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Bluelight Crew
5 months sober
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Last dose: Congrats on those 61 days! You are such a warrior!! What a positive attitude you have... an inspiration! I am on day 7 cold turkey off of opiates, and finally am starting to feel better. I re-read your thread, last dose, for inspiration!
Last dose: Congrats on those 61 days! You are such a warrior!! What a positive attitude you have... an inspiration! I am on day 7 cold turkey off of opiates, and finally am starting to feel better. I re-read your thread, last dose, for inspiration!
Sim and TLD: Thank you both so much for the supportive posts.... I need that encouragement. Ready to run out of comfort meds... clonidine and gabapentin. Keep your fingers crossed for me. Awe... TLD.... so touched to read about your tears of joy. Anytime anyone escapes the grasp of opiates, man, it is a time of joy and happiness. They are truly evil, IMHO, have soaked me for thousands, and have diminishing returns in terms of pain control.
I still have to cancel my last appointment, but should not be difficult, as I will get "fired" anyway, due to the gabapentin in my system...those damn ua's.
TLD: What similar experiences we have had...scary! That means that there are many out there suffering/being ripped off. So happy to be off that merry-go-round!! BTW: Keep those fingers crossed for me...I need all the positive energy I can get!!!! BTW: Enjoyed reading your ice-fishing experience.... you kick PAWS out of your life!!!
I've been in my head way too much lately. I spoke with a recovery friend last night and he suggested I write out a gratitude list, which I did this afternoon. It feels better to focus energy towards the positive things in my life, and not get so anxious and wound up about everything I don't have or is out of my control. Does anyone else do this, or what are your thoughts on it?
Went to the drs yesterday because of some pain I was having. Liver is grossly enlarged. He said not cirrhosis yet but I can't drink anymore or it will be. I've been bad off before but recovered fairly quickly, but this time I've been totally sober for 11 days and I didn't even start feeling the pain until 4 days ago. Either way looks like my drinking days are over unless I want to kill myself.