benefits. I also would guess that my PTSD is far worse then some people too and I can't get approved. I won't get into details either, but I will say that several thousands of men and women have the same exact PTSD as I do from fighting for this country and none of us get SHIT in return. So with that said, I do think it's bullshit that people get approved for social security who have small or simple disabilities. The difference with you and I, is that you LOVE to be on pain medicine and be on your computer all day. I fucking hate pain medicine and I fucking hater being in pain. So with everything said, I just see that you are the only one who sends out messages that contradict how the system really works. If you are in pain, then you need pain meds, I agree. But you should also try some other ways to get rid of pain.
