i wrote this as a replay on someone's post, but i wanted to make it its own post so maybe i can get more people to see it and comment. i really need help here...
the thing is, i'm experiencing more depression and anxiety than i ever have in my life. it's a stressful time right now and my living arrangement is kinda up in the air. i Just got a good job so now i can start saving up money to move to a more stable place- like my own apartment. i'm battling ovarian cancer at the same time as all this and going through chemo. so to say it's a stressful time is a HUGE understatement. but... over the last 4 or 5 months, i feel like i've lost a huge part of me.
[just to give you an idea, i was taking about 120-150mg of mgm15/day. i would usually just take the whole dose in the morning and be good all day. i was fine with kratom powder, to take it or leave it. i would take it once a day or 3 times a day, whenever i had it. but it wasn't until i switched to 7oh ,because it was a new thing in the shop and i didn't have enough to get regular extract, that i started to feel the physical addiction. as soon as i start 7oh, it all got away from me and within 1 week of using it, i was dependent. and i haven't stopped until now. and i'm REALLY struggling. it's been about 5 days since i've had mgm15. i've been taking easy septavex to ease SOME of the wd- like diarrhea, but nothing is making me feel better. i'm on edge from the time i wake up, which is too early, till the time i reluctantly close my eyes. i feel like i'm not myself. i don't enjoy anything at all. every thing is stressful and i can't relax to save my life.
if anyone has any advice, i would absolutely appreciate that and open my mind to it. please, i really need help. i am miserable.
the thing is, i'm experiencing more depression and anxiety than i ever have in my life. it's a stressful time right now and my living arrangement is kinda up in the air. i Just got a good job so now i can start saving up money to move to a more stable place- like my own apartment. i'm battling ovarian cancer at the same time as all this and going through chemo. so to say it's a stressful time is a HUGE understatement. but... over the last 4 or 5 months, i feel like i've lost a huge part of me.
[just to give you an idea, i was taking about 120-150mg of mgm15/day. i would usually just take the whole dose in the morning and be good all day. i was fine with kratom powder, to take it or leave it. i would take it once a day or 3 times a day, whenever i had it. but it wasn't until i switched to 7oh ,because it was a new thing in the shop and i didn't have enough to get regular extract, that i started to feel the physical addiction. as soon as i start 7oh, it all got away from me and within 1 week of using it, i was dependent. and i haven't stopped until now. and i'm REALLY struggling. it's been about 5 days since i've had mgm15. i've been taking easy septavex to ease SOME of the wd- like diarrhea, but nothing is making me feel better. i'm on edge from the time i wake up, which is too early, till the time i reluctantly close my eyes. i feel like i'm not myself. i don't enjoy anything at all. every thing is stressful and i can't relax to save my life.
if anyone has any advice, i would absolutely appreciate that and open my mind to it. please, i really need help. i am miserable.
