swilow
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plain and simple said:
That is insane dude. Why would you do that?
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I've so had it with this woman!
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That is insane dude. Why would you do that?
Apparently, Laura has her own flat in Edinburgh, where the bad lot are. Jesus, I wonder if she invites Matt there. Fanny!
First he abuses her, then she goes back to him again and again. Kind of like me going back to her, I suppose. Either way, what a scrub some women can be. Us poor guys need to draw up some rules and put the list on the fridge. Read them, remember them, and respect them, or there's the door. Don't let it hit you on the way out, bitches.
I tried asking out girls with AS a long time ago and they never fulfilled their end of the "agreement" because they probably just weren't bothered. They go to Number 6 a lot. Normally, they would say they wanted to go on a date, then make an excuse nearer the time. No more with the 'preserving my feelings' knack, please. Just come out and say I am butt ugly, you aren't interested, and we will call it even-steven. Ha-ha.
I still say that support company screwed me over too, and the court matters were all one-sided and bullshit from the beginning. The agency's management team may have been told all about my "history" the very day they gave me support. Plus, I do a pretty damn good job of that myself. Sometimes, running your mouth letting off steam does more harm than good.
Well, at least I can laugh about it now. But yeah. They will only be remembered as scumbags, because they sold me down the river. Even some of the people I was in prison with thought I was being screwed over.
First he abuses her, then she goes back to him again and again. Kind of like me going back to her, I suppose. Either way, what a scrub some women can be. Us poor guys need to draw up some rules and put the list on the fridge. Read them, remember them, and respect them, or there's the door. Don't let it hit you on the way out, bitches.
I tried asking out girls with AS a long time ago and they never fulfilled their end of the "agreement" because they probably just weren't bothered. They go to Number 6 a lot. Normally, they would say they wanted to go on a date, then make an excuse nearer the time. No more with the 'preserving my feelings' knack, please. Just come out and say I am butt ugly, you aren't interested, and we will call it even-steven. Ha-ha.
I still say that support company screwed me over too, and the court matters were all one-sided and bullshit from the beginning. The agency's management team may have been told all about my "history" the very day they gave me support. Plus, I do a pretty damn good job of that myself. Sometimes, running your mouth letting off steam does more harm than good.
Well, at least I can laugh about it now. But yeah. They will only be remembered as scumbags, because they sold me down the river. Even some of the people I was in prison with thought I was being screwed over.
swilow
Bluelight Crew
With all due respect, what exactly are you talking about?
Pharcyde
Bluelighter
Leave every woman you meet alone
crzydiamond
Bluelighter
I think that is known as " a break with reality"
For a moment, I felt like I was in the mind of a paranoid schizophrenic undergoing an episode. ( no offense to those schizophrenics out there
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For a moment, I felt like I was in the mind of a paranoid schizophrenic undergoing an episode. ( no offense to those schizophrenics out there
)My very first 'key worker' from 2008-2010 has MS, so I think she has retired. When I saw her last year at a bus stop, she was in a motor wheelchair, and we went for a chat afterwards. This was just before I let the piggy wankers arrest me, after about 2 or so weeks of hiding from them. But it was futile since they are persistent fuckers, and there was really nowhere to go anyway. One dirty tactic they use is tracking you with your phone signal, but I got wise to that. But since it wasn't a good idea to stay in cheap hostels, I had to stay outside, and it is cold at night in Scotland. Plus, public parks are rarely unoccupied.
You get drunks and late night dog walkers, or cyclists using the side paths to move around. Last year, I was up at Colinton Dell in Edinburgh a lot, hanging about there, since it has plenty of trees and is near a 24 hour Asda too, but it is not dense enough as there is a public walkway next to a river and if I were to lay on a bench somewhere to rest up, people kept coming by asking if I was ill. I'd walk around in circles trying to remember a fine memory with either Sara or Joanna, to mask the sorrow.
