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It come's to communicate with me every few years.

deficiT said:
This is a habit I've fell into many times. No longer drinking is the best thing I could've ever done for my impulse control.

Are you talking about something irl? Or what you said in this particular thread?
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I never thought about the stuff that I did years ago. Impulse control or lack there of, never thought of it like that. That is so true with me( in the past).
 
Jnowhere said:
I never thought about the stuff that I did years ago. Impulse control or lack there of, never thought of it like that. That is so true with me( in the past).
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I don't necessarily feel super guilty or remorseful about things, mainly I feel like a dumbass about certain things I've done in the past, and it lowers my opinion of myself. I've been working on that a lot though
 
deficiT said:
I don't necessarily feel super guilty or remorseful about things, mainly I feel like a dumbass about certain things I've done in the past, and it lowers my opinion of myself. I've been working on that a lot though
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Well that's great.( the working on your self esteem).

Luckily I was such a drunk, that I can't remember most of the embarrassing incidents and only certain things really stand out.
 
sleep paralysis sucks so fucking hard. It does not last long, but it is easily the most insufferable moment of my day if I get one.

I don't see creatures except if I am basically still dreaming with closed eyes but I am definitive I NEED TO MOVE BECAUSE THERE IS SOMETHING and I fucking can't until I snap out of it-sometimes back to the dream and it repeats few times. Often I just look at my roof or sheets and my brain modifies the sight a bit, sometimes leading to closed eye dream where I hang in my bedroom. Once I had this sensation that I couldn't move my neck for the life of me, having only sight to the roof of the bedroom, and rationalized "well, it is just caffeine withdrawals, Imma just gonna go to the kitchen to brew coffee" and then it becomes regular dream where my deceased friend comes in and I am like "oh, hey, glad to see ya.......fuck, I am dreaming"

Fuck mirtazapine.
 
what does it talk to you about?
MedicinalUser247 said:
I have know idea what it is, but it paralyzes me and gives me information. I decisibe it as a stereotypical "Grey" E.T. and it freaks me the hell out ! My Doctor say's it's all sleep paralysis. If I where to report it to the Fed's they'd say I'm crazy. What do I do ?
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MedicinalUser247 said:
I'm highly upset and crying right now. :cry:
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Get it, sleep paralysis shocked me and my GF [drug induced], ok no expert in the field so no idea how deep they can go.
The emotion :cry: that it produced any clue why?

Mine never went near that deep, receiving PM s from a consious being.
Mine were just like nightmares about to happen, and i tried to scream for help [you cant, its like: help wake me up ]
Total fear, and that seems a general shared symptom. Was it fearful, your episodes?
It freaked you out that s a normal reaction, but after that especially after gettin good advice. Were in fear?

I had giant snakes crawling towards me in a low hangin fog. The thought of being strangled while paralysed.
Though visual eys open or close made no difference to what I saw. Does that corrospond wit your experience.
It reads scary i ll admit, paralysed on it own is. but less frightening then mine, gettin free advise from a ET look alike.

2 questions is it reoccuring and do you by any chance use drugsw, like MDMA or GHB/ GBL?
 
Jnowhere said:
Um, it jumps on him in his bed and is paralyzing him. That don't seem like it wants to help. All the secret stuff, how accurate and how unusual were what it told you.( not asking what it told you)
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Where he wrote that, on page one now but its not mentioned in the first post. Jumping on his bed, which is relevant to mention.

Standing besides or jumping on you is not alike.
 
deficiT said:
Yeah buddy I mean it does sound like sleep paralysis to me, or just very intense dreams. I have gotten insane lucid dreams all of my life, and eventually started to be able to do astral projection and stuff. I go to space whenever I can. It's scary out there though for real. And yeah I've had a lot of strange entity contact things.

Pretty sure we have some threads about it here in this forum, if you would like me to dig them up I can
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The first 30 seconds yeah, after that flowing through the universe super fast . No space suit on and gravitation of planetary object s deciding your directione.

Imo beats flying over the earth in a lucid dream. Just needs a little more time adjusting.
From then on its always been amizingly pleasurable flight.

Lucid dreams and sleep paralysis are no way compareable though. Its more akin to Night Terrors, have read about that? Diff sleep phenomenom, but equally weird to witness.
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My daughter had em, but never rememberd. During my youth i had em too. Maybe some do rember them but my fam dont.
And no Parlysis durin she could scream, walk but when she looked it was as if it was through me, like she was someplace else.
 
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deficiT said:
Make sure to check what sub forum you are in before replying. This is a support website, there are not many areas of the forum where you can just make the assumption that someone is joking.
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Indeed but its concentrated mainly in the Lounge. As long as you stay away from there its pretty ok here.
Its save to assume you get a serieus ment reply, or if not the troll will be exposed publikly, and told.
 
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