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MedicinalUser247 said:
I'm having Suicidal thoughts.
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i don't know what to tell you to 100% solve your problem, i often struggle with those thoughts myself... something that gets me by is thinking that maybe science will discover something interesting or something will be found from history that's cool and that will be worth staying alive for.. also just the thought that we could find alien life or whatever... it keeps things interesting if having negative thoughts for me.
 
Does anyone with suicidal ideation strongly subscribe to efilist/ antinatalist ideology? My ideation is very wrapped up with my subscription to this ideology.

The only reason I haven’t taken a giant shot of fentanyl in a bathtub of a hotel room is because of my wife, I’m suffering through life for her sake.

But if she were to die first or leave me; there would be no reason to stay here. I would finally have my out. I wish I could change this perspective and have a healthy mind. How do I?
 
LucidSDreamr said:
Does anyone with suicidal ideation strongly subscribe to efilist/ antinatalist ideology? My ideation is very wrapped up with my subscription to this ideology.

The only reason I haven’t taken a giant shot of fentanyl in a bathtub of a hotel room is because of my wife, I’m suffering through life for her sake.

But if she were to die first or leave me; there would be no reason to stay here. I would finally have my out. I wish I could change this perspective and have a healthy mind. How do I?
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Unless the world goes all Children Of Men, there's always going to be kids.

I know you. They need you and so do we. You're one of us. You can't leave us.
 
golego55 said:
Unless the world goes all Children Of Men, there's always going to be kids.

I know you. They need you and so do we. You're one of us. You can't leave us.
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Man like I feel it’s right to adopt children and help them one day (because there are so many suffering and I think it’s immorral to produce my own new ones) but that will just tie me down again like my wife did. That’s why I don’t think I’ll do it.

I guess this always goes back to serving others that they teach in recovery circles. But I am still wrapped up in my own suffering and don’t want to get ppl dependent on me again like my wife, so that I can take my life with a clear conscience.

Maybe if I stay clean long enough and live correctly that will change. But right now, I don’t feel like that.
 
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