I feel God fucking awful over this shit with my ex girlfriend, my heart is broken.
That being said, I am not going to use over it. Craziest part is this: I don't want to. A few times I have felt sorry for myself because "I can not have a beer" but that is about it. I know this wouldn't have been the case with the first few months, but now it is. Sticking with it has been so worth it for me.
Really going to refocus on my 10th step. I am already working out, will start seeing a therapist again, journaling, going to meetings etc. The reason why I was doing it before something like this happens is that it doesn't take that much effort to keep doing it.
1 year, 1 month, 13 days clean!