ivorymoon
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Apr 16, 2018
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I was trapped in active addiction for about 8 years or so. I was a poly-substance abuser but my ultimate DOC was heroin and my preferred ROA was IV. I've been clean for a little over 7 months now. It's the longest I've ever been able to stay clean.
I take Suboxone (if you're one of those people who think that those who are prescribed buprenorphine or methadone "aren't actually clean", that's totally fine but PLEASE keep it to yourself) along with my mental health medications.
The first month of being on Suboxone was great. I didn't have a single craving. However, after that first month, my cravings came back full force.
I had started out at 8mg/day and gradually worked my way up to 24mg/day. Increasing my dose made no difference in regards to my cravings. As you probably know, Suboxone has a ceiling effect so anything higher than what I'm already on won't do a damn thing. There is a debate that the ceiling effect doesn't take place until as a high as 32mg but I disagree.
Anyways, I desperately want to stay clean but all I fuckin wanna do is get high. At my clinic, I was in therapy and attended groups here and there but never really acquired any healthy coping mechanisms.
Now that the metaphorical shit has hit the fan with COVID-19, my clinic is closed. My monthly appointments with my doctors and my refill requests are taken care of over the phone until further notice.
I plan to start attending online NA meetings again (it's been a looong time since my last meeting) but you can only get so much out of that.
What do you do when you're having cravings? I'm open to any and all suggestions. I really don't want to lose my clean time. I've worked so damn hard for it.
Thank you so much.
I take Suboxone (if you're one of those people who think that those who are prescribed buprenorphine or methadone "aren't actually clean", that's totally fine but PLEASE keep it to yourself) along with my mental health medications.
The first month of being on Suboxone was great. I didn't have a single craving. However, after that first month, my cravings came back full force.
I had started out at 8mg/day and gradually worked my way up to 24mg/day. Increasing my dose made no difference in regards to my cravings. As you probably know, Suboxone has a ceiling effect so anything higher than what I'm already on won't do a damn thing. There is a debate that the ceiling effect doesn't take place until as a high as 32mg but I disagree.
Anyways, I desperately want to stay clean but all I fuckin wanna do is get high. At my clinic, I was in therapy and attended groups here and there but never really acquired any healthy coping mechanisms.
Now that the metaphorical shit has hit the fan with COVID-19, my clinic is closed. My monthly appointments with my doctors and my refill requests are taken care of over the phone until further notice.
I plan to start attending online NA meetings again (it's been a looong time since my last meeting) but you can only get so much out of that.
What do you do when you're having cravings? I'm open to any and all suggestions. I really don't want to lose my clean time. I've worked so damn hard for it.
Thank you so much.