I really hope they all die soon. Usually, I would never wish that on anybody, but giving the way they ruined my life, shit on me, threw me to the wolves, and left me to rot after putting me through all that grief, I don't care if it is nasty. All the years they supported me accounted for fuck all in the end. They purposefully baited me to overreact with manipulation.
There was even a time the pigs smashed my bedroom door in after the seniors in the staff flat got the tossers to show up at the precise time I was supposed to begin a support shift and it turned out they just wanted to make sure I was okay, but my door was wrecked. That is not including the time they stopped me seeing my then Spanish former key worker, but forget the shit here, and just do the sums.
They never gave two shits about my feelings at all, and the women still worked with me after the original mishaps, and I was acting okay, yet they cancelled me out of their lives regardless. Then their seniors said they were still my workers to stall telling me the truth, since they knew how emotional I was over losing them. No wonder I feel betrayed.
I could care much less about them. And I hope they die. If a crazy bastard had killed me in the slammer, it'd have been on those jerks. My mother got away at one of the idiots on the phone once after they admitted they messed up by lying to me, but it didn't stop them continuing to screw me over during the miserable months that followed, and also, they tricked me to end my tenancy. I've occasionally called Number 6 (their outlet for supporting service users) to ask about an upcoming pool tournament, and they kind of just act like I am unimportant.
You get drunks and late night dog walkers, or cyclists using the side paths to move around. Last year, I was up at Colinton Dell in Edinburgh a lot, hanging about there, since it has plenty of trees and is near a 24 hour Asda too, but it is not dense enough as there is a public walkway next to a river and if I were to lay on a bench somewhere to rest up, people kept coming by asking if I was ill. I'd walk around in circles trying to remember a fine memory with either Sara or Joanna, to mask the sorrow.
I really hope they all die soon. Usually, I would never wish that on anybody, but giving the way they ruined my life, shit on me, threw me to the wolves, and left me to rot after putting me through all that grief, I don't care if it is nasty. All the years they supported me accounted for fuck all in the end. They purposefully baited me to overreact with manipulation.
There was even a time the pigs smashed my bedroom door in after the seniors in the staff flat got the tossers to show up at the precise time I was supposed to begin a support shift and it turned out they just wanted to make sure I was okay, but my door was wrecked. That is not including the time they stopped me seeing my then Spanish former key worker, but forget the shit here, and just do the sums.
They never gave two shits about my feelings at all, and the women still worked with me after the original mishaps, and I was acting okay, yet they cancelled me out of their lives regardless. Then their seniors said they were still my workers to stall telling me the truth, since they knew how emotional I was over losing them. No wonder I feel betrayed.
I could care much less about them. And I hope they die. If a crazy bastard had killed me in the slammer, it'd have been on those jerks. My mother got away at one of the idiots on the phone once after they admitted they messed up by lying to me, but it didn't stop them continuing to screw me over during the miserable months that followed, and also, they tricked me to end my tenancy. I've occasionally called Number 6 (their outlet for supporting service users) to ask about an upcoming pool tournament, and they kind of just act like I am unimportant.
swilow
Bluelight Crew
So, you hope the women you stalked die? To be honest, you sound like a dangerous person. Do you really wonder why people seem frightened of you?
RDP89
Bluelighter
Yeah, I'm sorry OP, but it sounds like you need some serious mental help.
swilow
Bluelight Crew
...or some means to keep him away from women in general.
Its like you are blaming everyone but yourself for your problems. Take some responsibility for the mess you are in, stop distancing yourself.
Though to be honest, this guys posting is incoherent nonsense. No-one knows these people you refer to by name. Frankly I don't want to know. He doesn't seem to get that his life is not common knowledge.
I hope op is okay but I am more concerned for people around him.
Its like you are blaming everyone but yourself for your problems. Take some responsibility for the mess you are in, stop distancing yourself.
