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n3ophy7e said:
Over my years on BL this has happened with a fair few people. Much talk of suicide and/or reckless drug use, then they just....disappear. The worst part is never having closure, the unanswered questions. But IF dalpat ended his life, he is at peace <3


I'm so sorry I haven't responded to this until now Nas, I've had real-life shit going on (have you seen my thread in SLR?). I am really sad to hear that you feel bad again. But the key word here is AGAIN, this means that you have felt suicidal before, and it passed, you got through it, which means that you can get yourself through it again. And each time you do, you get stronger and better at it. How are you feeling today?
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Thank you ma friend for support.I am OK right now.The pain passed after two days like usual.....like never been anything.Just....destiny.....must have patience while the poison goes through me and slowly drained off....really happy that i can comunicate with so incredible people from all around the globe....yes there no such place like Blue Light.Love you people!......
Yes man I very often think about Dalpat.Why he didsapered?Is it possible to use the site with another account?Have not impression that he have suicide tendencies.....as i remember even ain't got some big drug problem...may be more alcohol?And it's sad that we ain't got any conection with him&not know is he OK.Some decision to quit BL just like that?I hope that he is OK.
 
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No Plumbus post,that he is from Swiss,but live in Mexico.Dalpat is from South Africa...but i got feeling,that he is not native,but immigrant there......probably from Russia......just premonitions
 
Nas47 said:
What?!?Sorry who is Dale?Dalpat?
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Yes I think bird just meant a pre-emptive RIP to dalpat, since he might have passed away but we may never know for sure.

I am really glad to hear that YOU are feeling better Nas ❤ Try to remember that if/when you have another dark couple of days and have those dark thoughts. Remember that they pass. Remember that you always feel better in a few days. This helps me when I'm not doing well ❤
 
Isavela said:
I tried to end my life three times past year. I'm glad i did not succeed but i can't stop thinking of dying from Time to Time.
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I'm really glad you survived those 3 attempts as well, and that you're still alive. I've tried 6 times altogether in my life and I am so incredibly grateful that I did not succeed in dying.
We are meant to be here @Isavela <3 I hope you're feeling okay today.
 
Hi,
I'm done. I have access to unlimited amount of tramadol, different kind of benzos, and alcohol naturally. I've got pretty high tolerance to all of those. I just want to go to sleep and continue somewhere else.
Do you think that 4000mg tramadol, 300mg diazepam and 1L of vodka is sufficient amount to do go? I don't want to survive in vegetable state or with some severe brain injury.
 
number said:
guess its a wrong forum or something
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No you're in the right place to express these thoughts. That said no one is going to want to advise you on the best way to commit suicide. We are here to support you though. Please reach out to someone, whether here or in your personal life. Support can come from all sorts of unexpected places. You sound kinda serious about it and I would recommend that you either call a crisis hotline or check yourself into the hospital for a few days. Suicide is not the way man. I've luckily survived some attempts and all I know is that I regret every single time I tried. Life can get better, I know it's hard to believe sometimes but it's true.
 
number said:
I'm done. I have access to unlimited amount of tramadol, different kind of benzos, and alcohol naturally. I've got pretty high tolerance to all of those. I just want to go to sleep and continue somewhere else.
Do you think that 4000mg tramadol, 300mg diazepam and 1L of vodka is sufficient amount to do go? I don't want to survive in vegetable state or with some severe brain injury.
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Please reconsider your decision here. You can always wait another day to go through with this, but you can never undo it once you are already dead.

At the very least, wait half an hour and call a hotline first. Here is a directory of suicide hotlines for various countries: https://docs.google.com/document/d/12TVv6MPamOfz336IvcoOiTY7UwH9L5IsguyHEZaqsDk/edit?usp=sharing
 
number said:
Do you think that 4000mg tramadol, 300mg diazepam and 1L of vodka is sufficient amount to do go? I don't want to survive in vegetable state or with some severe brain injury.
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Not at all guaranteed, no. Benzos were actually invented to replace barbiturates because too many ppl were ODing on those.

Liver damage.. Brain damage.. Who knows 😕


Nas47 said:
hold on just a little bit......we all can go in eternity soon.
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^This 😐


Take it easy xx
 
number said:
guess its a wrong forum or something
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I dunno wrong or wright.Just said -hold on!Anytime u can kill urself.Just wait....that is my broda....suffering.....so suffer.....the end will come be sure of that and be calm,polite as much as u can....it's just a moment....eternity lies in front of us❤️
 
Thank you for your replies.
Killing my self if kind of a overkill statement.
I just don't have anything to do here anymore.
Nothing to with buuhuu poor me . Actually wtf i'm troubling wwith this.

i wish u all the best
 
Be well man.i am sure u did not trouble anybody here.this is The dark side.I have been written a lot more dire things than u....and at least get a heart❤️❤️❤️And that's mean a lot.....u know that u are not alone.Millions people suffer at this moment,some dies from bullets or bombs....or slowly diying eating by cancer.Stay close man.....we are the same more or less....humans,mortals❤️👍🙏
 
number said:
Hi,
I'm done. I have access to unlimited amount of tramadol, different kind of benzos, and alcohol naturally. I've got pretty high tolerance to all of those. I just want to go to sleep and continue somewhere else.
Do you think that 4000mg tramadol, 300mg diazepam and 1L of vodka is sufficient amount to do go? I don't want to survive in vegetable state or with some severe brain injury.
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I feel you so desperately. I agonise waking from peaceful sleep sometimes. If death is sleep, then maybe it is solace. We don't know, we wonder could another life be worse than this? We become absorbed in our hell so much so, that we don't open our mind to this. I think it would be a tremendously gruesome way to go. Please listen to our words, share another conversation with another human on here. Another being in the same world of pain as you. I take your hand and bless you, I send you the love of my heart, love which I sustain for any being in pain such as the pain I know. Find some solace in the unity with your fellow souls, We need not lose the fight today. Tomorrow is pure uncertainty. We are used to seeing repetition, but one day a cycle will break in some small way. We have no idea how delicate our situations really are, it takes only a small thing to set a positive feedback loop into motion. Every day we survive, our chances of health are increased. The more you try, the more likely you are to win. Remind yourself of the hope that sustained you all up to this point. This spark still glimmers, the love in our hearts is still glowing, clouded by an opaque and thick darkness. Search deep inside, for love. There is love, love for life. Love for those passed, love for strangers. Love is the antidote to this hell. We are unlucky beings, in an unfair place. This is true, but do not hyper fixate on the pain. We are programmed with our disorderly brains to hyper fixate on the negative, but your conscience knows better than this. Everyday we survive, just distract ourselves a bit. Anything to see out another day, please try to see out another day at least for me. I will try myself also. These disorders we possess, we were born with. But as something can be disorderly, it can be reorganised and made orderly. Science perseveres whilst we sit idle, our cures may only be days, weeks away. Hold out in the probable future of cure. We will rejoice once again, fulfil our long lost and ravaged desires, with all the ferocity and joy that we anticipated. We have to stop taking the weight of tomorrow on our shoulders today and do what we must, to survive. Please hold on my friend, I don't want to lose you. One day we can be the reason some other suffering soul can find peace, we can help others suffering. Please stay. You are needed here, there is a plan for all of us. I wish I could give you a hug, and you could forget your suffering for a short while.
 
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