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Hi, im Jamie.

I've been lurking in the shadows on this site since 2003 (or something like that) but haven't posted until today. Really need this place at the moment. I'm having a spot of bother!
 
Hi, I'm Ethnobot, I trained in ethnobotany and wrote a degree thesis on the ecology of psychedelic plants, I'm out of the field now employment-wise due to lack of job opportunities but it's still a big interest of mine. I've had addiction episodes of varying severity to several kinds of recreational drugs.

I probably should have posted here before now, I've been hanging around TDS for a while now, since I decided my residual habits were a mugs game and determined to kick 'em as soon as poss. Hopefully I'll get helpful suggestions and/or support here while I finish the job up :) Some back surgery has meant that quitting opioids might be out of the question for at least another month due to the possibility that I might need 'em for post-op pain. Mobility issues caused by the same operation will also mean that I can't get the support I need in order to quit smoking. To be realistic therefore I'm agreeing to doctor-prescribed opies and continuing to smoke until my back is settled down, then quitting.

The only drug I don't wanna be clean of is caffeine! I know it sounds daft but I find the way I use caffeine relatively harmless and I love the taste of coffee! Honestly, if in a couple of months I could genuinely say that the only psychoactive drug in my system was caffeine, I'd be chuffed to bits :D I don't wanna get decaf either since it's expensive and the processes do affect the flavour while not removing all the stimulants (theophylline and theobromine are left behind by all current decaffeinating methods) and I just don't think it's worth it 8)

Peace, Ethnobot
 
Hey, my name is James I am 18 years old living in south central pistolvania ;) I'm a heroin/oxycodone addict. I was brought to this site while seeking various information on all kinds of drugs. I appreciate how everyone here is treated with love and respect, like an on-line family :-P This place is very beneficial to its members and I'm looking forward to being here for a long time.
 
My names Charlie :D

Im a drug addict and an alcoholic. Ive used anything ive seen in front of me for as long as I can remember. I used to be really into heroin for many years and I still dabble here and there but Im mostly just a drunk now who trips sometimes. I smoke pot everyday and hold my girl as close as I can when the times feel good. Im all about love but I have a weight on my shoulders , someday it might get lifted but I doubt it. I just try to make it through everyday , a moment at a time.

And I take breaks if I need to :)
 
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Hi,

I'm not exactly sure how the reception will be on this forum for me. I used to be a member of Bluelight in '04-05 when I was a recreational drug user. I have not touched drugs since 2005. I am a Christian and because of my past which revolved around drugs and clubs, I feel that is where I am able to help others. My life hit a low point in '05 when I had a breakdown and was forced to leave my job. My recreational drug use played a big part in my life hurtling off the rails and into a brick wall. I had mental health issues as a result of LSD use and suffered from panic attacks for several years which was pretty debilitating. I really just want to offer a supportive word in love to others who are suffering as badly as I have over the last four years. I did reach the point of considering taking my own life in '06 but am through the darkness now and live my life without drugs or medication.
I would like to pray for people that are going through serious hardship out of compassion and I'd like to reassure people that God loves them if I am able to express those views here.
 
hey im monchi.

i was born raised, and continue to reside in vancouver bc. love the mountains, fresh air, ocean, city... i have come to tds over the years and thought it was about time i made myself useful and introduce myself.

from about highschool, through to post university i have used and abused pot, alcohol, mdma, cocaine, ghb. right now its mainly alcohol that is my problem. while i do not use everyday, i am what some people refer to as a binge addict. i never know when to stop, and for me this is true for all previously mentioned drugs with the exception of pot.

when im not using i am a funloving and loyal friend. love yoga, nature, the arts, cooking, laughing, and curling up with a good book. while i do not really have much of a science background when it comes to drugs, i have had a variety of experiences and i hope somewhere down the line, i can be of some help to someone.
 
Hi. I am coming off of a bad couple of years. My drinking has escalated to the point of ridiculousness. I just moved to a ass backward southern town and I don't really know anyone here. I was staying with my mom for awhile but that was a bad, bad situation as she has a drinking problem too. I did get a really good job here and at least that is going good. I moved into town into a cool area (at least for this town) and have been trying to take walks at night and put of the drinking as long as I can. But I have to come home at some point. I am terrified of withdrawals. I have been reading the postings about Ibogaine but cannot afford the treatment. In general, I am a likeable person. I read, watch movies, (not much tv) and I like to laugh. I am just trying to get my life back together.
 
