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Hi Adam, welcome to The Dark Side <3
Thank you for sharing a bit of your story with us. It sounds like although you're not yet willing to give up drugs forever (don't worry, I feel the same way), you're definitely on the right track at the moment. I look forward to seeing more from you in here :)
 
Warm welcomes to all new greenlighters/bluelighters i have trouble with names so i wont go thru you all, some stories have been told, i have been watchin as i do, You have found a place of great support and i hope you find the help or whatever you are looking for here, I certainly have many times.
peace.... Is gr8 to see the community grow :)
 
Hi,
I'm Amberflash and am a 39 year young female addicted to opiates (oxys and percs and vics) for over 2 years. I'm tired of all the money I spent on these drugs, how they have changed to now turn on me, and looking to get clean. I have my first "Induction" at a Suboxone clinic on Monday at 11:00 am and very scared. I need help in terms of being able to function (I've tried to w/d from opiates before only to be met with terrible hot/cold flashes, major depression, can't get out of bed or bathe myself), to hold down a job, and to finally get clean. I only want to be on sub for a short period of time, as so not to get addicted. In addition to this therapy is mandatory Outpatient therapy where you meet 3-4 times/week, 3 hrs at a time. And you have to come on a 4th day to get your sub. The whole process with the meetings is 4 weeks. I hope I can get through all this, and have a doctor that doesn't over prescribe.

I just finished my last dose of percs yesterday afternoon. So today is Saturday I have to get through, and Sunday, and wait till 11:00 Monday before they put a strip of sub underneath my tongue. Any and all advice about subs, length of time being on them, success/no success rates, etc. would be tremendously helpful.

I thank you all in advance for being here. A safe place to talk about this and get good sound advice from folks who are going thru it and been through it.

Peace.
 
welcomin, and goodluck, or good-fight rather with the opioids!


i should suggest you re-post your questions and concerns with sub-maintenance in the Opiate/Opioid help thread here in TDS. im sure you will get plenty of helpful responses in there.


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Hi, I'm Vigs. Always considered myself introverted, even as a kid. Had friends throughout my life, but nothing substantial enough to be considered a "circle." I was always the one calling to find out what was going on; more often than not being left out. It has always been hard for me to just start the most simple of conversations, feeling isolated even within a crowd. I had started smoking pot to deal with my Ulcerative Colitis pain when I went to college and recently felt like it was making me indifferent towards everyday endeavors. So I quit over two months ago, and I still feel the same. It's like an overall lack of desire for anything- no drive, no nothing. Feels like I'm in "Office Space" and would be content to do nothing with my life, even though I know I want more. Guess I'm just feeling aimless and in need of orientation.
 
Many welcomes Vigs :)
read ur thread just b4, know ur not alone theres heaps of peoples out there in the same boat, shit i find it hard to communicate with people myself. But having said that you are in the right place for support. All the best hey will see u around the boards!
 
Hi Amberflash, welcome to The Dark Side <3
I sincerely wish you all the best with getting clean off opiates, you are doing the right thing and I know you have the strength to get through this. I look forward to hearing how you're going in the next few weeks/months :)


Hello and welcome to you too Vigs :)
It's pretty common for people to have some depression lingering after they quit their drug-of-choice. Over time it will gradually get easier, and I hope you feel better soon. Do you do any exercise? Regular exercise can help massively with depression and anxiety, and it can speed up the recovery process after quitting drugs.
 
I've never properly introduced myself.
Well, my names Wolfie, I'm an 18year old male living in Corona, California.
I grew up in a terrible dusty shithole called Las Vegas.
It was their that I developed into a narcissistic monster looking for the next cheap thrill.
In my short years so far, I've been through n seen enough to make some ppl thnk their whole life was nothing.
After a long period of crime, drugs n lies, I was shipped off to Long Beach, California.
It was their that I participated in my 1st psychospiritual LSD trip.
That day was the pivot in my life.
Now I am on the road to personal salvation while helping anyone going up the same road.
Ppl say Im easy to talk to n that I can piece any feeling into words.
I blame that on the eloquence of the voice inside my head :)
Dont forget my name, because if you have fallen n need help back up, call for me n I will pour my heart n my soul into my efforts for you.
Any questions??
Contact me.
 
^ hey bro need not i say but welcome anyway:\
have seen you around TDS and i appreiceate your posts and also the reason that you r here.
U seem like a pretty peacefull spirit given ur past cuirmstances.
see ya round tha boards:)
 
Hey Wolfie, you and I are already acquainted but I still appreciate the official introduction :) <3
 
Please allow me ......

'Ello
I"ve seen this forum before, I like to read about issues related to harm-reduction, addiction, mental health.

And of course, there's so much mis-information and judgement. Eventually, in my quest for knowledge I came across this site some time ago and finally decided to join and hopefully post.

"Im 42, Ive been trying to quit using amphetamines for almost 8yrs but I keep getting deeper in. it's fair to say I've been seriously addicted for almost five years. I haven't had a proper job for over four years. And going "clean" involves some serious mental health backlash from my brain. Depression and BiPolar to be specific.
I never did stimulants until age 32, before that I've been a responsible, fun-loving world-citizen of partyland.

One of the many negative side-effects of my continued speed use is that the amphetamines "pushed" the other drugs out of my life. Such a greedy little bitch that one can be!

that's it, thanks for holding together this forum where an addict can come and not hear the same regurgitated chorus of "I can't believe you dont just quit...that stuff is rat poison...will rot your ______ " and other assorted dogma of the Pharmaco-Chauvinism crowd.
 
Hi my name is Caitlin Id like to keep it short Im depressed and suicidal tried killing myself today 3 times I just dont see the point of life and would love to control how I die Id love new people to talk to since everyone in my life enjoys putting me down!! thanx so much
 
Welcome Caitlin <3
You sound in a terrible way atm, Its a good thing ur here coz thers so many people who can relate to so many different problems, i suffer depression also, have had darker times in the past, if u need someone to talk to immediatly u can PM me, The Suicide help thread is also a good place to go visit on TDS:\
all the best strawberrie, Ur a human so u have meaning, you dont need to kill urself. Anyway will see you about the boards i hope you find the support here u need atm, i know you will this is a pretty caring community, so stay ok and keep posting eh:)
 
Im very new to this I dont know how to pm but would love to I feel like Im all over the place and puttin things on this site where they dont go please help and thanks
 
strawberrie8804 said:
Id love new people to talk to
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Honey, this right here ^^ proves that you're not ready to give up on life just yet. Give yourself a chance to get some support from people on here who have been in the exact same headspace that you're currently in, and who have gotten through it just fine. And you will too <3
People can be really cruel and dismissive to others, and it sounds like a lot of people in your life are like that. But please don't let people like that dictate how YOUR life plays out, or even worse, don't let them be the cause of you ending your own life!! You are stronger than that hun, and you deserve to rise above all of that and be happy, because you are worth it <3

You're here now, and you've come to the right place. There are a lot of people right here who are ready to offer you support and advice for getting through this rough patch, so that you can enjoy the rest of your wonderful life ahead :)

strawberrie8804 said:
Im very new to this I dont know how to pm
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Because you're only a Greenlighter you can only PM staff members (moderators, senior moderators and admins). Once you've reached 50 posts you can PM anyone :)
 
hey guys, i'm new to bluelight. stumbled on it by accident online. im just looking around right now. will share more once i get more comfortable.
 
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