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Is anyone else W/D'ing today? Post in here...

ya my withdrawl is kicking in right now.

I should be getting poppy pods tommorow so hopefully so shouldnt be too bad. i jus hate not being able to sleep and feeling so weak. right now i dont have the energy to do much just lie down. but it has to be done, even little breaks is good to do.

my mom has some dental issues i think she should have some oxycodone. shes gotten it before for something.
 
shit i have some 5htp left over. hopefully its good for sleeping, if i take 100mg i usually get pretty drowsy.

i also have some afghan indica weed, but that proly wont help the withdrawls.
 
~*geNeRaTiOn E*~ said:
*raises hand*

i did give in a take a dose though. hopefully i can remember to take ambien before i go to bed tonight, otherwise i'll be up all night in pain again.
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ya goodluck getting to sleep, i cant stand opiate insomnia
 
I couldn't help, but chuckle as I read this post. Thankfully, I can say, that I'm not in opioid withdrawal. I found myself wishing I was still getting high on OC today, then I remembered vividly how bad withdrawal felt. I didn't feel any physical symptoms, but in my mind, it was as real as real can get. I woke up, and decided not to take my regular dose of Suboxone right away, but to wait a little bit. I had a watery mouth, a little bit of fatigue, and a small amount of just feeling icky. I must say, I'm very happy not to be in that cycle of waking up halfway through the night in withdrawal... every single f-ing night. It was vicious, and it almost caused me to take my own life. Insomnia resulting from opioid withdrawal is vicious, especially with the anxiety that makes you want to rip the skin off yourself just to clutch your heart and stop it from beating so fast.
 
YAY im in day 4 of withdrawal and I feel Great, well not great but decent, thank god for imodium AD, coming from 300+mgs/day of OC for years and a freaking anti-shit pill can save me from the deep depths of hell. Get your Loperamide on yall!
 
fuzzywuzzy123 said:
YAY im in day 4 of withdrawal and I feel Great, well not great but decent, thank god for imodium AD, coming from 300+mgs/day of OC for years and a freaking anti-shit pill can save me from the deep depths of hell. Get your Loperamide on yall!
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man OC withdraws last soo long
 
Yes... as I knew would happen, I've got a light physical addiction to kratom again. That's why I'm awake & posting despite 25mg seroquel, the degree of restlessness/agitation from kratom withdrawal is as bad as with opiates (one of the few symptoms that are as bad/worse, fatigue being the other) and I'm way too agitated to sleep. Despite *antipsychotics*, arrgh.

Well, enough kratom to let me sleep but not enough to stimulate me enough to stay awake... that may be tricky, but here goes nothing.

I sure do hate crap that hits opiate receptors, including real opiates. I despise the whole lot for its physical withdrawals, which I find ugly even in its mildest incarnations.
 
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I'm 24, still living with my parents, and on this run (my 4th or 5th with heroin) I've been using IV for 6 months or so daily (might miss a day once in a while, which hurts, but never more than one). I knew I couldn't keep up the lies and whatnot anymore, so I came clean to my parents. They weren't happy, but it's nice to know I can complete withdrawal this time without friends or dealers calling me up looking for a ride and willing to give me free dope.

I've been using about 6 bags to a bundle a day of very good heroin, and am currently at the 48 hour point. My parents want me to go through as much pain as possible this time, so no immodium for the discomfort, no dipenhydramine for sleep. I did squeak in 4 hours or so of sleep last night before waking up wrapped in sheets SOAKED in cold sweat. It seems I've gone through this so many times now that I can actually function better than most people would expect. At times, I don't even feel many symptoms, and I've been trying to eat lots of fruit and keep myself hydrated, and surprisingly I haven't had to shit more than once yet today.

To tell you the truth, if I could, I would use right this second to end this misery, but I don't have a job, my parents own my car, which is currently off limits, and no one is going to deliver free heroin to my house, so I'm pretty much shit outta luck. I'm thinking I might have a few drinks before bed tonight. I know my stomach will be hurting tomorrow morning if I do, but I think if I can get one good night's rest I should be able to make it through to Monday, which is when I expect to start feeling better (the withdrawal started around midnight Thursday, about 12 hours after shooting 2 bags).

Anyway, wish me luck, and I'll still be around Bluelight, trying to share any knowledge I can.

