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Is anyone else W/D'ing today? Post in here...

no doubt.. it's a love/hate relationship.. when you have OCs it's all good

I am out for a couple of days.. is hard for me.. cuz i am also dealing with a pain issue.. so am in pain and out of relief.. :(

i have read here that valium help.. but don'thave any of those.. so it doesn't matter..

maybe i'll hang out here a little to try to ease w/d.. i hate this shit
 
Going on day 3 here cold turkey and figured since it's 3am and sleeping isn't a possible option (once again), I might as well try getting up on here. First time I've felt like even getting out of bed since these fucking w/d's started. Damn, just sitting in front of this monitor is a goddamn battle.

I recall last time going through this (about two months ago) things were smooth sailing, so I anticipated the same this time around. Well fuck me, was I ever so wrong. These chills are so fucking cold I can't get warm at all. Even after an hour in the burning hot shower the water doesn't seem hot enough and I still got goose bumps. Then come the sweats, combined with goddamn aches in my back and knees, restless leg bullshit, no energy at all, but tons of insomnia! Depression adds a nice touch to the mix too. Part of me just wants to end this seemingly endless insane cycle either by scoring another bag, or eating a bullet from the revolver under my matress.

Wish I had something, anything to ease this madness. I fucked up bad, totally unprepared this time. No benzos, hydros, nyquill, nothing, fuck! Finally found some Tussin gel caps in a drawer from like 1981 and my luck of course, they're non-drowsy ones. Whats the best goddamn thing OTC anyone recommends from the grocery stores medicine isle???

Sorry for the long rant, hope others have an easier time thru their w/d's.
Heroin, you're a fucking skank-ass dirty bitch. But you already knew that, cunt.
 
I fucking relapsed about 2 weeks ago and today was my last dose of morphine, 120 mg of IR morphine, snorted. So I'm gonna go through withdrawals soon.

FUUCCCCKKKK
 
I recently finished some withdrawals in jail that I thought were gonna kill me. Cold turkey from high dose Opana/Xanax is no joke. I thought I had put the gorilla down for a while, but I guess it was on my back all along.

Anwyay, what I wanted to add is this:

My cellmate died - DIED - from oxy/xanax withdrawals the first night we were there.
 
I've been w/d'ing from Heroin since Wednesday... so yes I'm w/d'ing today but right now I'm using coke to help out a bit. I w/d'd last week too but made a bad decision. Heh. Oh well.


We all make mistakes... and we either live with them or we die with them.
 
I certainly FEEL like I'm w/ding. I've been off oxy almost a month because I moved and no longer have the connects. I hadn't been sober one day in almost 3 years. Physical symptoms are gone but mentally I still feel pretty fucking NUTS on a daily basis.
 
I dont even know what day this is anymore. They all kinda blend together after laying in bed watching the same crap on tv each day. All teh commercials are really starting to piss me off, knowing all the words by heart now, it's fucking with my head.

Last IV of H was Tues at 6pm, today is Sat 5pm, so it's almost been 4 days now. Managed to get 4 or 5 hrs sleep last night somehow. Didn't wake up drenched in sweat this morning for the first time which was amazing, but still wake up kicking and restless. I'm forcing myself to get up and move as much as I can without falling down. Feel so fatigued, no energy, weak as fuck, wish this shit would all just go away.

Walrus, I don't know how the blow helps you, but it's not doing a damn thing for me at all. Sure wish I had some ganja about now though.
 
i feel like shit ever since i've gotten off lyrica + anti-depressants like 3 weeks ago. My brain feels like there's something missing, especially in the case of anti-depressants where i've been chronically administering them for the past 4 years now. I don't ever plan on going back on anti-depressants again to be honest, i wouldn't mind seeing how the world feels like without them.
 
Day 6 now and although I'm still lacking energy, most all the physical shit has subsided. It took a good 5 days of physical misery though to get to this point. Now each day is a whole new bitch, being void of the habit. How do we fill the time we're so used to getting high with? It's sooo damn boring and depressing being sober now. I can't stand this conservative society all around me. What's to do next? Oh yea, relapse!!

If anyones actually going through w/d's to attempt staying clean, the real struggle begins here where I'm at now... PAWS. I hear that the post acute shit lasts quite some time. I'm gonna try hard, but knowing my personality (kindofaddictive) it's only a matter of time before I either cave or substitute to another chemical romance of sorts. I'm not good friends with sober or his square pals, never liked the pricks views much. So I think I'll take the advice of a good friend who told me, "If youre gonna do drugs, be wise and moderate your fucking use, or those drugs are gonna end up doing you". No doubt.

Just want to wish everyone my best going through their own bullshit. The w/d's are hard for sure, but keep your head up cause they do always end. Then you can relax and smile, the real struggle begins...
 
blowMEaway said:
If anyones actually going through w/d's to attempt staying clean, the real struggle begins here where I'm at now... PAWS. I hear that the post acute shit lasts quite some time. I'm gonna try hard, but knowing my personality (kindofaddictive) it's only a matter of time before I either cave or substitute to another chemical romance of sorts.
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You're right, it is tough but it's not impossible. You can do a couple things to make it easier. The length of time and severity are going to depend on the length of your habit- how long has it been since your brain has had to make some endorphs? You can help out now that you're starting to feel a little stronger (phys). Try to get out and do some exercise, have sex, keep yourself busy. All those things and more will help you out.

