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oblivious is the concept that denotes, not being able to survive - life is full of self-conscious zombies - we need real people.
Fuck that shit; you got to keep yourself being a painful nuisance; to yourself and society - this is living!!
Severe depression taking over.
January is the worst.
Luckily for me, I got the worst of it over this Christmas - as expected...I would only say ( from my own experience) -Distraction - keep busy, in an engaged, purposeful way (in lieu of that; even if it is more compulsive - you are at least helping yourself- your brain will recognise these efforts; although not ideal, it's better than dwelling and it will reward your efforts, if you let it). Volunteer/engage in a project online - home your good self into something that offers you something. Find something you can be a part of or, where you feel you are still isolated, go to your doc, think about meds if needed, or nurse yourself and find comfort in sleep.
Remember it does pass eventually, go easy on yourself if you have no energy - go with what you need and if you find a modecum of space move, to animate yourself - make sure you aknowledge your efforts -these times are overwhelming there is always options and to medicate is one also, if you need it.
Also, its an opportunity ( I don't mean to sound like a giant pc cunt here) but this can help you find your metal (despite how hard), your boundary area - your identity - take it as a shitty oppertunity to find out more about you and what you need, to be true to yourself.
Be well mate.