Welcome to TDS, ttownlcb2 :) I urge you to have a look around, especially at our alcoholism thread, as there is a lot of useful information here. And unlike some other areas on BL, everyone in this forum behaves and is kind to ya, so it's a nice little sanctuary. I hope you enjoy it here!
 
hello from Michelle

Well my name is Michelle and I was addicted to heroin for almost three years. I am now clean of it and have been since aug of 2008. I am glad to have had this forum to help deal with the pain of cravings and whatnot. I dunno what else to say but the dark side of addiction is losing everything u own and becoming homeless and jobless and without a car.

I hope I can stay clean of it forever. It was a dark and terrible journey to get to where I am now. If you haven't done heroin please think twice ok? I didn't think I would get that hardcore addicted to it but i did...

I was injecting about a gram of that shit a day at the worst of it.
 
Welcome to BL and TDS, Michelle :) We've got plenty of threads in this forum about opiates and heroin that you might want to browse through. Actually a lot of people here are in similar shoes are you are, so you can both feel not-alone in that way, and be able to offer encouragement for those who are still in their dark days. Check out the social threads too....good bunch here, definitely!
 
I am Kris, I am here searching for answers I already know. Been addicted to Pain pills for close to 4 years, started with Hydros and now Oxycodone and Morphine. Recently started IV'ing, Im ashamed of myself but now I cant do any type of pill like I used to(UpTheNose). I am scared of the detox process but I know It is inevitable. I have a great girlfriend that supports all that I do btu at the same time I feel she enables me, I Have a great 2 year old daughter that is my life, but that is a lie because Drugs are my life.Just gonna be looking around posts and looking for people who share my disease.
 
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Welcome aboard, KrisTheGreat! Ya, it sounds like you do need to find a way to get off of the needle. You've got a great woman and a great daughter who need you. I know it's really hard, but the end result should be that the love you receive from them can and will prove to be even stronger than any injected euphoria. You just need to go through the transformation which will allow you to see and understand this. We've got plenty of threads about opiate addiction, so do have a good look around. Stay strong man...TDS is here for you :)
 
Thank you Read Leader. I just cannot imagine going the AA route, God and all. I am interested in the Ibogaine threads I have read, but alas, lack the funding. Thanks for pointing me in a good direction. Nice not to feel so all alone.
 
Whatsup guys,

My name is kevin, I am in my mid 20's living in Boston, I am a heroin addict, I have 47 days clean today. I have been creeping around this site now for about a year or two and thought I would start commenting and what not. I started off using oxycontin recreationally my sophomore year in college and by the time I graduated I was shooting 4-5 OC 80s a day. After I college I was introduced to heroin and started injecting that. I have been shooting heroin now for almost 2 years and this is the longest I have been clean off of any opiate in 4-5 years.

I am currently taking Vivitrol, a monthly shot of naltrexone, and this stuff is a godsend. I tried getting high on it and I did not feel a thing, so it is pretty much an insurance plan where I know that I can not get high no matter how bad I want to. I still smoke weed about 5 times a week and get drunk one weekend night, its all about living a balanced life.

Sooo thats about it for now.

Stay strong, think positive, dont give in, dont give up.
 
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Hey Everyone;; My name is Leah & IM 22 yrs old. I have been addicted to percocets 30 mg for a year and half now. I have been to an outpatient center and I found that as no help at all. My withdrawals are really bad. and that is actually what I am going through right now. I dont have any money right now nor anything at all because my dealer is dry. I need to learn how to beat my mind and get over this addiction because it is killing my life. :( I starting doing these back with my ex gf and now i got my fiance addicted to them. It is so hard to be around him because just looking at him makes me want to use. & also my live in situation (i live with my mom & sister) doesnt help. especially that i dont get along with her. I have alot of stress on my plate and I just kept doing the percocets and making myself numb. But ive hard it. I need to get over this quickly before my nose falls off or i get into something deeper.
 
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Welcome to BL LeahLove-
I hope things work out for you and your addiction becomes a thing of the past.
Maybe have a heart to heart with your fiance and try to get through it together??
Best of Luck and Look forward to seeing you around TDS :)
 
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