psy997
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I disagree, its stuff like this that really is meant to happen for OP and you can see that the trip may have planted a seed that something is wrong with him and his reality.
Without psy, maybe I would have never realized how wrong I was about how I saw myself and my place in the universe.
This.
I had an extremely similar experience while doing DMT about a month and a half ego. Not able to let go, but at the same time focus my energy, to let the entities continue on and show me and teach me. It was like I couldn't focus my energy into letting them show me what they had to show me, and slowly felt them leaving while getting images of something wrong with me, etc. After 30-90 seconds it was down to a small amount of entities compared to the beginning, giving me the most brazen and concrete images of something being wrong with my brain ie. me having let my imagination go, needing a 'format and repartition', etc.
It was extremely saddening, almost depressing, having never experienced anything short of magic in hyperspace, but showed me that I need to work on this part of me that I'd all but abandoned for the past couple of years. It happened for a reason, search within yourself, find that reason, and deal with it.