~CTdopeLove
 
CTDL, i feel SO bad for you, i'm in the same situation as you, i'm 22 live home, parents own 1/2 my car (we split the cost) and i'm financially dependent on them especially for my shrink visits and meds.

i was withdrawaling horribly today, lying on my bed squirming and writhing in pain moving my body in all strange positions and then my savior (friend) finally woke up at 10:30 and i got over to his house as quickly as i could, jumped in his window (his family was sleeping) and we made 2 cups of pp tea but not much, only 7g each, we usually dose at 14-16g each, but we didn't want a high just to escape the sickness. tomorrow i'm planning to drink 3.5g of tea. and hopefully i can wean off like that, but from what i hear weaning rarely works. but i can't deal with cold turkey.

loperamide never helps me, even with diarhhea.
gabapentin doesn't help
alprazolam doesn't help
clonazepam doesn't help
chlordiazepoxide doesn't help
ritalin/focalin doesnt help

its bad.. and i'm scared for when my parents really put their foot down and make me stop (yesterday i had to make an agreement with them that i wouldn't use anymore street drugs or else i would be cut off and kicked out of the house with no money, meds or anything, no joke)

i'm trying to get off of junk but its difficult and painful as fuck.

i take / am prescribed:

10mg lexapro a day,
150mg wellbutrin SR,
0-40mg marinol
300-900mg gabapentin
1-8mg klonopin
0-150mg librium

i have:

immodium
zofran and compazine and marinol (all for nausea)
lyrica (pregabalin)
lots and lots of gabapentin (neurontin)
lots of 325mg APAP / 15mg caffeine / 8mg codeine pills but caffeine rapes my stomach :(

and help would be appreciated (any ideas how to make my W/D bearable so i can actually quit)

also have hydroxyzine pamoate, xanax, flexeril (not much, 5mg).

would taking Focalin help? it works on dopamine but i'm thinking it would just make everything worse..

thank god i'm on M right now. i love ppt, M and thebaine are amazing.

but good luck CTDL, i feel where your coming from and i hope you get thru it.
 
Day 3 now, and surprisingly I'm starting to feel better. I actually got some sleep last night, about 6 hours straight thanks to a healthy helping of rum (actually I woke up once in the middle for some water, and fell right back asleep). When I woke up early this morning, I was surprised to find I wasn't too restless, and I didn't feel cold as long as I was wrapped up in my blankets, so I laid there for another 2 hours, just trying to stay comfortable before I finally decided to get up because I definately was not going to fall back asleep.

I guess because this run with heroin has been shorter than my other runs, I'm not having as hard a time: the worst is the fact that I let my parents down again, although if I hadn't told them that I was using again there was no way I was going to get clean.

Anyway, they're forcing me to go back to AA meetings, which I think are a complete crock of shit, since I don't believe 80% of what they talk about there, but oh well, thems the breaks. I'm still craving badly, but since I have no funds and no car, there's no way I'm going to get any dope, so I've resigned myself to being clean for at least a month.

Good luck to anyone else going through withdrawal, just remember it will get better.

~CTdopeLove
 
MDPVagrant said:
Well, enough kratom to let me sleep but not enough to stimulate me enough to stay awake... that may be tricky, but here goes nothing.
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I thought its the other way around, lower doses are stimulating and higher doses sedating?
 
^^^^I feel for you.

Being independent at 20 is tougher, but my financials prevent me from being anything other than a temporary addict. When I lived my parents I spent ALOT of money on VERY good coke. If I do that now I lose my home, my gf, and have nowhere but the street.
 
Coming off a 1g a day IV heroin habit......

ugly is the only word I can think of....

It's day two and I managed to stop puking long enough to type this. Extremely dehydrated, can't hold anything down. My legs ache and are spasming violently. Extreme dysphoria and anxiety. Mild hand tremors and suicidal thoughts.....god I hate this.
 
withdrawl is just the first part of the journey to getting clean, well if thats where your headed.

i find this mantra helps in the long run, "What do i need to do to not use drugs today???!!!". everytime u crave those opiates think of this and consider it. then you can think of the triggers that make you use and avoid them!!! take that question seriously and you can use it to change you behavoir
 
I always wake up with W/Ds, I try and space out my last dose of the day and first dose of the day in order to maximize the effectiveness of analgesia and do my best to prevent dependence (which I've failed to do) and tolerance (which I have semi-succeeded in doing, I only require a dose that is 30% larger for the same effect as I did 4 months ago).
 
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