Though to be honest, this guys posting is incoherent nonsense. No-one knows these people you refer to by name. Frankly I don't want to know. He doesn't seem to get that his life is not common knowledge.
I hope op is okay but I am more concerned for people around him.
Well, I don't feel like I was stalking them. Of course I feel mad at them, because I opened up to them and then they went 180 degrees on me. People generally fall out, all the time, and sometimes it's only for something daft, so reasonable people usually make up afterwards. It's life.
Their problem is they were too jumpy, considering me to be an undesirable entity in their lives because I tried to be human, and I guess they felt like I invaded their personal space, but I don't think after the first few slip ups, that I really ever said or done anything bad, and maybe the situation made both parties nervous. They certainly didn't act like the same people I respected. Sure, what I did was a breach of the boundaries by getting bright ideas, but I still didn't see it as being sinister. They could have just said what the rules are and let us live with it. If they had to share this with their bosses, yeah, there's that too. Maybe they thought I'd chase them like I chased Laura.
We fell out and I just wanted to keep them as my support workers, until they left, then whatever choice they made later should have been their own to make. It's not like I was going to hold them wavering a gun, demanding we remain close. One of them likes cats, and has cats or a cat of her own, and they were going to allow pets at my accommodation. But by the time the managers quit being snippy about things, these women weren't my care workers any more, and they never did sleepovers any longer either.
If it wasn't for me visiting escorts, I'd have probably been a virgin even now. I'm not that attractive, so I don't know if I'll ever get a real girlfriend. Define 'real' for me. Too many people in this day and age just mess me about.
Their problem is they were too jumpy, considering me to be an undesirable entity in their lives because I tried to be human, and I guess they felt like I invaded their personal space, but I don't think after the first few slip ups, that I really ever said or done anything bad, and maybe the situation made both parties nervous. They certainly didn't act like the same people I respected. Sure, what I did was a breach of the boundaries by getting bright ideas, but I still didn't see it as being sinister. They could have just said what the rules are and let us live with it. If they had to share this with their bosses, yeah, there's that too. Maybe they thought I'd chase them like I chased Laura.
We fell out and I just wanted to keep them as my support workers, until they left, then whatever choice they made later should have been their own to make. It's not like I was going to hold them wavering a gun, demanding we remain close. One of them likes cats, and has cats or a cat of her own, and they were going to allow pets at my accommodation. But by the time the managers quit being snippy about things, these women weren't my care workers any more, and they never did sleepovers any longer either.
If it wasn't for me visiting escorts, I'd have probably been a virgin even now. I'm not that attractive, so I don't know if I'll ever get a real girlfriend. Define 'real' for me. Too many people in this day and age just mess me about.
Ksa
Ex-Bluelighter
I would have told him:
"Well, since I cannot see any inner beauty in your daughter, my dick must be blind. I can test it on you tho!"
"Well, since I cannot see any inner beauty in your daughter, my dick must be blind. I can test it on you tho!"
I do have a hobby. I am an actor.
http://www.imdb.com/name/nm7300643/?mode=desktop&ref_=m_ft_dsk
https://vimeo.com/98115840
https://youtu.be/SFxblVREvuM
https://youtu.be/mj_XZVjiJW0
My full channel is here. I am very talented at acting, so I made an IMDb page for contacting professionals.
https://youtube.com/channel/UCw5tC106oV6geTPfDmSbvZw
http://www.imdb.com/name/nm7300643/?mode=desktop&ref_=m_ft_dsk
https://vimeo.com/98115840
https://youtu.be/SFxblVREvuM
https://youtu.be/mj_XZVjiJW0
My full channel is here. I am very talented at acting, so I made an IMDb page for contacting professionals.
https://youtube.com/channel/UCw5tC106oV6geTPfDmSbvZw
Ksa
Ex-Bluelighter
That's a nice tickle torture video, love it when they tear.
