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Welcome & Thanks for the intro. Be very weary of Ocean. She likes to pin people and give them wet willies or tickle them til they wet themselves ;)
 
^watch out for both of them.....they're both wackos as u can see ;)
now me on the other case....well u can tell how totally sane i am by the fact i type in annoying shorthand yet make crazily long posts....hmmmm

nah were all a gd bunch dopamine cowboy - sounds like ur making some wise moves and glad u came back to introduce urself :)
 
Sorry for the delayed introduction

I am a bit of a closet case (no I am not gay, but I am liberal) when it comes to drugs and the pain life brings us, but the truth is, I have seen way too much to pretend that I am naive about what goes on in and around me. Also, not sure if you are listening, but I want to apologies publicly to leftwing. This mod is cool and I was being a dick when I first joined BL. So, there you go.

So here is my delayed introduction (because I don't really have any other outlets or at least any that I use):

I am not going to lie to you. I grew up in an abusive, drug inflicted, Manic-Depressed, Schizophrenic house hold. I have been/am severely addicted to/abused cocaine (my worst), alcohol, marijuana, morphine, nicotine, mdma, the list goes on and on. My best friend died about a year ago from an overdose on opiates. My father is a complete fucking jack-tard pedophile. I sometimes fantasize about killing him, but I won't actually do that (unless he physically threatens my life again, then I will).

BUT!!!! I somehow have managed to live 30 years, have a steady professional career, a respectable degree, a loving mother and two wonderful siblings, and a somewhat responsible head on my fucking shoulders. I am currently on day 4 of taking ABSOLUTELY no drugs. I will smoke some pot tomorrow I am sure of it, but HOLY FUCKING SHIT. Man. HELLO BLUELIGHTERS!
 
welcome WG :)
a lot of us here hav had it hard growing up - often thats why we turn to drugs, even if its subconscious u know....

gd on ya for taking a break wen u felt u needed one :)

and on leftwing - i dont think hes likely to read this thread tbh but if u PM him hes an awesome guy (as u say) and im sure hell accept ur apology (even as a greenlighter u can PM mods)
 
Ello, new to BL.

I'll be posting on a separate thread about my issues... luckily its not really addiction related just purely mental health related.

My view is a life of abstinence is a life wasted. Never blame the drugs you use, nor should you overly blame yourself... if you do then you'll be more likely to find the need to blame and punish yourself, leading on to making the same mistakes again.

Currently stuck in the Mental health system... such a faulty place to be and once your in its hard to get out... but I do properly need to be in the system atm.

Anyway glade to be part of the forum.
 
Crazyfox Welcome to Bluelight :)
Crazyfox said:
Never blame the drugs you use, nor should you overly blame yourself...
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I agree with not blaming, in that blaming usually ends up giving our personal power over to the things we blame. We do need to do assessments though of what is working and what is holding us back, to increase our quality of life. I know for sure many people have to forgo certain drugs to have a livable life.

Anyways, looking foreword to your participation here.
 
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Also, not sure if you are listening, but I want to apologies publicly to leftwing. This mod is cool and I was being a dick when I first joined BL. So, there you go.
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hey mate, enki let me know you posted this here. thanks for the apology again:) its much appreciated. the air's clean between us, i didnt take anything to heart about that. peace
 
Thank you Mods

I just want to thank the mods here who are so responsive with everything they do. It feels great to know others understand what I am going through and I have a place where I feel welcome.

Oh, and I am now halfway through day 6 with NO drugs. I kind of passed out last night after work and a headache (naturally)....I think my body is trying to tell me to slow down and releasing years of toxins or something.

Anyhow. Thanks again everyone. I look forward to contributing more and reading more on here.
:)
 
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Greetings all! Longtime "lurker", first-time poster .... wanted to introduce myself. Love TDS, has helped me through many dark days in the past. Have been clean & sober a couple of years, but still coming back here 'cause I remember (for the most part) what it was like for me. I realized I was not alone when I was here. Anyway, just wanted to say 'hi!'
 
Hey everyone, I'm relatively new to the community, and figured I'd introduce myself here at TDS as I lurk here a lot and will no doubt have some threads on here in the future. I've dealt with depression since I was small child, and ended up being bi-polar. Really bi-polar, unfortunately, as I am always either loving life more than nobody's business or the other way around. Pretty down right now as I did like a half-G of molly a few days ago, and I don't have the grace of only being depressed the day after the roll.
Anyways, I'm very grateful to have this community at my disposal during the more trying times of my life, as well as the ability to help others here when they're having difficulties.
It's truly a wonderful thing that you guys are doing here, my only wish is that more that could benefit from it were aware of it.
 
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