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Bluelighter
So I'm trying to take a break from Heroin (snorting only).. This has been going on for a year now, but the last 4 months became very frequent. I can't afford this habit anymore, along with my boyfriend. It has become a $100 a day habit. So this is the first weekend we are spending together sober. Without Heroin I'm left with boredom and depression. So I deceided to go out and get some coke. I'm not a big fan of coke, but I heard if you IV it, its a different drug.
So I sat here all night shooting up coke 9 times!! the first time I missed, it left a bubble under my skin. The other 8 times went through because I even pulled up to see the blood. I'm left with so much fucking bruising on those large veins behind my elbow. There are 8 shots there. If I move my elbow the site feels a bit achey. Is it something I should worry about?
Oh yeah, all those freaking shots and I didn't get any rush. I felt like I just took a lot of adderall and got really calm and attentive (This ALWAYS happen when I snort coke). (I'm ADHD) I started out small cuz I didn't want a heartattack.. And then I kept adding more and more. I didn't feel a rush. How am I supposed to feel?? Some bitch told me it feels like a body orgasm.
Now I'm here all pissed with fucked up veins and I can't sleep.
Life sucks. I wish I had Heroin.
So I sat here all night shooting up coke 9 times!! the first time I missed, it left a bubble under my skin. The other 8 times went through because I even pulled up to see the blood. I'm left with so much fucking bruising on those large veins behind my elbow. There are 8 shots there. If I move my elbow the site feels a bit achey. Is it something I should worry about?
Oh yeah, all those freaking shots and I didn't get any rush. I felt like I just took a lot of adderall and got really calm and attentive (This ALWAYS happen when I snort coke). (I'm ADHD) I started out small cuz I didn't want a heartattack.. And then I kept adding more and more. I didn't feel a rush. How am I supposed to feel?? Some bitch told me it feels like a body orgasm.
Now I'm here all pissed with fucked up veins and I can't sleep.
Life sucks. I wish I had Heroin.