If you're anything like I am, the last thing you want to do is exercise. I'm usually so weak by the point you're at that I get dizzy when I stand up. Even when I could get out and force myself to bike a little (indoors at that point) or take a swim I felt better when I was done. Part of it was just feeling like I had accomplished something, the other part had to do with getting my brain working again.

Good luck, making it through the phys part is NOT easy- it's horrible. For me, I consider it the worst experience- I would rather deal with anything but that part. This next part isn't easy either, but I always felt like I had a little more control over how I felt- if I was getting up and doing stuff, keeping busy and taking care of things- I felt great. If I was sitting on my ass, whining about having no dope- I felt like shit.

Congrats, you're doing good- don't give up on yourself so easily!
 
nyjets112 said:
i feel like shit ever since i've gotten off lyrica + anti-depressants like 3 weeks ago. My brain feels like there's something missing, especially in the case of anti-depressants where i've been chronically administering them for the past 4 years now. I don't ever plan on going back on anti-depressants again to be honest, i wouldn't mind seeing how the world feels like without them.
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The withdrawal from antidepressants lasted for a year. Then again, I was at a higher dose than recommended (probably illegal) for 5 years. My psychiatrist was arrested on fraud and conspiracy charges.

On another note, today was the first day I went 24 hours without taking any opiates. I had to because I got on suboxone today and I didn't want to deal with any of that precipitated withdrawal shit.

It was worse than I thought. I felt delirious and was shaking and sweat was pouring off me. I could literally smell the withdrawal. It was disgusting. All I could think about the whole time was how much better I would feel if I took a little pill. Suboxone is a wonder drug it took away my withdrawal in 45 mins.

At least now I understand why people steal to get opiates.
 
Thx Hfrs, words of encouragement always help out too. Yea at this point it's like an out of body experience at times. Must be some crazy shit going on inside my body each day. At least the constipations finally gone! Man I wake up and have these ambitous ideas and energy and then pooof, I'm all worn out before anything even gets done. It just comes and goes like that, weird.
 
Day 7 wd off pods... day 5 was the worse, but i still feel like shite. Been loaded up on valium the whole week, sleeping, not eating. I'm not sweating anymore thank god, but I feel the familiar creep of depression I havnt felt in a couple of years. Man this sucks. And I have no one to blame but myself.
I CHOSE to keep going and increase my use and now I'm paying the price.

Also, Im getting a few brain zaps which I got when coming off anti-depressants.
Awesome.
 
damn, all this anti-depressant talk is making me cringe since my psyc. wants to put me on those so bad for insomnia and anxiety.

i am on day 6 of heroin WD. i hate the RLS and insomnia from it. i literally feel like jumping out of my skin, i guess that's why they call it kicking. it is starting to get better, but WD always makes me return back to the drug. it seems as if i just can't do it, or don't need to in a way. i just want to get that shot in me, ya know?

if it weren't for the constant restlessness and insomnia, then i could probably be much ebtter off without relapsing. i always use benzos for the first 3-5 days and then when i run out, it's back to the dope. vicious cycle as some of you know.
 
I feel this might belong in the realm of drug culture.
Then again, I've been moving a lot of threads over there lately, so can I get a word from one of you guys (PM), letting me know if these are appropriate or if youz guyzez are calling in a hit on me right now because of these...


8=====D C(:)

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bout 1month clean from a 6year opiate habit,2yrs with 16.8mg of fent daily, still depressed no motivation, but cocaine saved me during wds,just helped me feel good for a few min ya know?
 
johanneschimpo said:
I feel this might belong in the realm of drug culture.
Then again, I've been moving a lot of threads over there lately, so can I get a word from one of you guys (PM), letting me know if these are appropriate or if youz guyzez are calling in a hit on me right now because of these...


8=====D C(:)

(its an aerial view)
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Lol!! hhahahaha.....

We good. Im actually real happy to see this thread in here becuz word is bond yesterday I was about to start it thinkin it would be a good thread to have.

Anyways, I m jus me today....I been switchin my use into a weird pattern but its kinda workin out better.....What i did was after I got clean for 2 weeks (Yeaaaa go lacey!!! *roll eyes* ) (the longest time i been clean for ....idk how long lol) I started back up with dope again. switched from oxys to dope . tired of the money bullshit n all that. anyways i got on that shit, n i was doin some 3-5 day a week use shit, maybe 6 days on a good week....anyways i just been saying fuckit and not putting no limits on my use. instead of worryin about the shit i just use when its there, switchin it up between dope n oxys n etc when it aint.

so i was doin shit like that for a while, and it started out l ike 5 on 2 off. then 4 on 3 off....then 3 on 4 off....etc...not conciously trying to get it that way but it jus naturally did, thru me not havin money, or ppl not bein around. now i still m on what alot of opiate virgins would consider heavy use, bein a couple days a week but to me its pure freedom not bein hooked on shit whiel still using. ill go back and forth, i aint foolin myself, i know that ill be in w/ds again in this life time, prolly soon, but it feels nice jus for now to have that one part of my life slightly under control. im still a feen tho.
 
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