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sushii said:
I missed this! Of course we remember you. Nice to have you back. :)
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Thanks! Im glad u remember me, lol. I remember you too! its nice to be back in the community!
 
I'm doing well folks. Still a little etarded..I'll survive. got some bnzo

Cant really type.

Thank y po u ALL you''re all wonderful peopl and I hope yoi can find it in yourself to forgive me.
dammm<3
 
Re-hallo.

I deleted my earlier posts in the thread because I feel I don't reflect my former self.

I'm ZAP, as commonly referred to here. I ramble alot here (although I don't stand a chance against some 8o) and I am a TDS addict. The sad fact is, the cure for TDS addiction is NA, commonly found inside TDS, so I am a hopeless case. You are stuck with me. :|

I have a vast array of characters. My former self was pathetic and I do not wish to acquaint myself with him again :D I am currently recovering from years of misdiagnosis, and on new meds which have made me feel stable for the first time I can remember. I still battle my demons, they are far from dead to me. But for the time being, I am overcoming them. They include, but aren't limited to, depression, severe anxiety, self harm, hypochondriasm, ocd, anger issues, isolated psychotic episodes induced by psychedelic binges, eating disorders, low self esteem, adhd...shit I could go on awhile, lol. That stuff is in the past. I'm trying to move on from the trainwreck that was my life. But I'm willing to help out anybody who is in need of it. I am patient and very open minded. I have a heart...gets me in trouble occasionally...but I still enjoy helping people out.

I am transgendered and have been living as male for about a year and a half. I reside in Ohio, although that is subject to change.

I work at Burger King and I am a fucking nutcase for loving it. But I want to be a chef someday and working in the kitchen there is a start.

I still have alot of demons but with my depression under control it's gotten easier. When it's not under control, look out.

Drugs -- uhhhhhhhhhhh. I do alot of those. Why do you think I joined Bluelight, lol. I try to steer clear of addictions, at least try to avoid becoming physically dependant. Psychedelics are my weakness, those, stimulants, alcohol, and weed...scratch that...really anything but opiates is my weakness, because the nausea of opiates override the high.

<3
 
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it's all greek to me

hello. this is the first time i've ever been involved with ANY web site, chat room, journals(i just stared one) etc. i wouldn't know a "thread" from a piece of rope. but, i'll get the hang of it. the one thing i do know is PAIN. i have cronic arthritis, the beginnings of A.S., bursitis/torn cuffs in my shoulders, hammer toe/bunion (both feet), bone-on-bone left knee and my hands are a mess. i've been trying to treat the pain (love that moxi-oxy) and the the cause. i'll be starting surgeries (4 at the moment)in a couple weeks. blue light and all the talk and help is going to be a big part of my recovery. if i screw up with a post, or entre, or e-mail, i'll get it right next time.
thanks, medriot
 
Welcome, and don't be worrying about fucking up a post.

Mine usually suck, usually, mostly all the usual time!
 
welcome medriot, sorry to hear about your situation, i hope things work out with your surgeries.

i sure like opiates on, ummm frequent occasion, but id hate to have to take them for the rest of my life.

dont worry about screwing up any posts, technical errors are few and far between but, shall we say non-technical errors, are whats trouble.
;)
 
Hey Hey

I'm sonnyluv, you can call me Sonny.
I guess I'm old, 31, married and have a baby boy who is 9 months old.

I work in the medical field, I guess in some pretty intense situations and I'm finding that I have a drug problem.
I have so much responsibility in my life- I can't fucking stand it anymore.
In June I'll get my license, a lot of pressure will be off my back, I'll be able to enjoy my career more, but right now I'm just trying to maintain for the next six weeks, without my usage gettting totally out of control. Other than the occassional hang over, my usage hasn't effected my career.

But its definitely pissing my wife off, as is understandable.

Not to get too personal, but my uprbringing was fucked up and really chaotic. Hard to shake.

Other Drugs foum has referred me here. Here I am. But already, checking out other peoples situations is really helpfull.
 
^welcome sonny - glad we can b of help to u
lets hope that wiv sum gd old TDS loving, we can help u regain control of ur situation ;)
 
Well I already introduced myself in the bluelight main intro thread, but I'll introduce myself here, as I've already been posting replies here. I'm sooo glad I've found this place. This is really the kind of thing I've been searching for all those sleepless nights on the net but didn't know it. Especially here in the dark side. I have so many demons of my own, and I have always been drawn toward similar people. I love you all. -Those are words I never say, I'm always filled with so much fucking rage, and fire, and anxiety, and fear, and loathing and I don't fucking know... but the shit I read here means something to me. I feel you people.
 
Hello all

Hello, all. My name is Mandy, new to Bluelight and I'm still trying to figure everything out. I'm a former heroin user, been clean of it for about 4 yrs now. My girlfriend and I are on MMT and we found this site and were interested in it. Lots of useful info and stories. So far people have been very helpful.;)
 
Hey, I'm rorita. :3 I live in Tucson, Arizona. I'm a bit new to using substances, but have had some experience nonetheless. So far I've tried: oxy, vicodin, ecstasy, coke, bt heroin {I didn't like it that much}, dxm, and weed. I want to experiment with psychedelics.

I'm interested in: biology, journaling, baking, reading anything I can get my hands on, and good conversation.

I'd really love to meet people from around my area for new experiences. :D

edit: forgot a bit
 
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welcome rorita
well if ur gonna do drugs, i guess psychedelics r the best ones to pick if ur sound of mind
hope u enjoy the forum, and BL altogether :)
 
hey out there I,m new to this so beer with me
ithink this is where i say hi for the 1st time ?
 
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