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hi,im astroboy007,i started using pot very heavily from age 13,i attemped suicide at 18 and then got into shooting speed.then i got addicted to heroin,my best mate od'd and died in my arms when i was 22,i tried to commit suicide again at 24 and was very close to being successfull,i surrer from major depression and have thought about it litreally 1000's of times,i have od'd 6 times in the last 9 months so any help or advice from u guys would b welcomed with open arms,but at the same time if anyone out there is having bad thoughts or considering an attempt,plz contact me as im sure i can help.there r 4 stages.the first one is just a passing thought "maybee i should end my life" the second stage is when u really start to consider it,the third stage is when u actually start to plan how and when u r going to do it,the 4th stage is an attempt,weather successfull or not.if anyone is in this situation plz contact me as i can help u.as another poster said,u r dead 4 a long time so u have to make the most out of life,as life is to short to waste.this coming from me when last week i almost threw myself under a freight train,and remember no matter how depressed and how bad u feel IT DOESNT LAST FOREVER and u will b happy again.:)
 
Sup ya'll. I'll make this brief. My name is Kevin. I'm 19 years old. I reside in NOVA (Northern Virginia) I'm trying to get help remaining sober, we'll see how it goes. Heroin and oxycodone are my weakness. Addiction and cravings are a bitch.
 
Hey, I'm Cassie.

I smoked weed from age 14, and used ecstacy for the first time when I was 19. I became heavily addicted to it within a few months. One night when driving home I got pulled over for a broken tail light on my car, and the cop smelled weed and so I got searched and arrested for possession of marijuana. Ever since then I knew I had to quit. I was put on probation, which was a big help since I am really afraid of going to jail. I have not smoked weed since February 19th, and I have only used ecstacy twice since then.
 
^ Hallo Cassie and welcome :) .

Well done on getting the drug use/abuse under control.



How do you feel about that by the way, is it a good thing or do you feel 'forced' to comply and wish you were able to take more ?

I ask out of interest as to hoqw effective such things as court orders are, I know it's subjective but still it interests me.:)
 
I've been here a while but I don't post that much in TDS so I'll introduce myself.

My name is Jen, I'm 18, I still live at home with my mom. I suffer from manic depression so obviously I'm like an emotional rollercoaster. I'm doing fine lately, everything is going perfect for me right now, so something should go wrong soon. =P

I have an amazing boyfriend who's been there with me through thick and thin, I love him more than anything. I'm so lucky to have found someone as special as he is.

I'm usually the one my friends come to for help, I'm a really good listener and my advice isn't half bad. If anyone ever needs someone to chat with, I've most likely felt the way you have in one way or another, so I'm here and I'll listen to you.
 
zophen said:
How do you feel about that by the way, is it a good thing or do you feel 'forced' to comply and wish you were able to take more ?

I ask out of interest as to hoqw effective such things as court orders are, I know it's subjective but still it interests me.:)
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I go back and forth.
Overall I'm happy I don't do drugs anymore, but I really really miss the lifestyle and the illusion of great happiness that it brought me.

I kinda wish I could go back to being a "recreational user" but I am unsure if I would slip into old habits. I get extremely jealous of my friends who use once every month or two.

I'll see what happens when I'm off probation...
 
psillocybin said:
I go back and forth.
Overall I'm happy I don't do drugs anymore, but I really really miss the lifestyle and the illusion of great happiness that it brought me.

I kinda wish I could go back to being a "recreational user" but I am unsure if I would slip into old habits. I get extremely jealous of my friends who use once every month or two.

I'll see what happens when I'm off probation...
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^I felt this way the first year I was off of drugs- I thought I might do something occasionally-i tried it- and the crazy in me came out- I knew I had to stop for good then or there would be no turning back.....maybe not NO turning back,but i felt like I had already put in all this hard work to get to that point ....Some people are cut out for being "recreational users" some are not- I am not:) But I totally understand what you are saying!! :)
 
Well, I'm a poly-drug addict, along with a psychological addiction to the needle.

I started shooting up at 13, and since then have used every drug I could get my hands on, with my two poisons of choice currently being heroin, or any other strong opiate, and meth.

I've been to prison twice, well juvie once and prison once, and have served 5 years in all.

I have a son and a fiance but well, due to my fuckups I've had to send them overseas, to New Zealand, while I sorted things out and now I'm busy finding a place for us to live before they get back on the 15th. It's crushing me being away from them.

That's about as much as I want to say really.

Peace and love.
 
intravenous said:
Well, I'm a poly-drug addict, along with a psychological addiction to the needle.

I started shooting up at 13, and since then have used every drug I could get my hands on, with my two poisons of choice currently being heroin, or any other strong opiate, and meth.

I've been to prison twice, well juvie once and prison once, and have served 5 years in all.

I have a son and a fiance but well, due to my fuckups I've had to send them overseas, to New Zealand, while I sorted things out and now I'm busy finding a place for us to live before they get back on the 15th. It's crushing me being away from them.

That's about as much as I want to say really.

Peace and love.
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Good luck with everything. I really hope you can pull together for all three of your sakes
 
ocean said:
^I felt this way the first year I was off of drugs- I thought I might do something occasionally-i tried it- and the crazy in me came out- I knew I had to stop for good then or there would be no turning back.....maybe not NO turning back,but i felt like I had already put in all this hard work to get to that point ....Some people are cut out for being "recreational users" some are not- I am not:) But I totally understand what you are saying!! :)
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I guess I'm just waiting for that one incident... I know it's coming... one last experience that is going to show me once and for all that I can't have "fun" with drugs.

I thought I had a couple... really bad rolls, bad trips... but after a few days I just think, oh it's not that bad, I'll try again.

ehh...
 
hi, i would like to introduce myself. there are so many things i need to say and i hope that maybe here i can find and talk to someone. i have a lot of respect for the people here, in TDS, and understand that my predicament is by far not the worst, but still i just need someone to listen. i don't really have any true friends and all the therapists i've been to have been just too fucking...generic? i smoke weed whenever i can and have dabbled in stimulants, but i really can't say i am a "druggie" although many ignorant people think i am. can anyone...say anything?

p.s. this account is new, although i am not altogether new to BL.
 
Hallo , do you not want to reveal your previous username or you just lost your e-mail account and had to register ? Don't answer up to you really. Anyway all that crap ( I DUNNO WHY i EVEN TYPED IT ) aside , welcome to TDS. :)
 
hey zophen, yeah i actually forgot the email or w/e to my last account, i don't really mind since i didn't really post anything, but still..

maybe the account still exists, forever alone in cyberspace..
 
^ Actually I do know why i typed it. I lost an account ( e-mail) and had toi register on brokelight as about 3 different people. My memory is poor and my attitude sloppy. :\

It pissed me off tho!
 
I've lurked on bluelight for about 3 years. I've finally decided to be more active now that I'm getting off opiates. I got a name before just to make a few comments here and there. Now I want to become a member of the community. I feel very isolated since I'm the only opiate addict I know. Most of my friends just smoke pot and drink.

Bluelight is a very cool community full of cool people. People have massive experience with the good and bad about drugs. I want to be an active member and contribute.

However, I am in desperate need of support from people who have been through opiate withdrawal and suboxone treatment.

I've been through a lot of difficult things myself aside from drugs. I'm willing to help others as much as I can.
 
Hallo chicpoena,welcome :) I read your thread on opiate withdrawal. You can expect to get support in TDS for your situation and I'm look forward to seeing you progress to the place you want be..sobriety.
 
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