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IV Alcohol & Xanax. First Time. “I told you I liked needles a lot”

STOP

from some of your other posts about your veins popping up, internal bleeding, and losing feeling in your hands, id say it is time to TAKE A FUCKING BREAK

just for a few weeks, STOP DOING SHIT
 
over here you can by 96% pure distilled alcohol in the supermarket.... so strong it would satisfy all your get-fucked-up-needs without even injecting it.

seriously, psychubus, do look after yourself. you have great potential in this realm of the living, you know that? use it, don't lose it.
 
This is some scary shit psychubus, I do hope you can help yourself while you have a chance.
I personally would never touch a needle ever since watching Requiem for a Dream, and this post reaffirms my fear of needles, just glad i never went down that track(no pun intended :) )

take care
 
A truly great movie. Each time I see it it gets better but also harder to watch. It's just so captivating...

Also, good report, Hiss. It really does seem like things go wrong with you and your friends when you trip, though. Do you think there's a particular reason for that?
 
nobody minds if you de-derail a thread back to its original topic lol. if it's important i'd like to hear it at least.
 
Growfh said:
Damn... just so gross.

I only hope you post in an irc chatroom about how hardcore you are when you take the final dose...
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Cool, a ripper joke. Cause this is a funny topic and all.

To the original poster, we don't need to tell you you're doing yourself harm because you obviously know this.

Help us help you by telling us why you insist on doing something so self-destructive... there are better highs, safer, cheaper, happier... even natural..
 
Kandy K, if you killed yourself with drugs would it matter? No.

ou're a stunning girl with an amazing body and a good head with some astounding intelligence
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Heh, people who IV alcohol and xanax are neither intelligent, nor do they have a good head on their shoulders. Maybe you have the first part right though. That's all she will ever be if that is the case....one amazing dead body.
 
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Poison was the Cure?

Man, this thead is sooo out of control from the word go...If this wasn't Kandy lighting up the words, I would think that I was totally propaganda.

Speaking from experience here...Don't be that fucking lab rat who hits the shit in his cage again and again dis-regarding all else.

I learned from my own behavior that I was simply trying to wring the last bit of shit out of anything to drive my mind over that fucking unattainable edge.

Again, I along with many others here know what you're doing. Welcome Sister!! Remember the Poison Path has many tricky mis-steps.

I remember from a volume...a lesson that you are intent on learning...

"It is the Anvil that wears the Hammer out."

Come to your lesson Novice! Remember the call of beauty's horn!! It lay behind and before your eyes.

Occams razor.

Yeah...I'm guessing...you've whacked your dopamine circuts good and trying to find what feels good again is going to take a while. Probably a couple years actually. Re-inventing yourself is always a bit of a trick.

I suspect that F&B could offer up a few suggestions. I'm guessing (I still don't know your whole story F&B...) that re-invention is this guys middle name.

Dude, I don't ever even write here...but you girl...Fuck!! You got me to write!!

I suspect many things that you need to spill. And what a better writer than you?

You remind me a little of the fallen Dawn Crosby. Beatiful woman who died in her early 30's due to alcohol. I looked to find a little about her, but couldn't find much. Not much that did her justice in my opinon.

PM me!! I won't lecture you, I promise.

Lizzy
 
And you MGS...

Man, I'm only going to make an observation...Murple anyone?

You sure are sounding like that man in his bad old days. Anyone remember when he got properly banned from the Lyceaum in that 5 meo thread?

If you feel like you can't talk harm reduction, especially in a thread as public at this one, then you really need to think before you speak.

Please.

Lizzy
 
^^I knew it wasn't exactly good for you, but I did not know the extent to the damage it caused. What I did here was not a situation showing intent to endanger myself, but more of an experiment in my eyes. Did I still cause damage to myself even though my test was done out of curiosity? Yes, but in the end, it is always intent that matters. and if I haven't repeated this example since, then isn't that proof enough that it was not an act of self-destruction, but a poor choice made due to lack of guidance and information?

Weird, I thought that was the purpose of this site. If you really want to implement harm reduction, then you have to accept (without endorsing) the destructive reports, because with them comes a learning experience. If there was an unpleasant physical reaction, we may learn something new about the drug's effects on the body and why it is the way that it is. If there was an unpleasant mental reaction, perhaps that is the time one can journey deep into their psyche and reflect upon their own stature.

So long as it ends in an overall negative experience for the user, it deters others from trying the same. Unless they are masochistic or suicidal, but again, it all comes down to intent. If we were to try and prevent this behavior with drugs, we'd have to block sharing any scientific journals, abstract articles, basically stop the flow of any information really (seeing as how any information could give them an idea, so long as they knew their anatomy and chemistry well enough).
 
morninggloryseed said:
Kandy K, if you killed yourself with drugs would it matter? No.
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No, but this is just the nature of life and death that people seem to have a hard time accepting. Do you honestly believe that you would amount to anything more than a fucking dead body if you died?

Lol. yeah... its fun to dream isn't it 8)
 
Psychubus said:
Do you honestly believe that you would amount to anything more than a fucking dead body if you died?
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/\ clever retort, I like it.

On another level than the material, perhaps the answer is yes... but then that goes for everyone, including you, Psychubus
 
Psychubus said:
Somewhere around the 5th shot, I missed partially due to my stupor. I wanted to get more of what I was feeling, but repeatedly having to poke holes in my arm with 1CC rigs was getting lame. That, and because blood coagulates so incredibly fast in alcohol, I ended up having to re-filter a few times to get the bloodclots out.

When I got sick of that, I switched to a 3CC and popped a 31G on there for bigger impact. Unfortunately, the 3CC syringe was so old I had forgotten how much force I would have to exert to move the plunger. This, in combination with the needle being so tiny, meant I had to add even more pressure for the fluid to move out of it. A couple times the plunger got stuck on the way down, and all the extra tension in my hand made me slip out a couple times, so this attempt failed miserably.
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that shit made me cringe....

keep up the good work 8(
 
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