TDS Ideation & Crisis Support

Unfortunately no. I look for him back all the time. I hover over his username frequently to see if it's still been March since he logged on and it has.

I know you and he shared many pm's about his problems as he did with me as well. He liked us both very much. You know what he was planning and I fear that he went through with it. Can't think of any other reason that he would abandon BL because he was addicted to it like the rest of us.

I miss his contributions and I miss his PM's.
damn i get all mixed up, i thought plumbus was dalpat, what a noob i am jeez
 
Over my years on BL this has happened with a fair few people. Much talk of suicide and/or reckless drug use, then they just....disappear. The worst part is never having closure, the unanswered questions. But IF dalpat ended his life, he is at peace <3


I'm so sorry I haven't responded to this until now Nas, I've had real-life shit going on (have you seen my thread in SLR?). I am really sad to hear that you feel bad again. But the key word here is AGAIN, this means that you have felt suicidal before, and it passed, you got through it, which means that you can get yourself through it again. And each time you do, you get stronger and better at it. How are you feeling today?
Thank you ma friend for support.I am OK right now.The pain passed after two days like usual.....like never been anything.Just....destiny.....must have patience while the poison goes through me and slowly drained off....really happy that i can comunicate with so incredible people from all around the globe....yes there no such place like Blue Light.Love you people!......
Yes man I very often think about Dalpat.Why he didsapered?Is it possible to use the site with another account?Have not impression that he have suicide tendencies.....as i remember even ain't got some big drug problem...may be more alcohol?And it's sad that we ain't got any conection with him&not know is he OK.Some decision to quit BL just like that?I hope that he is OK.
 
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No Plumbus post,that he is from Swiss,but live in Mexico.Dalpat is from South Africa...but i got feeling,that he is not native,but immigrant there......probably from Russia......just premonitions
 
What?!?Sorry who is Dale?Dalpat?
Yes I think bird just meant a pre-emptive RIP to dalpat, since he might have passed away but we may never know for sure.

I am really glad to hear that YOU are feeling better Nas ❤ Try to remember that if/when you have another dark couple of days and have those dark thoughts. Remember that they pass. Remember that you always feel better in a few days. This helps me when I'm not doing well ❤
 
I tried to end my life three times past year. I'm glad i did not succeed but i can't stop thinking of dying from Time to Time.
I'm really glad you survived those 3 attempts as well, and that you're still alive. I've tried 6 times altogether in my life and I am so incredibly grateful that I did not succeed in dying.
We are meant to be here @Isavela <3 I hope you're feeling okay today.
 
Hi,
I'm done. I have access to unlimited amount of tramadol, different kind of benzos, and alcohol naturally. I've got pretty high tolerance to all of those. I just want to go to sleep and continue somewhere else.
Do you think that 4000mg tramadol, 300mg diazepam and 1L of vodka is sufficient amount to do go? I don't want to survive in vegetable state or with some severe brain injury.
 
How u supposed someone to answer u?That's even criminal-to advice someone how to kill himself.....hold on just a little bit......we all can go in eternity soon.
 
guess its a wrong forum or something
No you're in the right place to express these thoughts. That said no one is going to want to advise you on the best way to commit suicide. We are here to support you though. Please reach out to someone, whether here or in your personal life. Support can come from all sorts of unexpected places. You sound kinda serious about it and I would recommend that you either call a crisis hotline or check yourself into the hospital for a few days. Suicide is not the way man. I've luckily survived some attempts and all I know is that I regret every single time I tried. Life can get better, I know it's hard to believe sometimes but it's true.
 
I'm done. I have access to unlimited amount of tramadol, different kind of benzos, and alcohol naturally. I've got pretty high tolerance to all of those. I just want to go to sleep and continue somewhere else.
Do you think that 4000mg tramadol, 300mg diazepam and 1L of vodka is sufficient amount to do go? I don't want to survive in vegetable state or with some severe brain injury.
Please reconsider your decision here. You can always wait another day to go through with this, but you can never undo it once you are already dead.

At the very least, wait half an hour and call a hotline first. Here is a directory of suicide hotlines for various countries: https://docs.google.com/document/d/12TVv6MPamOfz336IvcoOiTY7UwH9L5IsguyHEZaqsDk/edit?usp=sharing
 
Do you think that 4000mg tramadol, 300mg diazepam and 1L of vodka is sufficient amount to do go? I don't want to survive in vegetable state or with some severe brain injury.

Not at all guaranteed, no. Benzos were actually invented to replace barbiturates because too many ppl were ODing on those.

Liver damage.. Brain damage.. Who knows 😕


hold on just a little bit......we all can go in eternity soon.

^This 😐


Take it easy xx
 
Thank you for your replies.
Killing my self if kind of a overkill statement.
I just don't have anything to do here anymore.
Nothing to with buuhuu poor me . Actually wtf i'm troubling wwith this.

i wish u all the best
 
Be well man.i am sure u did not trouble anybody here.this is The dark side.I have been written a lot more dire things than u....and at least get a heart❤️❤️❤️And that's mean a lot.....u know that u are not alone.Millions people suffer at this moment,some dies from bullets or bombs....or slowly diying eating by cancer.Stay close man.....we are the same more or less....humans,mortals❤️👍🙏
 
Hey Abbey......stay here for God sake....I am worried enough for JTemperance.I don't leave u for now....if u are pissed off go&take a break,but please get back.U are hell of a woman🙏👍❤️💥🤸🤸🤸🤸🤸....wish u buy a caravan and roaming this vast lands....I wanna roaming Australia too👍
 
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