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insomnia and benzo withdrawal.. cant lay down without panic attack

and lyrica doesnt directly act on gaba-a so it is more or less fine. ive had intelligent doctors explain that to me when i showed concern. ive also read of people recovering while on lyrica. lyrica just makes me cns a little less freaked out. definitely doesnt wipe anything out tho.
 
Im with you. It'll get better. I was told that each month gets a little better. I cant watch tv really it makes me scared and if something semi violent comes on i feel like im in a waking nightmare. Im used to the hypsersensitivity to sound so i can listen to music sometimes, but other times its just too intense and i have to be in a quiet room. Its a terrible sickness/ Once you get over it it will merely be another memory of a bad time in your life. peace.
 
duneplanet:

Hang in there buddy, and I'm sorry to hear about your GF dumping you. Fuck girls, they always fuck with your mind anyway. I had a similar problem happen to me with a girl I really liked, and she basically just teased me because she was all over me for a week and then all of a sudden changed. But I found out she is a major Cocaine addict and E addict.

Anyways, I am a recovering benzodiazepine addict as well and I have been off them for about 6 months, except when I ordered Phenazepam and had a fucking 4 day blackout, ended up in the hospital with a fever of 103.3 and a CAT Scan. Thank god everything turned out normal. I've also dabbed in a few Valium here and there. (Bad idea). So I have to pick my feet up again and keep going. But hang in there man, I know how it is with the chills, and panic, and tachycardia. Thats one symptom I can't stand is Tachycardia!

As for Lyrica, keep taking it. It does not bind directly to any of the GABA Receptors. It is actually a GABA analogue. I can't remember exactly how it works. I will find the actual information on how Lyrica works and post back here. Where do you live duneplanet? If you want, PM me bro. I don't know if you have MSN messenger or anything like that, but let me know.

Cheers & Keep your head up! :)
 
hey dune,As ppl allready mentioned i am really shocked at how good u r handling this.You are really inspiring 2 me n im sure alot of other people.Unless i missed the post i c so far u hav not had a relapse yet am i right?.Anyways just wanted to say keep it up man u r 4sure a trooper.One last thing i really think its better for someone who is goin thru w/d's to do it on ur own not when they r in a relationship.Last time i was clean for a couple months earlier this year i was clean from the day i broke up wit my girl to the day we got back together lol.N i didnt brake up wit her cuz i didnt love her nemore i did it cuz i realised i need to do this on my own n i dont want anyone to interfere in any way.Just wanted to throw that out there that when u r over this shit u will find a girl that is 10x better then the last one u had stay up man i hope u feel alot better soon.
 
thanky ou but I just try to say positive things. Inside i am very, very sad. I keep telling myself that this is like lifting weights, and when you put the weights down things are lighter. so when the withdrawal ends i wont be using all my strenght anymore and life will be easier cause i wont need to compensate. I just hope it doesnt take 2 years like last time. And im praying that im not gonn start getting toleratn to lyrica in 6 months and have withdrawal from that while taking it. I think if lyrica doesnt cause this it is a good medication for the withdrawal. I have no sex drive but i wont be needing that for a while anyway. porn can wait.
 
no one should have to go thru benzo withdrawal but it made me stronger last time.
 
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H isnt a good idea man, unless you can really control yourself, but i wouldnt reccomend it, just try and stay as active, stick with lyrica. The less chemicals your taking i think the quicker you will start to feel better mentally in the long run, imo.

good luck
 
duneplanet: I am in kind of in the same boat as you. I went to rehab back in February 2010, and did a 90 day program there, getting off both benzo's and opiates at the same time. I was abusing benzo's for 5.5 years. So it was hell because they did an extremely rapid detox of basically five days worth of Valium & Clonidine, and it took me a few a months to feel 'borderline normal'. I was pretty good for about 4-5 months, then I started using GHB which is a GABA-B Agonist, which was fine and did not affect my benzo recovery. Shortly after that though I started to mess with Oxycodone again, and soon before you know it my tolerance was right back where it was before even after a 6 month break from opiates. I stupidly then ordered phenazepam. I thought I could dose properly since I had mine mixed with a solution in Propylene Glycol (3mg/ml). I don't even remember taking my first dose of phenazepam, but next thing you know I end up in the hospital with a fever of 103.3 and a huge goosebump on my forehead (No Idea how, or anything). My parents and my brother just basically told me I was out of it for 3-4 days, and then still hazy for a few weeks after that. I guess I ended up going through the full 90mg of phenazepam in a period of 3 days. My mother took pictures of me, and when I look at them I almost cry because I have NEVER seen myself so fucking out of it in my life. I should have known after reading the horror stories of phenazepam. So right there, I think I gave my GABA-A receptors a good fucking ass kicking. Since I came out of the haze a week or two afterwards, I have been feeling extreme anxiety and not myself at all.

Now I am trying to get off opiates once again for the third time. Yesterday I went to a doc that a friend recommended and finally got some Diazepam and Clonidine scripted, but I only got 15 5mg Diazepam tablets written, and 10 0.1mg Clonidine. I have already gone through 8 diazepam between 2 days while I have been trying to taper my Oxycodone use with Hydromorphone.
I feel like I need a doctor to taper me off benzo's over a couple weeks instead of some rapid fucking taper. The Addiction Docs here in Canada are not to smart at least where I live, and it is extremely hard to get written benzo's where I live now as well. I wish I had my old family doc from a few years ago as he would understand and help me out.

Now I feel like I am almost starting over again. :\

I have Lyrica, but am running really low until I can get anymore which wouldn't be until October 15th.
 
I wish I never got into drugs, theyve done much more harm than good. I cant see myself ever enjoying anything off an opiate. I just wanna get to the point where I cant ake kratom again
 
hey guys will phenibut slow down my recovery? i took a small amoubnt today and now im worried. i guess if it's gaba-b i should be ok but why does alc slow down the recovery? is it gaba-a? i knlow im in for some rebound at least please help, ty. i dont wanna be set back. i was consiering taking phenibut once a week as a break
 
guys im thinking about upping my lyrica to 600 mg a day and taking phenibut once a week for school. is this a good strategy? could this slow down my recovery in anyway? I still have notieced no improvements and i wanna up my lyrica soon to help with sleep. phenibut almost works too well im worried it will harm my recovery in some way cause i have no idea why it alleviates most of it
 
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