Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
tbh i would report that shit to your national NA or whatever. they should not be using the name. it is supposed to be open to all addicts.
when i was in rehab we went to a fucking awful meeting- newcomers time was at the start and some guy basically fillibustered it (he was talking about having years in) to stop one particular person who was apparently a regular there and was nodding out in his seat (i have been in NA in similar states and had nothing but support), well he shared anyway and everyone around him was rolling their eyes, tutting, and looking at their watches, then the chair cut him off. guys grandad, who he lived with and had brought him up, had just died. so he was losing his home and closest family at once.
then at the break everyone ignored him til we went up to speak to him. being not in a great frame of my mind i mostly told him how jealous i was of how fucked up he was in that moment.
our support worker who'd took us was so disgusted that he reported the meeting. it got shut down and someone helped the guy get a place in rehab.
i didn't even know you could report NA meetings but there you go.
if you don't want to go down that route have you tried SMART? or i do a Buddhism-based online one that i can PM you the details of if you think it would help. but it may go offline when things open up here. what about your local drugs services? any options for therapy?
despite all that you have done really well.
unfortunately that shit you're using to forget rears its ugly head once you stop using. you can't run away from it forever, but once you've processed all that you will start seeing improvements white quickly.
when i was in rehab we went to a fucking awful meeting- newcomers time was at the start and some guy basically fillibustered it (he was talking about having years in) to stop one particular person who was apparently a regular there and was nodding out in his seat (i have been in NA in similar states and had nothing but support), well he shared anyway and everyone around him was rolling their eyes, tutting, and looking at their watches, then the chair cut him off. guys grandad, who he lived with and had brought him up, had just died. so he was losing his home and closest family at once.
then at the break everyone ignored him til we went up to speak to him. being not in a great frame of my mind i mostly told him how jealous i was of how fucked up he was in that moment.
our support worker who'd took us was so disgusted that he reported the meeting. it got shut down and someone helped the guy get a place in rehab.
i didn't even know you could report NA meetings but there you go.
if you don't want to go down that route have you tried SMART? or i do a Buddhism-based online one that i can PM you the details of if you think it would help. but it may go offline when things open up here. what about your local drugs services? any options for therapy?
despite all that you have done really well.
unfortunately that shit you're using to forget rears its ugly head once you stop using. you can't run away from it forever, but once you've processed all that you will start seeing improvements white quickly.