Lysis
Bluelighter
He is. http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads/787796-Can-caregivers-be-trusted
Two restraining orders and only men are allowed to work with him. He's got serious issues.
dopemaster
Bluelight Crew
I did not get past the second sentence and then all the technology talk as I scrolled by to see what people had to say, way to keep your anonymity here, lol
I can't even bother to try to help someone who has a clusterfuck of text here. I don't get why people don't just go for the gist and just respond to the feedback.
No offense, but are your comprehension skills a bit off? I've already posted innumerable accounts of times where I was being betrayed and treated unfairly, but you just go on about how I did this and that, when I had the best intentions.
Maybe speaking to a true professional would be better. I hope you are not trolling me over my having autism. That doesn't make one daft. People cannot see the woods for the trees, so I will shut up about it if you want me to, but I think that agency has been very disrespectful.
http://www.asd-forum.org.uk/forum/i...support-workers-despite-requiring-their-help/
Maybe speaking to a true professional would be better. I hope you are not trolling me over my having autism. That doesn't make one daft. People cannot see the woods for the trees, so I will shut up about it if you want me to, but I think that agency has been very disrespectful.
http://www.asd-forum.org.uk/forum/i...support-workers-despite-requiring-their-help/
swilow
Bluelight Crew
EDIT: the wild west video, change it to monochrome and it would be even weirder :D
Hey. I'm sure that you feel that you have been betrayed but:
What were these slip ups? You talk about personal space; did you try and touch one of your case workers? Its really hard because you are talking very obscurely and so no-one can really tell what your issue is, but you are saying that you are responsible for these consequences you are facing. I understand you are autistic and I don't really care about that. But, I believe that you may have difficulty in understanding social cues. A 'slip-up' could be accidentally swearing in front of someone or it could be grabbing their ass. Most people do not like to feel threatened; you may have changed your ways and may not be dangerous, but you haven't because you want these women to die. I hope you get the help you need but if you harass and intimidate people, can you blame them for wanting distance from you? The situation you are in sounds like one of your own devising. Try and step back and see that the women in your life are not objects; they are entitled to avoid you if they are threatened. You do not have any right over them. You should be grateful that these people were willing to help you but remember, it was simply what they were paid to do. Do not mistake their attention for something that it isn't. Stop scaring people who want to help make your life better!
One suggestion; delete that stuff that links to yourself. You are talking about wanting people to die and you have posted images/video's/your name. Do not be surprised if this impacts your real life in some way.
Hey. I'm sure that you feel that you have been betrayed but:
What were these slip ups? You talk about personal space; did you try and touch one of your case workers? Its really hard because you are talking very obscurely and so no-one can really tell what your issue is, but you are saying that you are responsible for these consequences you are facing. I understand you are autistic and I don't really care about that. But, I believe that you may have difficulty in understanding social cues. A 'slip-up' could be accidentally swearing in front of someone or it could be grabbing their ass. Most people do not like to feel threatened; you may have changed your ways and may not be dangerous, but you haven't because you want these women to die. I hope you get the help you need but if you harass and intimidate people, can you blame them for wanting distance from you? The situation you are in sounds like one of your own devising. Try and step back and see that the women in your life are not objects; they are entitled to avoid you if they are threatened. You do not have any right over them. You should be grateful that these people were willing to help you but remember, it was simply what they were paid to do. Do not mistake their attention for something that it isn't. Stop scaring people who want to help make your life better!
One suggestion; delete that stuff that links to yourself. You are talking about wanting people to die and you have posted images/video's/your name. Do not be surprised if this impacts your real life in some way.
PriestTheyCalledHim
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I read on your IMDB page that you love horror films, what are some of your most favourite ones, or the rare ones you own on DVD?
Have you tried to meet women who are single who like horror films, and tried to date them, or just become platonic friends with them? Or have you asked the people who you worked with whilst acting in the horror TV show/short film you were in, if they know any single women who want to date you?
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