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June Getting/Staying Clean/Sober Thread vs It's Finally Beach Weather!

Hey there. I just wanted to,pop I. And say hello. Day 18 for me today. Wish I could tell you I am happy, joyous and free, but I can barely get out of bed. Tired, no energy, agitated, miserable. I guess that does it. Hopefully a better day tomorrow.
Thanks for listening

I'm happy for you, because you're on the right path, and your recovery is going really well! 18 days isn't an easy feat. I remember getting there of November of last year, and I was still miserable too. Hang in there <3

I wasn't sure if this was directed at me...my family are all quite far away and have no idea. I mean they know something is up but not the extent, and there is no way they would be supportive. I have some very good friends and l am actually quite happy with my life circumstances right now which is why it is a good time.

Similar circumstances for me; just my partner, as my family are thousands of miles away.
 
Hey ruby
i know you are disappointed in yourself, but consider what you would of normally injested, and it wasn't a full out drug-fest. I think you just need to move forward, and maybe counting days isn't nearly as important as how you feel about yourself and your life. You are not alone. I enjoy reading your posts and I'm glad you are here.
( I still do. Not know how to put a bubble around my reply posts, sorry)
 
Hey ruby
i know you are disappointed in yourself, but consider what you would of normally injested, and it wasn't a full out drug-fest. I think you just need to move forward, and maybe counting days isn't nearly as important as how you feel about yourself and your life. You are not alone. I enjoy reading your posts and I'm glad you are here.
( I still do. Not know how to put a bubble around my reply posts, sorry)
Thank you that means a lot because l am actually feeling pretty good, and thank you l enjoy your posts as well:) Bluelight is good stuffs!
 
1 year, 1 month, 10 days. Totally clean for me.

Fucking devastated over relationship stuff. Not going to use over it, but breakups really suck. First real relationship and real breakup and I am doing it clean. Man...

Friend from NA overdosed and died. Life kinda sucks for me right now.
 
1 year, 1 month, 10 days. Totally clean for me.

Fucking devastated over relationship stuff. Not going to use over it, but breakups really suck. First real relationship and real breakup and I am doing it clean. Man...

Friend from NA overdosed and died. Life kinda sucks for me right now.
I am sorry you are going through this:(
 
1 year, 1 month, 10 days. Totally clean for me.

Fucking devastated over relationship stuff. Not going to use over it, but breakups really suck. First real relationship and real breakup and I am doing it clean. Man...

Friend from NA overdosed and died. Life kinda sucks for me right now.

Phactor: So sorry to hear that you are experiencing "life on life's terms" in such sad ways. This is just my opinion, so take it or leave it, but maybe you and your girlfriend could end up getting back together again in the future. She may be addressing some codependency issues depending on how her sponsor does recovery, so is there a chance she is just taking a break to work on her own sobriety and issues? (I think you said she is in sober living right now... so her whole life is recovery for now).
And it sucks when an addict is trying to get clean, like your friend who was attending NA, and the disease of addiction just takes them down. I am sending positive thoughts your way.
 
1 year, 1 month, 10 days. Totally clean for me.

Fucking devastated over relationship stuff. Not going to use over it, but breakups really suck. First real relationship and real breakup and I am doing it clean. Man...

Friend from NA overdosed and died. Life kinda sucks for me right now.

Stay strong. You're an inspiration to myself and others here. <3
 
I definitely wont give up that easily.
theres always hope :)
in the small amount of time ive been clean i have managed to save $890 !!!
Im not touching this stash. Fully keeping it for travel.
 
Hey trip-good for you for saving the money!!

sober2-congrats on your week, that's awesome!!
 
Hi there!!
19 days clean and I finally had a good day. The last few days have been ROUGH. Just enjoying this day in case tomorrow sucks
 
Hello Recovery peoples just checking in after I just broke past the acute stages of withdrawal from a 2 year run with kratom. It's been 10-days opioid-free and I'm physically fine. Mentally it's a whole different story. Once I get myself going in the morning things get better but I feel weak and drained for the most part. Hope you're all doing well. I'm done with this opioid merry-go-round. Thought that kratom would be different for all the reasons propagandized by vendors & advocates, but it's just as bad as any other MOR agonist.

Anyone know if rehabs will accept you if you're not physically dependent? I might check myself in to one but I didn't want to be in withdrawal at an unfamiliar place so I chose to DIY.
 
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