The first time I rolled was also at my first party. My best friends' brother organized this party, and was an "ole' school" raver himself. There were two of my really close friends and I, and we were all extacy virgins.
My friends bro hooked me up with pure MDMA capsules (straight from the chemist), and showed us what partying was all about. He had one of the best Dj lineups for a small party; Dj's that are now headlining all over the world. Simply put, it was indescribable. Neverending energy, a very clean body buzz, and smiles all around.
When I started to feel the effects leveling off, I saw my friend's bro again. He asked how i felt. I told him "thank you", and that i am enjoying the comedown very much. When he heard me say that, all he said in reply was:
"Trust me."
He gave me a handshake, and in my hand I found another gelcap. I looked up and saw him smiling that all-knowing smile. The rest of the night just melts into a mixture of nirvana, non-stop dancing, massages from genuinely cool party kids, lightshows...the works. He gave me glowsticks too, and I taught myself how to do my first lightshow by feeling the music and observing others.
That night, time was frozen. Never have I come so close to realizing how everything falls into place. Peace, Love, Unity, and Respect were no longer just words. They were tangible, and feasible; something that I could observe, feel and, encompass myself in.
When we arrived at the venue, it was late at night. When we left, I felt reborn. The sun had just started to break through the skyline, and the beauty of realizing how different everything was from when we arrived just stupefied my being.
*sigh*
Sorry for the long post, but it did change my life forever. And its something i've always wished to share with others. ciao!
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"You lie like a fly wit a booger in yo' eye" --My 1st grade classmate